I always hear The buzz of the Beedrills.
And as I lick my lolly.
Happy as can be I finally see a honey tree.
I lick the honey With an eager tongue.
And watch as he Fill my head.
Heavy as lead.
And helps tuck me in bed.
And then I go to sleep with a smile
And sing of songs after awhile.
And eat so much candy
I feel so good!
I fall asleep
With a Pikachu on my sweaters hood.
Then I woke up
To screams and shouts!
The Beedrills are no longer buzzing about.
The trees
They've withered.
The honey is gone.
My kitten is singing a sorrowful song.
I run outside
Full of tears.
And then I realize
All of my fears.
Are here to destroy me
And consume my mind.
Until all is left but me, for a time.
Simple and Clean says:
Some people take joy
But I do not.
I take happiness
And crumple it up.
I send it in bunches
To someone else.
Because I am not happy
Nothing else.
Joy and destruction.
All a part of my mind.
The joy been thrown away
For such a long time.
And as I wonder
And sit here in dread.
What I ever did
For the consequences ahead.
As I walk through the villages
My happiness
My joy.
All burning into ash
All sad and destroyed.
I wish with my heart
To be set free.
To know what it feels like
To just be me.
What is it like
Sometimes I sit here and wonder.
What the rain feels like
And maybe the thunder.
The happiness
So powerful as it can be
Cannot overcome
The sorrow in me.
I am alone.
I have no-one there.
And when they come by
They stick up their noses
And point their fingers
Laughing and crying with joy.
And say, "Let her die"
"Let her be. Let us all just leave her"
"She will never be set free"
And as I sit in my cage
And watch my surroundings
The freedom
The air
The happiness around me
I hit on the metal
And cry so hard
Until I take the knife
Left beside me.
The only way to escape
From this prison of mine
May very well be
Death and demise.
I will take that chance.
To be set free.
To escape the clutches
Of the people around me.
I am no-one
And no-one is nothing.
All I really wanted.
Was to feel like something.
Clutching slipped into Death's arms
And he took care of me
And for the first time
I was really happy.
He put me in a place
With the bees and the honey.
Death's weapon
In my very hands
One hit to the heart
Is all I can stand.
But my heart has already been hit
In so many ways
And as I sit here and die
I knew my days were numbered
The clouds and the thunder.
The thunder is lightning
The rain tornadoes
I feel something like
A rotten tomato.
For spilling the redness
All about the floor
The people watching
Worried about me
And they finally realize
As I escape from life's clutches
That I needed their comfort
Their joy and their hugs
And they finally realize this?
For such a long time.
I've sat there
And they did not see
What was happening to me
For I was the darkness
And the darkness was in me.
And finally they notice
My screams and my shouts.
My cries.
And they only stare
At my demise
In great surprise.
I want to cry
But it hurts too much
I'll show them I want this
I need it so much.
And finally I am gone.
They trying to open my prison
But now they will recall
That it was too late.
My kitten
The songs
And now I know all along.
If I had just shown what was inside
For such a long time
I might have had a chance.
To live that long.
And maybe
What I really needed
Was someone to lead the way
Out of this darkness
And Death
He did.
He hugged me tight
He told me, "Everything is alright"
And I believed him
So desperate I was And he showed me the way He talked He hugged And then I was in a place With happiness everywhere So maybe That's my lesson from there on He gave me another chance And saw the suicidal dance That I performed.
It was beautiful
They recall
Me springing around
Like pixies in the fall.
And then I just smile
And watch them with favor.
Next time
I will help them.
Forgiveness is my labor.