Notes: Well this is
my first Taiora/Sorato as well as romance. The idea came to me as I was writing
the second part of Phases of Life, so I thought why not write it. I
honestly didn't mean to make it so depressing. I just wanted everyone in
character and such. I hope you enjoy it!
Disclaimer: Digimon is the property of Toei Animation and Bandai.
A Moment Too Late
By Frozen Phoenix
Valentine's Day was usually a pleasant day for
Yagami Tachi. As the star soccer player of his school, he often had several
admirers, however he often avoided the holiday. But this year he had plans.
This year he wanted to spend the day with his long time best friend Takenouchi
Sora.
But the day before Valentine's Day was just as
important. After years of beating around the bush, he had finally gathered up
his courage and was ready to do what he had been putting off for years.
It's ironic, he thought,
to be the bearer of the Crest of Courage and yet be afraid to ask Sora, whom he
had known for years, and whom he thought of as one of his best friends, out on
a date.
But today, that was going to change.
He had seen her all day in school, and even
shared several classes with her, but it never seemed like the right time to
speak about something so personal. So he had waited until before soccer
practice was about to begin and pulled her aside.
"Sora, I really need to talk to you." He spoke
seriously.
Her eyes widened slightly and worry crossed
her face.
"Tai, is everything all right? Has something
happened?" She asked apprehensively.
Tai almost smiled. The way she was worried
about him showed how she unconditionally cared about others, one of her most
valuable traits.
"Can you stay for a minute after practice? I
need to ask you something. It won't take very long." He coaxed, trying to
convince her.
She smiled slightly, the worry easing from her
face.
"Of course I'll stay."
Tai felt like a large weight had been lifted
of his shoulders. But the relief only lasted a moment until the soccer coach's
voice carried over the field,
"Yagami, get on the field, this is a soccer
practice not a social hour."
Sora's smile widened. "You should get going
Tai, you wouldn't want to keep the team waiting." She said teasingly.
He mirrored her smile. "Besides what's a team
without its captain?"
"Yagami!" the agitated coach yelled.
Tai sighed and ran across the field. The coach
and the rest of the team were already divided into two teams.
"Nice you could finally join us, Yagami." The
coach spoke sarcastically.
"Eh sorry about that." Tai murmured
embarrassedly.
He looked at the stands and saw Sora sitting in the front, close to the field. On her left, sat her pink bird Digimon
Biyomon and on her right his best friend Ishida
Yamato and his wolf-like Digimon Gabumon. She saw him watching and waved.
"Yagami, the practice is on the field not in
the stands." Came a loud voice in front of him.
"Sorry Coach." He said apologetically. The coach
merely shook his head and muttered something about teenagers and their
hormones.
Tai immediately brought his attention back to the field. He had a feeling that soccer practice was going to be grueling that day.
And it was. The coach had worked everyone,
very toughly. There was a game in a few days and they had to be ready.
Tai changed as quickly as possible. After
everything that had happened, the last thing he wanted to do was keep Sora
waiting.
He found he sitting in the stands where she
and Matt had been sitting earlier. Her usually pleasant and serene face was
drawn sadly.
Now it was his turn. "Sora, is something
wrong?" He asked with concern "Where'd Biyomon, Gabumon and Matt go?"
She smiled slightly. "Gabumon said he was
hungry, so they went to get something to eat. They should be back soon." He
voice became serious. "You said you had something you needed to talk to me
about?"
The moment of truth. For a second Tai felt
panicked. Get it together, Yagami. You've practiced this a million times.
"Well," he took a breath, "Sora, we've known
each other for a long time and I wanted to tell you, that even though I never
really said anything, I've always seen had feelings for you. I know at times it
hasn't seemed that way, like when I threw up in your hat and didn't tell you
about it, or when I bought you that hair pin. But I've always cared about you
and respected and admired the way you care about everyone other than yourself.
Even when we were in the Digital World and T. K. was upset because he missed
his mother, you immediately comforted him. You held us together even when
things got really bad." Tai looked away nervously.
"I know this is all really sudden and
everything, but I've been wanting to tell you how I felt for a while. And I was
wondering if you'd like to go out with me tomorrow. I'm not sure what we'd do
yet. I was so nervous about today, I didn't plan that far. But as long as I'm
with you, I know we'd have a great time. " He turned back to her, waiting for
her to respond.
Sora bowed her head. These were the words she
had wanted to hear for so long, and now she was hearing them far too late.
"Sora?" Tai questioned her.
She looked up, the sadness evident upon her
face. "Oh Tai, I'm so sorry. Thank you for telling me how you feel, it means so
much to me. I care about you so much and only want you to be happy. But, I
can't go out with you."
"But why?" He asked in confusion.
Sora felt her face grow warm and she struggled
not to look away. "Because Matt and I have been planning on going out to a
concert tomorrow night,"
The silence seemed endless. For Tai it was a
shocked silence and for Sora it was a painful one. After what seemed like
eternity, Tai finally spoke.
"You and Matt. Wow, when did this all happen?"
Sora shifted uncomfortably. " I'm not really
sure myself." She sighed. "It just seemed that we constantly kept running into
each other in school. And then after school, when you had soccer practice and
we were waiting for you, or he would stop by the flower shop and we'd just start
talking and…" She stopped seeing a pained look appear upon his face.
"Waiting for me." He repeated. To think, here
he was losing the only girl he cared about, and it completely his fault it was
happening.
"I'm so sorry, Tai. I never meant to hurt you."
Sora was having trouble looking at his face, usually so full of energy and good
humor, now looking haunted and even angry.
"You're sorry?" he repeated her once again.
She flinched hearing a bitter tone that seemed so out of place in his voice.
As if reading her mind he turned from her. She
moved forward as though to take his hand, to make him in some way understand.
He moved away from her and stood his back to her face. His eyes scanned across
the field as though searching for something, anything that could bring him
salvation.
After a moment he spoke. His voice had lost
its bitter, defensive tone and seemed beaten, tired. "You shouldn't be sorry."
"Tai," she began.
He continued on as though she had said
nothing. "You have no reason to be." He turned. "There's no reason for you to
feel bad about caring about Matt. After all we've all been friends for years."
He smiled wanly. "I'm glad that you two have become closer and I know that
he'll take care of you." Like I should have, he thought miserably.
Sora looked at the face she had known for
years. As they had grown older she realized she could always tell what he was
feeling by looking at him. And now, despite the smile, she could see terrible
pain reflected in his eyes. The pain that she had caused. She felt tears that
she had been repressing begin to spill out down her face.
Tai looked at her mournfully. I came to
tell her how much I love her and now I'm hurting her. He placed a hand on
the side of her face awkwardly. "Please Sora, don't cry. Making you cry was the
last thing I ever wanted to do." He stopped speaking.
For a moment they both stood silently musing
and wondering about what could have been. Then Tai gently pulled his hand from her
face and rummaged in his pocket looking for a tissue. She watched him pull one
out and hand it to her.
"It's clean and besides you don't want Matt to
see that you were crying do you?" The last statement was spoken without malice,
only with pain.
"Tai-"
He raised a hand, cutting her off once again.
"I know that I'm barely keeping my eyes from watering, and soon I'll end up
bawling along with you. I better go."
Sora knew what he was doing. He was keeping
his feelings inside, locked away from her. This was the one time he wouldn't
confide in her.
"Sora!" She heard a voice behind her call. She
turned and saw Matt walking slowly, with three ice cream cones in his hands,
followed by Gabumon with two. Biyomon was flying ahead of them.
Tai's fists clenched and for a moment he
actually considered hitting Matt. Not out of anger, merely as a way to relieve
some of the pain he was feeling. Before Matt could reach them he spoke again.
"I have to go. I just remember that I was
supposed to stat dinner half an hour ago. Mom will probably have a fit if the
tofu casserole isn't thawed right."
Sora immediately saw through his cover and sighed, "Tai," She stopped when she saw the look he was giving her.
"Try not to burn the casserole too badly."
After a moment he smiled. "You're talking to
the guy who knew how to operate the stove when he was eight years old."
She shook her head. "I know. That's what I'm
afraid of."
Silence was present once again, until Tai
spoke,
"Sora, I just want you to be happy. And if
you're not with me then I'm glad you're with Matt."
With that he turned and began to walk away.
"Tai, wait up!" Matt called finally catching
up to them. But Tai didn't turn or respond. Matt looked at Sora's face and knew
immediately that she had been crying. He also had an idea why.
The ice cream was immediately forgotten, as
Matt let it fall to the ground and wrapped his arms around her.
Biyomon also saw Sora's face and asked worriedly, "Sora, are you okay? Why were
you crying?"
Gabumon was focused on Tai. "Shouldn't we go
after him?"
Matt shook his head. "No. I think he just
wants to be alone."
Sora watched Tai over Matt's shoulder with unyielding sadness, as Tai continued walking away from them. And now he really thinks he is.
Tai was now running. He had no idea where he was going
and at the time didn't really care. He wanted to keep moving, to run fast
enough to erase the pain of the conversation that had happened mere minutes
ago.
How could I have been so foolish, he
wondered. Did I expect her to just wait around for me forever? A selfish
part of him said yes, but the realistic part of him knew that that was far too
much to ask. He had had his chance time and again, and blew it. There was no
one to blame for this but himself.
He stopped running and sweat and something he vaguely
recognized as tears dripped off his face. Using the back of his hand he wiped
his face and clearly looked at his surroundings.
He was on a small bridge, overlooking traffic and
pedestrians hurrying to return to their homes after a hard days work. He looked
up and saw the sun slowly dulling, beginning its trek towards twilight.
Tai watched everything with silent observation. The only
thought on his mind was: What do I do now?
Screeching tires and a honking horn was his only reply.
~To Be Continued…~
