The Biggest Mistake I Never Had to Make
Wake up n the hospital to see Varon holding flowers and grinning like there was nothing wrong. I didn't notice that there might be. And I remembered what had happened just a week or two before. And I made him cry by saying their names. And we're broke and he's stupid and I couldn't get a job if I had tried. We've got nowhere to live and this was the biggest mistake I never had to make. And Raphael wouldn't answer Varon's calls; Amelda doesn't even have a phone. Maybe, we could get through this if I tried really hard. I worry that we'll choke on trouble because sometimes I wonder if what he did was right. I am really grateful that he saved me. But why do I need to be saved all the time? Maybe he overestimated his friends or underestimated me. Maybe I would have been fine. Some information that I got for impressing the doctor with my assets, told us that Amelda had brain damage and that his bleeding was severe. The hospital bills had more money than I knew they could spare. But apparently Raphael's parents had left him everything they had. The last of his legacy go because of me.
And even after all the pain, Raphael walked into our cramped city apartment and told us we could come back again. And it is such a shame that nothing could ever be the same. I feel guilty just being alive. I can't help feeling that I would have me fine. Why was it me? I almost, almost turned him down, we Varon's tears began to flow and I didn't want to take this away. And because I'm selfish I completely ignored Raphael and Varon on the way there. Varon was gibbering like a child, it really was cute, and Raphael was trying not to kill him. When we got there Varon was eager to see Amelda once again. And we walk in and I as where Amelda was and Raphael says n his room. So I walk in and talk a look and see that his face is scared. I assume that the rest looks the same. And I make him hate me even more than he already did by telling him it's not so bad. He fumbles and stumbles and then I understand that his brain really is damaged. Raphael says that the short term memory loss is temporary. And I realize that this was a mistake. And Amelda's got that cat he wanted for such a long time. He's dexterity is suffering and Raphael told me it was worse. I wonder if this is a conspiracy to get me to feel worse. And it's working if is. It is working if it is.
I plead to Amelda asking for forgiveness and he looks at me like I was crazy. He smirks a smirk with missing teeth I assume that was from the crash or falling over himself. And he tells me it's alright. That the house was lonely without us here and begged for Raphael to let us come back. He turns away and only notice that he's gone by the clicking of his boots. I sit here thinking if I was wrong and maybe Amelda really was strong. Maybe I really was the weaker link. I still regret hurting my family for a shot at a love I didn't deserve. Maybe purple orbs and grey eyes weren't so different after all. It took me this long to realize I belonged. Thanks to the biggest mistake I never had to make. No Varon made the mistake for me, so I could see. This was the biggest mistake I never had to make. I didn't make it and I still regret. It's really funny how I feel this way about people I never liked. I never really regretted hurting Yugi and his pals. So you know what maybe the mistake was fate. We are destined to tangle together. This was the biggest regret I never thought I would have. Yeah, that's better.