Hi everybody,

I am a huge Reid fan and just rewatched Revelations. I was disappointed in the way the show handled his drug use, so I wrote my own. I know there are several others like this, but I had this idea in my head and I wanted to put it on paper because A) It wouldn't stop nagging me and B) I am having serious writer's block with my other story I'm working on for white collar but I will update that very soon.

Thank you to my beta for making my writing readable

Disclaimer: I do not own Criminal Minds or any of the characters used in this story, it is all for fun.

Warning: spoilers for Revelations

I know nothing about drugs so If I make any glaring mistakes I apologize and ask you to either suspend disbelief or let me know and I will try to change it if I am able to.

Reid's POV

I stared at the needle that had become my only friend these last few months. The only thing that could make the pain stop; help me cope.

Five months, five months since I had been taken, beaten, and almost killed. It would be easy to blame Tobias for my addiction, but I knew the truth. Even if he hadn't given me the drugs to survive the beatings I would have turned to them anyway, just to be able to deal with the emotional pain.

You would think with me being as smart as I am, I would realize drugs aren't the answer. I know the risks; the damage I am inflicting on my mind and body, and for what? For a few moments of feeling good? The problem was even though my mind knows this my body wants it; needs it anyway.

I pushed my kit away from me and all too soon the feelings were too strong and knew I had to give in. I was weak. It wasn't something I wanted anymore, it was something I needed. I had to meet the rest of the team in an hour so I tied the tourniquet around my arm and winced as the needle broke my skin.

A single tear rolled down my cheek as I pressed down and the clear liquid entered my veins and felt a blissful drowsiness come over me.

Then it all changed in a second. Something was very wrong. The floor raced towards me and blackness was threatening to crush me. I realized I was overdosing. Had I checked the amount carefully? I barely had time to form a coherent memory of the needle before I succumbed to the darkness and knew no more.

Morgan's POV

I can't do this anymore. Everyone had been so glad when Reid was rescued in Georgia, but as more time went on every member of the team realized we didn't rescue him, not really. He was still being tortured, but this time it was by a force we couldn't see. So how are we supposed to save him? He is being taken away from us a little bit more everyday. I can't just sit here and let it happen anymore. I have to sit down with him and make him tell me what's going on.

Not showing up for a case was as un-Reid-like as it was possible to get. We were possibly hours from identifying the unsub and no one had heard from Reid all day. I walked down the hall of the hotel we were staying in, opened my room and pushed opened the adjacent room's door to confront him.

What I saw nearly stopped my heart. Reid was laying on the ground making a soft moaning sound. I knelt down beside him and as I was checking for visible signs of trauma when my foot collided with a small glass object and I picked it up.

I froze for a moment as I realized what it was.

NO.

There had to be some other rational explanation for this. Drugs and our genius don't mix, but as I looked down I saw a tourniquet tied in place, and the needle was still in his arm.

The more I thought about it the more it made sense. The moodiness, pushing everyone away. Damn it, why hadn't I seen it sooner? Hankle had been an addict so he had probably gotten Reid hooked. I hadn't thought it was possible for me to hate that man more than I already did but I was wrong. For the first time I actually wished he was still alive so I could kill him myself.

Reid was gently stirring and I sighed, glad he was conscious. I wouldn't have to call for an ambulance. If I had, there would be no way around Strauss finding out. I leaned him against the end of the farthest bed and he slowly opened his eyes.

Reid's pov

I opened my eyes and surveyed my surroundings. I pulled the needle out of my arm and I froze in place when I saw my kit on the floor and Morgan staring at me with worry.

I tried to say something, anything, but the words died in my throat so I tried again.

"Please don't tell anyone," I said. My voice was raspy and pleading. Shock crossed his features.

"Reid, you're a drug addict." He said with difficulty. "You need help."

I winced at the accusation and I longed to tell him I wasn't. I hadn't slipped that far but looking around me I had to face the fact that I had. I was at rock bottom

"Please," I said again, and before I realized what was happening, I was crying on his shoulder. He didn't say anything for five minutes after I stopped.

"I'm not going to say anything," he said carefully. My expression must have been too relieved because he added, "If you stop right now.

I paused for a moment and then nodded, wondering if he was actually going to keep that promise.

"Ok, then get cleaned up. I was sent up here to check on you. We need your brilliant mind right now."

"I will be ready in two minutes," I grabbed my kit and threw it in the trash which got a nod of approval from Morgan and walked into the bathroom to get dressed.

How am I going to do it? I can't just give it up cold turkey. I only had 1 1/2 more doses until I was done with my current vile so I could wean myself off with that amount. Would Morgan notice, though?

When I came out Morgan walked towards the door and I went to follow him, barely stopping when I reached in the trash can to my kit and grabbed the contents, just leaving the bag behind.

I know Morgan is a little OC because he has shown in the show he would have told Hotch or Gideon right away but I need him using in the next chapter and tried other team members finding him and it didn't flow as well so I stuck with it.

This is a two shot and I already have most of the next chapter written so I should update in a few days. I am sorry about how short it is but the next chapter longer so hopefully that makes up for it.

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