My first fanficition ever! Read and Review please! I hope you enjoy!

I spent a lot of time writing this, so no hate! I do like critism though, as long as it's not bullying. I really love Elavan, and I'm sorry if this chapter seems like a lot and fluff and shit. Oh - and it's rated Teen because you never know what might pop into my head. I write exactly what I am thinking... and sometimes, that may involve cuss words... or Liz & Avan having some fun. I'm not sure where I'm headed with this yet.

C-H-A-P-T-E-R-1

"The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting.

Could it be that we have been this way before?

I know you don't think that I am trying..."

Her name was Jade, and she went to Hollywood Arts high school. She was beautiful, an angry soul, but beautiful. And he loved her, more than anything. There we're times when she'd throw scissors across the room and break down crying, throwing herself against the wall. She'd threaten to be someone she wasn't. Only Beck saw this side...

Beck could see through her. He knew the secrets to her anger, how she felt. He had once felt the same way. He could show his feelings though. Beck was able to explain. Jade on the other hand... She was better at hiding. Better at pretending... that nothing was love. That hate was everything.

That was definitely was much different from the real Elavan. Isn't that what the fans called it now? He couldn't exactly remember. But he knew, that if he could just reach out to Elizabeth. Say that he loved her. Avan knew he wanted too. More than anything.

He did love Elizabeth. He'd do anything for Liz McGillies. He could see himself being her knight in shining armor. Not that he had proven himself yet. His recent actions hadn't shown any love to her.

It all started about a month ago. Avan had stopped talking to Elizabeth. No particular reason. They had... sorta grown apart. Not really. Victorious had stopped filming, and he just didn't want to take the time to call her. Mostly because she was jealous. He remembered the fight they had the last time they had filmed together.

Backstage the air was chilly, and Avan wanted for than anything to pull Liz close to him and smile. He couldn't though, because she technically wasn't his. As much as he hated it, he couldn't go public with her. He couldn't date her. Too many jealous fans. She didn't deserve death threats like he heard Selena Gomez had gotten.

'Why does it have to be like this,' he thought to himself. 'Why can't I man up and tell her how I really feel.'

Elizabeth sighed and rubbed her bare arms. They had just finished one of the last scenes for Season 2. She was still completely in her Jade makeup; which included everything from her red Doc Martens to her blue and green streaks. Not that he didn't love this look. He would love Liz even if she was fat and dressed as a man and had the thickest mustache.

Why did he love her Jade look? He had to ask himself this numerous times, before he realized it reminded me of their amazing make out sessions - even if they we're planned out.

"It's a shame," he said, looking towards Liz. "that we can't be together in real life."

She had given him a semi-smile. "Who ever said that?"

He smirked. "Well, I just assumed..."

"You assumed wrong," she smiled. "Unless thats what you wanted."

"I don't know what I want," Avan looked away.

"You never know."

"Listen - it's just I don't want anything to happen to our friendship."

"Whatever"

"Liz, you gotta believe me," he pleaded to her.

"Never."

Avan cringed at the memory. It was still... so fresh in his mind. He turned his head, hoping things would be less awkward this time around. He loved Liz, he really truly did.

But maybe it was his fault they hadn't talked. It's not like he had taken the time to reach out to her. He just hadn't felt inspired. He grabbed his phone, scrolled down to McGillies, and was about to press call when the phone vibrated.

New Message from McGillies: Hey. We haven't talked in a while. How you been?

It's like she read his mind. He was thinking the same thing.

Avan replied to the message with a simple, "I've been good. You?"

New Message from McGillies: Same old crazy Liz.(:

He couldn't bring himself to answer as he stared at the phone. She was reminding him of being on set. The text also reminded him of the kiss they had first shared when practicing. He had touched her back, and said "Same old crazy Liz."

He wanted so badly to tell her in person... not over a text message. A phone call wouldn't do either.

"Wanna come over later?" Avan texted her. "Around 8."

New Message from McGillies: Sure... if you think it's a good idea... (:

AHHH! I'm sorry I left with a cliff hanger, and I'm sorry it's soooo long! I have a tendency to do that when writing! I really hope this meets your expectations of Elavan. I really don't know what's actually going on with them... but I really CAN picture this. And sorry if both Liz & Avan seem to much like their characters... I really do love Beck&Jade. Be sure to read my favorited stories and my BADE fanficition!

Disclaimer: I do not own Victorious... When I confronted Dan about it, he got a restraining order! The lyrics are from Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade.