The Beginning Of The End

"Im sorry but, she's dead." The doctor said solemnly before walking out of the room. No. No. no. NO! I ran outside in the pouring rain and cried. Cried till I couldn't tell if it was raining or if it was just the tears. She was gone. My first love is gone, dead and do you know what the worst part is? It's all my fault she is dead. I don't know what the point of life is, I will never feel happiness again. How can I when the only person who could make the worst of days better is gone. She took my heart and soul with her, but what ever. She can have them, they belong to her. What do I do now? Now that she is gone should I leave town? Should I run to my weakness? Should I even let myself continue to live?

"Craig buddy you need to go back to your parents apartment"

"Naw, I think its time for me to return to my home town, I think I need to go home to South Park."

"If you think that's best"

"I have no idea. I just need to get away from here. Away from everything that is her."

Clyde's POV

I haven't seen my best friend in nearly five years, yes im talking about Craig Tucker. Who else would I be talking about? I haven't talked to him either. His parents uprooted him bam they were gone, where? I have no clue. They just kind of disappeared. I text him once a day, I don't know if he gets them, but I still send them. I miss him so much. So fucking much. Before he left we had a huge fight, because I told him I was bi, I honestly didn't think he would care. He ran to Kenny McCormick, of all people. They became close then McCormick comes out (swings both ways, whore he is) and Craig doesn't even care at all. I ask Craig about it and he apologizes and were all good again. The next day he isnt at school, I text him, I get no answer. I go to his house after school, no ones there, there isnt anything in the house. It was abounded by the Tuckers, they hadn't even left a note. I had sat there and cried for at least an hour. Of course Kenny was a little upset the next day too since the two had become inseparable lately but he returned to his other friends, as did I. I hang with Token, Tweek and Kevin. No one special, but their my childhood friends. Butters hangs out with us most the time too but he also hangs out with Kenny, Stan, Kyle, and Cartman.

You may wonder, how are they. Hmmm…. Kenny is skinny, blonde haired, blue eyed, tall and kinda hot. He wears a orange hoodie, blue skinny jeans and converse, he no longer keeps his damn hoodie pulled up either. Stan is kinda gothic ever since his last break up with Wendy, I heard she even turned him gay, but any way he has his raven hair, midnight blue eyes, thin body and average height. He wears a Dr. Dre t-shirt with a black hoodie over it, black skinny jeans and converse. He still hangs with his friends though, they seem thankful for that. Kyle is still a annoying fag, he is off and on with Bebe, Red and Rebecca. He is skinny, plays no sports, average height, a little shorter than me, still has that red hair though. Speaking of that hair, it has calmed down, a lot. It isnt as curly, praise the lord for him. He has green eyes, like just green, no other way to describe them. Cartman is exactly the same. Fat and racist. That sums him up. Of and he is a little shorter the Stan but taller than Kyle. Yea. Token is black as ever, he is kind of short, throws lots of parties and is on the school football team. His eyes are chocolate brown and hair jet black. Tweak, well Tweek is one freak attack from the mental institute or the morgue. He has dirty blonde hair and hazel eyes, he is thin as a rail, but tall. Like really tall. Me? Im not chubby any more! I lost the weight when I played football for a year, but I quit cause it was a lot of work. I have honey brown hair, sea green eyes, and a pretty nice body. I tend to have more girlfriends than boyfriends but give me a little weed or alcohol, we'll see.

So you may wonder of all randomness why bring up my best friend, I haven't seen in five years? Because I saw his sister this morning. Everyone did. She was pretty as ever, with her candy red hair, grey sparkly eyes, thin, busty body. She strutted through and to the principal. No one talked to her, because no one was sure it was her. I ran over to Kenny, knowing he had just seen Rosie Tucker.

"Dude did you see her" Was all he said when I got over there, I just nodded. "I don't want to sound like a perv, since were in 11th grade and she is in 9th, but she looked kinda hot" I laughed dryly.

"Do you think, do you think Craigs back as well?" I asked as we walked to class together. We still have Garrison, the school assigned each class a teacher to go throughout the years with them so here we are. Stupid small hick town.

"I have no clue, I really hope so, I miss him." We left it at that and walk in silence and walked up to Stan and Kyle.

"Did you two see Rosie Tucker?" Stan asked in his low, monotone voice. Kenny nodded.

"Yea" Was all I could say.

"I saw the assholes moving in their old house this morning"

"Their not assholes fatass" Kenny said irritably. Eric glared at Kenny.

"Ey! Im not fat! Im big boned! Theres a difference… and if you want to know about your gay lover boy I would suggest being nice!" God I want to punch him in the fucking face! He would probably sit on me though and THAT would NOT be pretty…

"Fine, was he there?" Kenny asked. Eric smiled.

"Yea, the little ass was there, I didn't recognize him at first, he was all zombie like and when I went over to talk to him…. Get this, his mom asked me not to because he just got out of the hospital, I guess your lover boy is suicidal, but that's my best guess" Craig, suicidal? No, he may hate a lot of people here but he had a reason. He is a good person. He wouldn't try to kill himself.

"What did his mom say exactly fatass" Stan demanded. Why does Stan care?

"EY! You know what, screw you Stan im go over mwa" And Cartman walked off to chat to MY friends.

"I cant believe he is back" Was what I choked out. Im really emotional, like I cry a lot. You have a problem with it?

"I cant believe he tried to kill himself." Kenny muttered.

"Screw school, I need to talk to him, and screw his mom, I can break in his window" I said confidently. I have fucking lost it. "And we dont know that for sure"

"Yea, yea I'll come with" Kenny nods as he says that and Stan throws us a look.

"What Marsh?" I ask annoyed with his superior look.

"What if he doesn't want to talk, what if he doesn't even remember you guys? When people try to commit suicide it is usually pretty bad." He really irritates me.

"We don't know that he tried to kill himself!" I cry out. I just storm off. Kenny follows after me. Rosie Tucker comes out of Principal Jackson's office.

"Well if it isn't Clyde Donovan and Kenny McCormick" She smiles and wraps me in a hug, Then Kenny.

"Well if it isnt the mysterious Rosie Tucker" I said shakily. Her smile dropped.

"Oh, yeah. Um about that… you should ask Craig… if he um… you know, maybe you shouldn't ask Craig because… Um he is… sick" My heart stuttered. She used to tell me everything. I mean she grew up with Craig and her emotionless family, and her brothers very emotional best friend who she could tell everything. He must have tried to kill himself. Wat did life ever do to him?

"Fatass was right" Kenny muttered. My thoughts exactly.

"Look all I can say Clyde is he got your texts every day. It may have kept him alive that you kept trying. I really don't think I should be telling you this but when we left town it was because our dad was beating Craig, and no one knew it. Mom got dad taken away and moved us to get rid of all the memories. Craig made friends there, but I knew he had missed you guys. Mom made him promise he wouldn't ever contact you guys, he didn't. A year ago something happened, that isnt my story to tell, Craig pleaded with mom to bring us back here. She said no. We were gone one day shopping and when we came home his door was locked. When we finally got the door down, his wrists were both wide open and flooding with blood. He was out cold, but withering at the same time" My hand flew to my mouth, Rosie was crying, Kenny was breathing weird and staring straight at Rosie. "And- and he just stopped moving. We got his body and I called 911. His heart wasn't beating for a whole two minutes. He went into a coma for a couple weeks, my mom considered texting you but then like a miracle, he woke up. He had lost at least sixty percent of his blood. He should have been dead. Dead because he couldn't handle life anymore" She laughs dryly. "I just didn't understand his problem. I never did. The story im not to tell didn't effect him that bad at first, or it didn't seem like it. I mean he was fine, he went on with it. I think he needs you, but to be honest, I don't know how much he will remember. His memory is still coming back, the doctors said give it a few more weeks but I- just- I just don't know anymore" She just broke down. Threw herself at Kenny and I and sobbed. The bell rang and we kinda carried her outside.

"Ill drive you home, how did you get here any way?" I asked her as we stepped into the icy parking lot.

"I walked, I was supposed to start today but ill start tomorrow with Craig" She said as she starred into the fresh piles of snow.

"Jesus Christ that must have been one hell of a walk…" Kenny mumbled as he jumped in the back seat of my car, I sat Rosie in the passenger seat and walked around to start the car. It warmed up fairly quickly.

"So he is starting tomorrow?" I asked dryly. She nodded.

"How long has it been since he got out of the hospital?" Kenny looked a little unsure.

"Almost a year. This all went down in the beginning of last year. Its like he doesn't want to live. You know the first thing he asked for when he woke up was you Kenny? Then when mom said no he asked for you Clyde. It was really sad." God damn McCormick. Kenny will probably whore himself to Craig just like he does to everyone and ill be left alone, because im not as good looking as Kenny fucking McCormick. At least if you married me you could eat more than frozen waffles everyday! Well… Craigs straight so I m safe.

"Can we come in. Just to talk to him?" I said on the verge of tears. I swear, if I cry I will shoot myself.

"Yea, I think you need to. Mom cant shelter him forever, only till tomorrow morning." She looked at her hands, trying not to cry.

"Rosie your not telling us something…" Kenny pulled himself to Rosies ear and looked at her.

"He didn't only try to commit suicide once… it was numerous times" She sobbed into Kennys shoulder. I pulled up to the old Tucker house, the one with a U-haul now parked in front of it.

"Im so sorry Rosie, I- I cant imagine it." I said looking at the snow starting to fall again. Why does the snow always fall at the most inconvenient of times?

" Pretend like I told you nothing, just let me take you inside, and to Craig. I dont think mom is home right now." She open the door and slams it shut.

"You ready?" Kenny asks as he runs a hand threw his hair, I nod and turn my car off, take a deep breathe and step out. We walk up to the door silently and Rosie unlocks it.

"MOM IM HOME! I BROUGHT CLYDE AND KENNY TOO!" She yells and throws her black jacket on the coat hanger.

"Kenny? Clyde?" A dark monotone voice asks.

Authors Note: Okay…. Yes the top part is like a year and a half before Clyde's POV. Craig is really messed up over his lost love. I mean, REALLY messed up. So leave a review saying what you might like to happen or who you would like everyone to end up with… because I listen to my fans. Now this story will have so many couplings you cant just skip a chapter because you don't like the coupling then. The whole thing is pretty much written except like ten chapters but im willing to re write some parts. Now Stan is gothish meaning he occasionally hangs with the goth kids but most the time not. So till next time…