Kylie: Here's a new story! A sad one at that!
Jace: You're emo...
Clary: Quit that, Jace:
Jace: Quit what?
Clary: Don't assume things.
Kylie: Don't worry, Clary, he's right.
(I only own these characters in my dreams/fantasies. But let's face it, this is reality so Cassie Clare owns these wonderful characters!)
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September 03, 2011
Diary,
Jace announced to everyone during the party that he and Aline were engaged. I felt my heart break. But I still smiled, clapped, and I even congratulated them. And luckily, I kept myself together until the end of the party.
When I got home, I cried my heart out. I love him, so much, but he doesn't love me back. He's got Aline now. And I'm happy for him.
Because I want to see him smile. A true smile.
And he can only do it with Aline.
Clary
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September 10, 2011
Diary,
I saw Jace crying today. I asked him what was wrong and he snapped at me. He didn't even apologize.
He said that he and Aline had a fight, I almost jumped for joy.
Almost.
But Jace was unhappy. And I know that I should fix it for him.
So that he can smile again.
Clary
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September 15, 2011
Diary,
I did it. Jace and Aline are happy together. They're holding the wedding on the 28th. Two days before my birthday. It hurt.
Jace thanked me for bringing him and Aline back. I smiled at him and said it was 'no problem'.
But it was. It was a problem. For me.
Now, my heart was in pieces.
I didn't care, though. Jace was happy. That was what mattered to me most.
Clary
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September 28, 2011
Diary,
Today's the wedding. The day that will make Jace the happiest.
And the day that will break my heart furthermore.
But as I said before, I don't care. Jace was happy. And he was getting married to Aline. The girl he loves.
Diary,
Only an hour left before the wedding.
But you wouldn't believe it. I confessed to Jace.
He smiled at me. And said, "I'm sorry, but I don't love you. I love Aline. And we're getting married, Clary. I don't care. So please quit it. You'll only ruin it."
It hurt when he said that. Now, my heart was no more. It disintegrated. Gone with the wind.
Diary,
Jace and Aline left. Heading to their honeymoon. Jace didn't even said good-bye to me.
I didn't care. I was too busy trying to keep myself together.
Izzy found me in my room. Cutting. She asked me what was wrong and I answered truthfully.
"I confessed to Jace. He said he didn't care. He was in love with Aline. I guess I was stupid, huh? To even think that he will remember the promise he made."
Izzy didn't answer. She just hugged me.
Clary
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September 30, 2011
Diary,
Today's my birthday. But I don't care.
You know why? Jace is so cruel. He kept writing me letters. All they did in their honeymoon. He even told me that they made love.
I thought I died.
And I should have. Because it hurt. So damn much.
But at least he was happy.
I accepted that he couldn't love me. Because he's got Aline.
But why does he have to be so cruel? Doesn't he know that I'm already hurting?
Clary
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October 15, 2011
Diary,
Why are promises always broken?
My mom promised me that she loves me so much. That she'll be always there with me. Beside me.
And then she left. I've never seen her again.
My dad promised me that he won't be the same. He won't be like mom. But he committed suicide.
And I was the one who found him.
Jon promised that he'll be there. Supporting me. Be with me until Jace comes back.
But he was killed by a robber. He died protecting me. It was my fault.
And now, Jace. My best friend. My one true love. He promised, when they were leaving-to go to France, that he'll come back, for me. That he'll marry me. And we will be happy. Together.
But he broke it. He doesn't even remember the promise he made.
And he's happy. Happy with Aline. And not me.
My brother told me once, "You don't have to be so nice. You deserve to be angry, too. People aren't perfect."
I answered him, "I don't care, Jon. At least I make them smile. They can be happy."
He smiled sadly, "What about you, Clare? Are you happy?"
I shook my head, my tears falling down my face, "I don't know anymore. I don't know."
I miss him. I miss Jon. He helped me get through life. And now that he's gone. I don't know what to do anymore.
Izzy and Simon are married. So are Magnus and Alec. They're in love. Happy. Content.
I wasn't. I was alone. No one to hold me. The only thing I care about now was my blade. He made me feel. He made me feel pain instead of nothingness. And I was thankful for it.
Clary
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October 20, 2011
Diary,
Jace messaged me again. He told me that Aline was pregnant. I was happy for them. They could have a family.
I'm now gripping the blade so tight that it was cutting my hand. Deep. But even my blade couldn't help me. I was a void. Empty.
And I didn't care.
I want to die. So bad. I don't think I can handle all of this. All my problems.
I just can't.
Clary
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As I read Clary's diary. I felt guilty.
She did all those things for me. And she never asked anything for return.
She just wanted me to be happy. While she was hurting.
I lied to her. My Clary. I acted like I didn't remember the promise I made. In truth, I was scared. Scared that she doesn't love me anymore. But I was wrong. She loved me, to the extent that she gave up her happiness. So that I could have mine.
I lied to her that me and Aline were happy. Instead, we kept on fighting. She wasn't even pregnant. I'm going to file a divorce.
I heard Izzy cry. She was beside me, reading Clary's diary.
Alec was being held by Magnus, he was crying quietly. For her. My Clary.
We were in the hospital. Waiting for the doctors to fix her. My Clary.
She got into the car crash. Because I called her to pick me up from the airport. I demanded that she pick me up. Even if it was storming. And she said yes.
"Okay, wait for me there, Jace. I'll pick you up. Smile, Jace. Smile." Those were her words.
I waited for an hour, and I called her again. "Hurry up will, you? It's freezing here! You stupid girl!"
And she didn't even let herself be affected by what I called her. "It's traffic, Jace. Please wait."
"Use route 63," I instructed.
"But that route is dangerous when raining."
"I don't care! Use that route and pick me up!" then I hung up.
When two hours passed, I decided to call Alec. "Alec, can you pick me up? I'm in the airport. Clary won't pick me up and I'm waiting here for two hours. That stupid bitch."
I heard Alec sniffle. "Jace, Clary's at the hospital. She decided to use route 63 and got into an accident. She's bad."
I gasped. "Quit joking, Alec, and come pick me up." I hang up.
And here I am, head in my hands. Crying. Clary got into an accident because of me. Clary's life was ruined because of me. And Clary could be dying in the ER, because of me.
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Kylie: I feel bad about making Clary hurt.
Jace: You should be! You made me the one to hurt My Clary!
Clary: Did you really think seriously about this story?
Kylie: Nope. It just crossed my mind.
Jace: So you posted this on impulse?
Kylie: Yeap.
Jace: You made Clary hurt on impulse?
Kylie: Yeap.
Jace: *takes out his seraph blade* I'm going to kill you!
Kylie: *runs away*
Jace: *follows after*
Clary: *sighs* R&R while Jace hunts down Clary! : )