I do not own twilight.

this is an Edward love story so no Bella. Edward is HUMAN in this story but the rest of the Cullen s are vampires and he will go by his human last name.

Loving whispers flowed around me as I stood still as a statue, not moving a muscle I let the gentle, cold breeze play with my brown hair. Not moving my hollow green eyes from the fresh grave I stood in front of, I always thought that we would be together forever but that was just a stupid fantasy for a stupid girl. My eyes hardened at the thoughts that pushed and tried to break my wall of locked memories of my one and only. I felt nothing, I couldn't feel I truly was a monster as I forced my eyes to scan over the other sobbing and waling humans around me when I knew that nothing was coming from me, not a tear, sniffle or dry sob.

My eyes narrowed at the engraved words on the marble tombstone,

In loving memory of

Edwin Masen / Cullen

Born May 2nd 1987 - June 3rd 2009

A loved brother, friend, father and husband, he will forever be in our hearts and watching down on us.

I scoffed at the words the only one that really loved him was me, it wasn't supposed to end like this, there should have never been an end. even his date of birth was wrong but then if it was changed then people would either think i was crazy or that i was joking.

Not realising how much time had past my intense gaze was broken from where my everything was buried by a light tugging at my black dress, I sighed knowing who it was. Turning around my hardened hollow green eyes softened at the sad face of my little boy, he was the only reminder I had of my lover other then the memories that pleaded to be let loose in my mind. I kneeled down to his height, taking his small tear stained face in my hands I wiped them away with my thumbs.

Not saying anything I pulled him into my arms holding him close when I gave into the pursuit of my memories letting them invade my mind, I saw everything from the happiest ones to the saddest and yet still not tears came. Standing up straight with my little Toby clinging to my body I walked slowly to my car, buckling him into his seat I walked to the drivers' side getting in. I looked at my little Toby through the mirror to see him fast a sleep with his thumb in his mouth, sighing I rested my head on the steering wheel knowing that I had lost everything from the love of my life to my home.

I finally reached the house that I used to proudly call my home; I carried Toby out of the car and into the house, setting him down on the sofa. I walked upstairs to 'my' room to start packing, sitting on the bed memories flashed and pounded in my mind of how we first met.

Flash back

I was talking down the hallway of forks high looking for my math class when a boy knocked me down, it left as if I had walked into a brick wall. Looking up I saw the most amazing pair of gold eyes. My gaze wondered over him drinking in his beauty when he held his hand out to me, looking around quickly to see if anyone was looking, seeing no one I took his hand gently as I felt an electric shock flow between our hands, once I was standing I looked into his eyes getting captured by their depth.

"Hello I'm Edwin masen Cullen" his voice was musical but I tore my eyes way from his to the floor.

"Hi I'm Abby Starr" I said in my small voice as he smiled a crooked smile making me blush"

End flash back

Shaking my head I snapped out of it and looking back I still can't understand why he picked to love me, I mean he was a beautiful vampire and I was just a plain human.

Flash back

I was walking down the hallway with my new boyfriend and I just couldn't keep the smile off of my face, I loved his family and they loved me. Walking out of the school he led me to his black Volvo when I noticed that Alice and jasper were walking over to Emmett's car, I looked at my boyfriend confused but all he did was lightly kiss my forehead and started to drive once I was safely strapped in. Getting out of the car I didn't recognised where I was when I felt a cold hand take mine, leading me into the woods until we arrived at a clearing. I looked around shocked at the beauty of it.

"This is where I come to think but I wanted to show you so now it's ours" he said pulling me into his arms. After a few minutes of silence I felt Edwin pull away from me.

"What's wrong?" I asked worried.

"I have to tell you something about me and my family" he said in a pained voice, I looked into his eyes to seen pain, anguish and love.

"What?" I asked taking a step towards him but he stepped back.

"I'm dangerous, I could kill you with in a second" he said glairing at the floor.

"Edwin… I don't understand" I whispered not too sure if he heard me.

"I'm a vampire" I looked up at him shocked I mean they don't exist they can't… when it clicked.

"I love you, Edwin I don't care" I said walking over to him taking his still form into my arms.

I sighed sadly getting up I had packed my clothes and some belongings of mine and Edwin's and walked down stairs to see Toby sitting in front of the tv watching SpongeBob square pants, I walked into the kitchen and started to prepare something for Toby, I didn't need to eat as I am a vampire myself. After making dinner I walked into the living room and sat down next to Toby, he crawled into my lap and started to eat his dinner. I looked down at my son lovingly and started to run my fingers through his bronze hair.

Later that night after I had put Toby to bed I heard the phone ring, walking over I picked it up.

"Hello?" I asked I was emotionally tired.

"Abby" a voice I recognised to be Alice's squealed down the phone making me smile. It had been a while since I had last seen or spoke to the rest of the Cullen's as myself and Edwin wanted to move away to somewhere less mythical to raise our son.

"Alice" I said excited.

"We are so sorry that we couldn't make the funeral" Alice started but I cut her off.

"It's ok Alice, I understand anyway the only people that truly loved him that went was myself and Toby" I sighed thinking about the spineless humans that shed empty tears at my husbands funeral.

"So how is Toby?" Alice asked changing the topic which I didn't mind.

"He's ok, a little confused but he did cry at the funeral" I said twisting the phone cord around my slim fingers.

"Abby we miss you so much as well as little Toby and want you to move back" Alice said softly, I sighed leaning my head against the wall in front of me. I did need a place to stay so I guess that it's for the best.

"Ok Alice, well be over tomorrow" I whispered not ready for the pity and sympathy that was going to be swept my way. Walking into Toby's room I packed everything of his into some left over bags. When I had finished I looked over to Toby to see him stirring ready to wake up, I hadn't realised what time it was until I looked at my watch to see it was eight in the morning.

"Morning sleepy head" I said leaning down brushing his hair out of his face.

"Mummy?" he asked sleepily making me smile.

"Come on we're moving back in with grandma and granddad"

"And Aunty Alice?" he asked slightly worried as she likes to dress him up.

"Yes and Aunty Alice" I said as he groaned. Walking out of his room to let him get dressed I made his breakfast and started to load everything into my H3 alpha black hummer.

"Come on little monster" I called into the house playfully to see Toby running out with his blue stuffed monkey. Walking into the house I ran around to make sure I had everything then ran back to the car getting in and driving off back to the place were it all started.