My Beautiful Girl
a/n : so here goes the standard disclaimer of I don't own anything, all the character and what not belong to their proper owners. I do how ever own Revan's name from my own game… so ha! It starts pre "you are darth revan" thing.
Summary: Nothing in Valeska's world ever seemed to play out like she had planed. Least of all her love life. What happens when she falls for a handsome, yet slightly jaded pilot and he falls for her just as hard. But when demons from her past threaten her future with him how will she cope with pressure to save the galaxy and her relationship all the while why trying to make redemption for unspeakable deeds committed in her past.
Ships (as of now): LSF Revan (aka Valeska Darkhöme)/Carth Onasi
there are more but that would give away the plot!
Chapter One: His
Valeska and Carth ran franticly onto the Ebon Hawk and Valeska feel to her knees and looked up at Carth with her big green eyes, before screaming "Get this ship of the this hell hole!" and falling the rest of the way to the floor out of pure exhaustion. Rolling over on her back she looked up at her partner smiling. He couldn't help but let out a little laugh.
"You were amazing again Beautiful… really." He reached down and took her small yet powerful hand in his own and helped her up to her feet. They had just been chased off Tatooine by Sith guards after being attacked by all sorts of unsavory beasts.
"You weren't to bad yourself pretty boy…" Valeska said cheekily whipping some dirt of his chin, "Hardly a scratch on you, and I smell like Big Z when I found him in those swears… remember?" Carth just nodded and laughed. They had this strange relationship, had really since they met, it wasn't quite a romantic relationship but it was something that far surpassed friendship. Valeska felt completely comfortable around the handsome commander and well, he really was starting to warm up to the budding young Jedi.
"Then go shower…" Carth replied turning her physically and gently shoving her towards the crew's quarters. "I'm going to go get something to eat before I die of hunger, meet me in the cockpit when you're done."
As Valeska started to walk away she turned backed and glanced at Carth who already was distracted by the young Mission who wanted to hear all their tales from their few days in the desert. Mission was about the age of Carth's son and it always made Valeska's heart sink when she saw them together. In their travels Vale had found out that his son Dustil was at the Sith academy but she couldn't bare to tell the news to Carth for fear it would destroy him.
Stripping off her blood soaked dark blue robes and tossing them aside she stepped into the sonic shower letting out a small moan of pain as the hot water touched the half healed wounds all over her back. Reaching for her shampoo she finely started to cry since she was alone. Valeska refused to cry in front of her friends, especially Bastila, who would no doubt consider it her weakness and well she didn't want Carth to be worried about her.
Getting out and drying herself off she pulled out a simple dress that she wore often when they were in transit, mainly for comfort but also to remind her that she was in fact a girl. Letting her long dark hair fall gracefully to her shoulders she started to make her way to cockpit.
"So pretty boy where are we heading?" Vale asked leaning on the back of Carth's chair, he had showered she could still feel the dampness of the water from his short hair that brushed so lightly against her forearms. In the end it was her choice but she liked to have everyone's opinion on where they should head next.
"Well… we have two choices my dear…" He said not even looking up at her.
"Manaan or Korriban" Bastila responded, even if they had this force change between Valeska didn't like the woman. She honestly rubbed her the wrong away, just the way she didn't have any feeling behind those cold eyes. It was different with Carth, he had all kinds of emotions behind those hazel eyes.
"Manaan…" Valeska spat out with out a second thought, she needed to talk to Carth before they ventured to Korriban, she had to explain what she knew about his son.
"Whatever the lady says goes.." Carth added looking up at Vale with a small smile playing on his lips.
Valeska sat down in the chair next to Carth and folded her hands in her lap glairing at Bastila before sending one simple message telepathically to her rival. "Get the your boney ass out of here…" She glared once more before looking over at Carth like a 13 year old school girl. It was more than obvious she had a little thing for the Commander and if he asked her to be his girl, she would. Hell she if he wanted to marry her down the line she would leave the Jedi to be with him.
"aren't we testy.." Bastila said out loud as she exited the cockpit. With that Valeska turned and propped her small feet up on Carth's lap and leaned back watching the stars go by.
"Are you quite comfortable?" He asked not really expecting her to just sit here and use him as a foot rest. Even with out the force he could tell something was different with her. For one she was wearing a dress which he had seen a total of a bout three times since meeting her almost a year ago. Two she had her hair down, not that she didn't look very pretty… actually she looked down right gorgeous sitting there her wavy hair framed her face perfectly and the dress completed her shape perfectly. "Something bothering you Vale?" He asked softly putting one of his hands on her small ankles.
"I don't know… just thinking." She replied softly looking over at him smiling.
"About what?" He asked, the ship was on auto pilot so he turned away and faced Valeska. "I wanna know." His dark eyes met her pale ones and in that moment her eyes rolled back in her head and her body went limp… her mind was consumed by a vision.
A woman with long dark hair stood among a field of flowers, Valeska couldn't make out a face but she could tell that she was a smaller woman with an athletic build. In her arms she held a small child, a little girl by the clothing the child wore. A tall, broad shouldered man started to walk towards the woman and child.
She felt intense joy, relief and love coming from the three people. The mother let her child down and the little girl ran towards who Valeska could only assume was her father, her arms spread open wanting to be held by her father.
"Valeska…" Carth said reaching up and touching her face, her skin was cool to the touch. He couldn't lose her, he cared too much about her. Not that the fact she was saving the world wasn't meaningful but she had saved him from his own self destruction. He cared about her in ways that he hadn't cared about someone in a long time. "Please don't do this to me…" He said softly before calling out "Bastila… something is wrong with Valeska…"
This vision was different from the others she has had, it was not set in the past nor present. It was set in the future, she could feel the frailty of it. As the couple neared each other Valeska felt her body get weaker, like she was fading.
As the couple greeted each other, Vale felt like she was floating and as the couple kissed her vision faded to black. Slowly everything started to come back, but now she could their faces. Her heart raced, she was the woman and Carth was her husband. The little girl was the perfect little mix of the two of them with her mother's bright eyes and her father's dark hair.
"I love you Carth…" She heard herself say softly reaching out to touch his face.
"I love you too, my beautiful girl."
"How long has she been out?" Mission questioned Carth as he stood over Valeska's bed. The young Twilek had become very attached to the sweet natured Valeska. She would often tell her that if she could chose her parents that it would have been her and Carth.
"About ten minutes…" He answered meekly.
Bastila had been trying her best to see what had caused her to have such a vision but every time she tired it was like hitting a wall. "It's hopeless… Jolee do you have any suggestions?" The young Jedi asked the bitter old hermit.
"Let her rest now child…" Bastila nodded in silence and walked out of the room yet Carth stood where he was. Not even Darth Malak himself could be able to move him from his spot next to her. In his mind she was his and there was no way he was going to be told to move. "That means you too son…"
"No." Carth said sharply. For once he was going to make his true feelings for Valeska known, he wasn't going to let some old washed up Jedi tell him that he had to leave someone he cared about while she was in pain. "I'll stay her to make sure she's ok…" he pulled up a chair and sat down.
Canderous who had been standing in the background keeping his concerns for the pretty young Jedi to himself yet he admired Carth for what he was doing. "You've got a set on ya Republic…" He said scratching the back of his head. "I'll watch the controls while he sits with Valeska." That was all he said before turning around and walking out the door.
Mission couldn't help but smile inwardly at the fact that for the first time in months Canderous seemed to care about other members of the crew. "I'll make something to eat and bring it you Carth.. and let me know when she wakes up, I can heat her something up too." Mission added brightly as Zaalbar chimed in with a rowar. "Big Z says he'll make check up on you guys so you don't take advantage of Vale in this helpless state… he knows how lonely.."
"I would never!" Carth stopped the teen before she could get another word out. "I wouldn't even… not… just get out." He snapped and the rest of the people in the room left leaving just Valeska and Carth alone once more.
He couldn't take his eyes off her, she was so different from the scared young scout who he met all those months ago. She had grown, not just in the since that she had become a Jedi, but in the since that she had gone from this young woman who didn't know her place in the galaxy to a bright young woman with a mission. Every time he saw her fight, two dual lightsabers in hand, he got chills down him spine. Somehow she could even make killing look like a deadly ballet, so graceful, so prefect in execution.
Letting go of her hand for a moment he reached up and pushed a few strands of her off her face. Whether or not Valeska knew she had a hold over him, she had for a while. Since he saw her defend a helpless man on Taris giving him her last 200 credits so he could get the exchange off his back. She had such good in her, that was what made him fall for her and if anyone ever said other wise, well they were just liars. "I really could learn to love you Valeska…" He leaned in and kissed her forehead. "I never thought I could feel this way about anyone after Morgana died…but you've changed me. You have made me a better man."