A/N; Well here it is, the rebeginning, :P I'm watching Medium sooo don't wonder why I get all psycologic xD Writing this because of my bad start last time sorry!

Thank you Flaming Critique for critizizing me! And big thanks to Acedia-et-Avarita for keeping my self-confidence up! And, I still remember all those people who read without reviewing, I'm not gonna kill you, like most people, but I will have my revenge evil smirk

Warning;This story is a shonen-ai which means lots and looots of yaoi and some yuri too

If I only were...,

The dreams began to fade away and he started to stir in his bed hoping to find them again. Finally, when he went up from his bed and into the large bathroom he started to wake up. The bathroom mirror showed his apperance that morning, his messy blond hair sticking to his neck and wandered up in all directions, his sky blue eyes looking sleepless in the mirror with hatred. the night had not been mercyful to his apprerance, his lean muscular arms had gotten bruises of possesive womans hands, he looked like he hadn't sleept in days, or maybe months.

His name made much of your first impression, even though he didn't want to. Getting chased by mental girls where ever he went, getting stares from how he looked, getting critizised from people that he hadn't even talked to, this made marks on his soul. Marks that someday would kill him. But one day his godfather decided to save him. And they ran away from everything. To another place in this sad universe. The boy's name was Naruto Uzumaki, but the world recognized him as Kyuubi the Kitsune. The red head who actually was a blonde. Who was known to have sky blue eyes. And was known to dream about playing music that changed the world step by step. And was only 16 years old.

How do I know? Well I'm that mizerable guy. And my life just got a lot worse...

Everything started when my house got invaded by a mass of girls and even a few boys that joined a sekt also known as Kyuubi Kitsune's harem. They almost killed a person, just because I was talking to him. He was asking for the way to a museum!

But the worst people I've ever met is the presidents of my fanclub, a pink-haired and a blonde-haired. They transferred to my school right after my album went out in stores. People didn't actually know about my disguise back then, so I was by my own in someway. I allways used to sit by myself or with someone else that never had any attention. But when those girls came, Tonks and Lucy I belive their names where, suddenly everybody wanted to be friends or even wanted to be my love even the guys! But even though I went from loser to coolest, I was more mizerable then I'd been before. Under all this time I only had one real friend, Gaara. A red head that had an fetish for red, a red head that had an tatto that said 'love' in kanji (1) on the right(A/N; Is that right? I'm not completly sure, so tell me if I'm wrong!). He was my very best friend, but I never met him after he moved, we didn't communicate since..

But I'll tell you a real funny story if you want to know it?

A/N; I guess the story starts in the next chapter xD Wrote this while in norway, saw this really weird boutique sign and textmessaged all my friends, guess how much we laughed xD Send a message if you want to know what the sign said...

Reviews shall not be forgotten, I'll love you for allways and allways and...

but if you don't review, you shall be buuuuuurned.. evil smirk

Naah, just joking :)

P.s I'm not gonna write a disclaimer as you allready know I don't owe Naruto, but in my dreams I do

(1) Japanese writing signs,