She was cryin out my name
Standin out in the driveway...
"Wait!" she called out, the little sound of her bare feet hitting the concrete matching the patter of the rain. "Richard" she cried. The rain mixed with the tears running down her face. She was standing out in the open, in the middle of what used to be our apartment driveway in only a water soaked cotton dress.
Little bare feet, wearing her cotton dress in my way...
I still see the rain...
chasing tears down her face..
It was back in October when I said it's over..
and hid..
She was holding a letter in her hands, the same letter I wrote to give her on our wedding day. I wrote that letter to let her know that I thought she would always be the one. The one I would grow old with, the person I wanted to spend my life with, the only person I could ever love.
There was still an achingly open gap that hoped she would take me back. In any way, all she needed to do was say it, and I would undoubtedly come back running to her. I promised I would never leave unless she told me to, and here I was...
Keeping that same old promise...
Even with the rain, you could see the tears running down that angelic face of hers. A sliver of hope, a thread of sanity, was still present in me. I wondered if there was even a chance we could be together again, any chance of forgetting everything and letting it return back to normal. But she crushed my hopes once again when she opened her mouth to speak...
No, baby don't
You're making my heart hurt
Take it back..
You know you don't mean that..
You swore when you wore my ring
it meant forever...
You've got it on baby,
how can you say you lost it?
"I read your letter" she choked out. "About us...growing old together." her voice was shaky as she continued. "Were different now Richard, can't you see that?" she took steps closer to me, standing underneath the rain filled gray sky with me. "You should have never loved me"
"I'm sorry"
"I'm not sorry" I whispered.
She took one last step closer to me as we both stared into each others tear filled eyes. I thought that maybe, that she would hug me and everything would be okay.
But I knew everything was not okay...everything was gone.
I knew that now.
I saw her tears..
I saw em' fall as she read the part about my growin' old...
I heard her words..
I heard her say it'll never work...
She took one of my hands in hers, holding it for one last time. She uncurled my hand as she placed something there, I didn't bother to look as I tried to memorize every feature of her beautiful face, knowing full well this could be the last time I could so openly stare at it.
"Goodbye" I whispered as she walked away and back into the complex. As soon as she closed the door, I fell down onto my knees and cried, not being able to help myself anymore.
I opened my blurry eyes to look at what she placed in my hand.
Her ring.
No, no baby don't..
You're making my heart hurt
Don't say those words
Take it back
You know you don't mean that...
You know when you wore my ring..
We said forever
But you took it off baby
Safe to say were through...
No matter what you do
You know I'll always love you
Well, I have to...
"Cause I promised"