Pairing: Freddy/Zack.
Rating: T, for now anyway.
Warnings: Angst, slash, language, mentions of abuse.
Disclaimer: School of Rock isn't mine, I'm just borrowing the characters because I think they're adorable and in love.
Freddy never expected that one day he would experience an ache in his heart, one so severe that it physically hurt. He felt like he was being torn apart at the seams, he felt as if his world were crashing down around him, he felt like his heart was broken.
And you know, Freddy had never regretted failing fifth grade all those years ago as much as he did right now. Sure, he's always regretted it because he knew if he had just worked harder, he would have moved on to sixth grade, no problem, and he never would have been separated from the rest of his class. He knew he deserved to fail, sure, he knew he could have done better, but at the time… he just, didn't care.
He cares now though. He cares now because his best friend is leaving. He cares now because his best friend did graduate from fifth grade on time. And Freddy cares now because his best friend is going away to school in two days. A school that's ten hours away, a good school, a school Zack had been given a full scholarship to, a school that Freddy wouldn't be at, because… he was still in high school.
Freddy has always been in love with Zack. At least, that's the only way he can think to explain it. Their mom's have been best friends since birth and it was just natural for them to be best friends too. So that's how it was, and no two boys could ever be closer than they've always been.
Over the years, Freddy began to realize what the fluttering in his heart really meant and thought that maybe, just maybe, he and Zack were meant to be more than just friends, he thought that maybe they were soul mates. That's all he could describe the feeling as anyway, and he was okay with that. He loved having Freddy to love.
He's always been afraid that if he said something to Zack, he might not feel the same way, and now he's leaving, and now Freddy's even more afraid that Zack will replace him in his life completely. But mostly, Freddy just wants his heart to stop crumbling, and he wants Zack to stay and be by his side forever, but he knows that he can't stop Zack from following his dreams, and he knows he needs to let him go, but he's not so sure he can make it through this next year on his own.
Author's Note: Woah, it's been.. a long time since I've written. And even longer since I've actually posted something that I've written, so uh. Review, please? Update soonish!