poema de renunciamento
chapter 1
pasaras por mi vida sin saber que pasaste.
pasaras en silencio por mi amor.y al pasar,
fingire una sonrisa como un dulce contraste
del dolor de quererte y jamas lo sabras.
i woke up today, and the first thought that god gave me was "i am asking out the most beautiful girl today."
i know, i know. how can an idiot like me ask out the most popular girl in school? simple, i ask her out. wow and you thought i was stupid?anyway im going to ask her out. i have it all planed out. im gonna go up to her and ask her if she would like to go out with me this friday.
and if that doesnt work, then plan b. what is plan b you may ask? well you shall find out in a little bit.
as i walk into the school i see her. she is so pretty. BAM! i walk into her boyfriend! "were you looking at my girlfriend?" he asked. by the way he is 6'5 and in the wrestling team. "what if i was?" i asked. man i am so stupid. he shoves me againgst the lockers." if i ever catch you looking at her again, ill tear you apart limb from limb... consider yourself warned."and he dropped me. my older brother kevin walked over to me." hey joe are you ok?" i smile and look over his sholder at bianca(most popular girl in school) "yeah kevin im great." kevin wacks me over the head."good." i winced." ow! what was that for?" "for being as stupid as you look" he said. the bell rings and we all disperse.
later today, in between biology and lunch i saw bianca alone so i took my chance. "hey bianca can i talk to you for a sec?" i asked. she smiled at me and i think i blushed but im not sure at the moment. "sure joe whats up?" i kinda avoid her eyes " i was wondering if you know, youd like to go out sometime?" her smile faded. "joe, you are very sweet but im going out with ben." " oh ok. see you later bianca." i turned to walk away but she grabs my arm "wait joe, i dont want you to be like that. can we be friends though?" she gives a little smile. i cant resist that. " yeah whatever." i said and walked away. as soon as i walked into the cafeteria, kevin waved me over. my little freshmen brother, nick, sat with us too as well as my chick friend mandy. " why so down?" mandy asked. " i just asked bianca." i said opening my lunch.
" are you trying to get yourself killed?"said nick "dude i wouldnt even do that and ive only been here 3 months." kevin shakes his head. " joe i told you give it up its never gonna happen." i slowly look up and say " she just wants to be friends." i pick up my stuff sadly and throw out my lunch that was never begun. i walk straight to the library and go sit in the corner and start my homwork. by the end of my lunch period, i had finished all my homework so far. i packed my stuff and heded to my last class... Spanish.
after spanish i walked home even though kevin offered me a ride. i was thinking about my assignment. i was to find a spanish poem or monolouge and recite it in 2 days. i had made one up. i doubt its any good. this is how it went.
cultivo una rosa blanca en julio como en enero,
para el amigo sincero que me da su mano franca.
y para el cruel que me arranca el corazon con que vivo,
calvo ni ortiga cultivo. cultivo una rosa blanca.
dont be scared to admitt it. i know it sucks. my friend carlos tells me all the time, im such a greengo. whatever that means. i reached my house and i walked right in. my mom stopped me."joseph i hear you had a bad day today..." she said. " yeah sort of. im just gonna go do my homework. ok?" she looked sad to see me sad. i walked upstairs and imprisoned myself in my room. well, kevin and my room. if he needed something, sucks for him. i need to finish this butt load. i log onto my computer and search google. i cant believe how awesome it is! i look up poems and this one poem catches my eye. it is called poema de renunciamento by jose angel buesas. not like i can understand it, though i tried my best to understand it. the best part was that it described my feelings just like lyrics of a song. i was shocked.alas! i have found plan b.