A special thank you to gesswhojoedoe for giving me this idea and for the help. You should totally check out his story secret kitten, one of my favorites yet. yup this isn´t ready but since today is a very special day to me I decided to publish this.

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this is a draft so please tell me if we should continue or not. CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM is appreciated

A huge cloud of dust remained in the air. Luckily everyone survived it and Hawkmoth was caught by chat once he tried to escape. The police took him away and the reporters now mounted close to the Agreste mansion trying to get a picture of the villain and of the superheroes after their final battle. No one was smiling and there as a sense of sadness lurking in the air. Rena, Carapace, and Ladybug worried about their friend Adrien not knowing he was there transformed and about to break apart.

Ladybug stared at her partner sensing something was bothering him so she placed her hand on his shoulder assuringly " Are you okay Chat? "

The blond hero had been crucial and gave them the many leads that made it possible for today's victory but she could tell he seemed broke every time he did that.

Faking a smile he nodded "I'm fine "

She doesn't believe him despite his efforts. she can tell he is upset. So in hopes it would feel him better she tried to bring a good light into it "Well I guess now that Hawk Moth is gone we can finally reveal our identities. I'm curious to see what you look like under that mask kitty "

Chat frowns unsure "Absolutely, but just not right now I need some time. Today was very intense so maybe Tomorrow at the Eiffel tower? "

Ladybug and the rest nodded as chat ran away before his transformation ended.

The next morning Marinette finally took the courage to take a pregnancy test. She knew there was a small chance she might be. They were always safe but still, it was better to be safe than sorry. She had been putting it off claiming it was just in her head and that if it turned positive it would interfere with her fight against Hawk Moth but now with the villain under bars. She had no excuse so it was time. The next few minutes seemed endless giving her time to be happy ...freak out then be happy only to come back to freaking out … it was Tikki that told her it was done. Taking a deep breath she grabbed the test and looked

The plus signs brought her extreme joy and hopefully, it would make Chat, the father, feel the same. Once he showed up for the reveal, he would get not just one reveal but two.

It would be a surprise but a good one. God knows they needed good news. This might be the thing he needed to cheer up.

Marinette thought back to when she had given up on Adrien. She did that since they never seemed to go anywhere. There were still feelings but now they were mostly of friendship. Going for chat had been the best thing in her life and now she was going to have his child. She has never been happier in her life.

Hours later it was the exact opposite. He didn't show.

In his defense, he wanted to go and he did saw them, there waiting for him. Still, they wanted him there cause they didn't know who he was. Once they did they would hate him just as much as they and he hated his father. They could never forgive the son of a couldn't even forgive himself for being blind for so long .With a strong sigh and a goodbye whispered to the wind, he ran away. In his mind, this would be the last time he would transform. He later removed his ring knowing he wouldn't need it anymore but still saved it on his room hidden inside a safe as a souvenir of better days … happier days.

The next days Ladybug tried to call and text and visit the spots they shared but every time she came up with nothing. She cursed herself for not revealing sooner for not telling about her possible now confirmed pregnancy to chat. What had happened to him? Was he okay?

Carapace and Rena also helped and tried to track him down but without success.

1 month since Hawkmoth defeat

Marinette and Adrien barely left their respective beds without crying. She was 3 months pregnant at this point but her mind was only on Chat. She wanted to tell him and see the happy look on his face knowing he would be a daddy. She wanted to have him by her side. The bluenette sometimes could swear she heard him on a distance or saw him in the shadows but upon looking closer it wasn't him. She was going insane wondering how he was. Did something happen? Did she do something wrong? Was he hurt or worse?

Adrien wasn't dead but might as well be. He missed work to stay at bars trying to numb the pain. When he went to work he was always sober because he didn't want to be drunk around the kids. Most times he was prepared to go do his job but then he would have a drink and it was ruined. Today he'd just spent his time there the same as yesterday and probably tomorrow.

2 months

Recently Marinette had begun going to the best Chinese restaurant in Paris, according to chat at least. He told her many stories that after searching all of the city, that was the one closest to the real food in China. The bluenette tried to go there and find him .it was a long shot but Maybe he would walk through that door and she would recognize him. Their eyes would meet and they would immediately know each other. Then they would run for one another and never let go. She would tell him about their baby and it would be just like fairy tales.

She still continued her search around other places but she knew this was his favorite so now it meant this was her go-to spot to find him.

Today Adrien stared at his favorite restaurant. He spent way to much time trying to find a decent authentic Chinese restaurant and was so proud to find that one. He was about to go inside but stopped. Eating there reminded him of his trips with his father's. All of those were just excuses for his father to try to gather more knowledge about the miraculous. The blond was so well played on his hands. Giving it a second thought he didn't want Chinese. He turned away not even looking back. The bar seemed a far better place

Inside the restaurant bluenette ended her meal and sighed, opening her fortune cookie .inside the message gave her hope " You will find the one you seek "

3 months

Marinette was shocked when at 3 am her phone rang with a call from Adrien .she hadn't faced him since his father was captured. She didn't have the courage to talk to him as Ladybug since according to the press she was the one responsible for it. It wasn't true it was mostly chat but she didn't have the energy to correct them and it didn't seem to matter at this point.

As far as her civilian self she also hadn't seen Adrien. His answer was that he was too busy or was sorry but couldn't make it. So when that call came she was surprised.

Nervously she answered. On the other line, there was a bartender telling her to come and pick up her friend. Apparently drunk Adrien told the man Marinette was the one to call. She didn't even gave it a second thought and went to get him

She found him there, sitting on a table staring at his drink. Putting her hand on his shoulder she asked

"Adrien are you okay? "

the blond turned around and began sobbing on her shoulders"Not even close. Why? Why? I hate him so much "

Seeing Adrien so broken and needing her. she couldn't do anything but help him. After all, it was her blame for Gabriel's arrest at least in his mind it was her alter egos fault. Only the hero group knew it was Chat who removed the miraculous from Gabriel and it was also the black hero who called the police and that he was the one giving them leads. Everyone else assumed it was her.

Turning her head to him reassuringly told him "Adrien you are going to get through this. You are strong and can't let your life go to waste. You're not your father and I promise things will get better "

The blond nodded and very drunkenly with Marinette's help he got to her car and then to his house.

He was pretty much sleeping on the drive there but luckily he woke up once they arrived and managed to get to his room with a little help.

Now with him on his bed and almost asleep, the bluenette was about to leave when he tiredly thanked her" Thank you for coming for me. I know I haven't been the best of friends but you still came. Even after the horrible things my father did… You are so nice and kind that I don't deserve it "

She petted his hair and he pretty much fell asleep instantly.

Despite her efforts, he didn't speak to her anymore. Very occasionally she heard that Nino got a text from him but those were far and between. He also still appeared on a few papers. Some called him names and claimed he was just like his father. Others praised for his good job and the way he saved lives in the hospital.

4 months

Adrien looked at Marinette's picture on his phone. She had tried to call him once more but he didn't answer. To be honest the model was too embarrassed to talk to her. Her words and the kind gesture did mean a lot to him. The blond had stopped drinking and now was focusing all his time on his work.

A couple of days later it was the first time Adrien really missed his lady. It wasn't as if he hadn't thought of her. Many times with a drink in his hand he would think of her and how he messed things up. If he showed up right now she would probably hate him because he left and double hate him once she knew his secret.

However this time it was the first time he found himself looking at her picture for hours without even having a drink and cried. Hugging the frame against his chest he prayed that she was happy and that she found someone better ...someone, that deserved her.

5 months

It took Marinette this long to finally beg Tikki for Chat's identity. She was trying to find him but she never asked her kwami directly because she felt that would be breaking his trust. One was trying to know his identity and use clues she had or even search for him on the Ladyblog . Another thing was to flat out ask her kwami , that would break his trust especially because the only reason Tikki knew his identity was that he trusted Ladybug to close her eyes during dark owl. It wasn't his fault her kwami saw him. So before Tikki even spoke Marinette ordered her kwami not to ever or in any condition reveal his secret to anyone even her.

But to compensate Alya created a list of fliers with the picture of chat noir and bellow read " lost cat .in case you find him or have information please contact the Ladyblog."

It was finally now that Marinette began buying stuff for the baby. She had delayed it long enough since she hoped chat would be by her side to help her but since there was still no sign of him, she had to start thinking of their child. She insisted not knowing the gender because she wanted it to be a surprise.

Somewhere around this time, Marinette stopped going to the restaurant. To be honest she was tired of that food but mostly she was tired of false hopes. What she had no idea is that this was the time Adrien began going back to the restaurant. Their near misses were constant that was until she gave up going there entirely and Adrien made it almost his second home. Once, since he was such a regular they offered him a fortune cookie.

" Great happiness is just around the corner "

Adrien laughed at that. Sometimes they had no idea how wrong and corny they sounded.

6 month

Adrien grabbed one of those silly fliers and threw them away. Honestly why the obsession with his alter ego? That part of him was gone. That wasn't him anymore. His friend Alya and everyone else shouldn't look for him and just give up honestly.

He sighed and went back to think of his actual life

Things were not perfect like Marinette had promised him but they were okay. It was her words that still gave him the strength to get up of bed every morning. It wasn't a dream life. He lived alone in his mansion eating pre-made foods or going always to the same place because he didn't have the patience for a chef and was too lazy to find another restaurant. No, it wasn't anywhere near perfect and sometimes the loneliness would get to him but that was fine. He could live like this. he could manage after all he survived years under his father's overprotection so he can hang on like this.

Still no great happiness but that was what he already expected.

Marinette sighed so far the fortune cookie was wrong and she hadn't found him. Still, she believes somehow or some way she would. As silly as it was that was the hope that allowed her to get up of a bed in the morning. It was that hope and the knowledge she had part of chat always with her that allowed her to survive and continue. Soon she would have their baby on her arms and she had to pull through.

7 month

It was amazing what Marinette did when she put her mind into it. She, with the help of Alya and Nino, had been able to prepare everything for the arrival of the baby. Except maybe herself?

At first, she didn't want to believe had to be … that moment She realized she couldn't do this. She still had time to find him right? Did the fortune cookie lie to her? No! She refused to do this without him.

Eventually, it was too much and Tikki forced her to be strong and to go to the hospital.

Adrien was exhausted. A fourteen hours shift would do that to a man. He was now a good doctor and refused to leave his young patients behind. All he wanted now was to pick up his single one meal on the restaurant and go straight home so he could drop to his bed and sleep.

He was all set up to leave when he saw her.

Marinette arriving at the hospital in a taxi clearly pregnant. He had done a terrible job keeping in touch with his friends. He had no idea she was expecting but, to be honest, it was his fault for not answering or call her back.

Of everyone, she was the most supportive and most likely the one he missed the most. Why the hell did he have to embarrass himself being drunk on that day? Still refusing to hide anymore he rushed to her.

"Hey "

Marinette opened her eyes to see someone she never expected to see. Today seeing that model was like watching a Yeti.

"Hi, is it really you ?"

A contraction made her way through Marinette reminding her why she was there. She leaned on Adrien

"It's okay. I will get you help. Be right back and stay calm" Marinette nodded and Adrien placed his hand on her belly " go easy on your mom, okay ?"

With that Adrien left and Marinette felt the baby quick as if it was responding to him

With the blond rushing the formalities and knowledge of the hospital. She soon found herself in a room waiting for her doctor.

Soon later after examination the doctor happily announced

"Well, miss it's time to take you to the delivery room ."

"No, no "she cried ." But my mom ...Alya " l

She couldn't do this alone. She wanted her mom, her friend and more importantly Chat Noir. He was the father after all and she wanted him there .she was supposed to find him. She needed him there. She was terrified and panicking * I need him, please! "

Adrien took a stronghold of her hand forcing her to calm down and look at him. Their eyes locked on each other and him with a reassuring tone told her " Don't worry I'll be there and everything will be fine. I promise. Do you trust me? "

She nodded and they took her.

During the next hour, he never let go of her hand, no matter how tight she gripped it. Every time she looked at him, he just smiled at her and encouraged her.

After all that Marinette could finally relax. She lifted her eyes to see Adrien holding her could tell that he was actually examining the baby. He was a pediatrician after all.

She didn't know if it was tiredness or wishful thinking but for a moment as the blond approached her and whispered " a perfect healthy princess for another princess " she saw chat. She heard him and felt his touch as he placed her child on her arms. She holds back a tear since it had been an illusion. It wasn't Chat it was just Adrien.

"Thank you for staying with me" she admitted looking at the little girl on her arms

"No problem, I was just going home to enjoy the day off but at least this way I got to meet the cutest baby ever, who is now patient by the way plus I got to be with a friend. What more can a guy want? So what are you going to call her ."

Marinette smiled holding the baby closer to her. " Her name is Emma "

He looked right at the baby eyes " Hi Emma. , You are really cute and have a beautiful name ."

Marinette smiled as Adrien places the baby in a crib next to her mother . after a while both fell asleep quickly. Adrien tired of his shift and Marinette exhausted from the birth.

Moments later ,they were sleeping so deeply that they didn't see the red hair reporter appear." OMG, "Alya screamed waking everyone except the baby thankfully "a true Adrien sighting. "

"Very funny, well you have company now. Marinette so I have to go"

Marinette frowned and grabbed Adrien's arm "But you said you had the day off. Can't you stay a little longer? I haven't seen you in so long "

" I guess a little longer won't hurt ." He had no one waiting for him anyway. Sometimes he didn't even leave the hospital, he just slept on an empty bed and be ready. Hearing the people walking and talking outside gave him the impression he wasn't alone on his empty mansion.

Alya phone buzzed and the reporter almost screamed at her screen "Speaking of blonds who disappear. Chat was just spotted downtown. I have to go"

Adrien could see Marinette preparing to get up so he put his hand on her shoulder "You don't really believe he just came back and is walking downtown ."

"Like father like son. Sunshine, no offense but this is nothing of your business. "she frowned and turned to her friend " girl, it might be real"

Adrien almost snapped, of course, it was. That crazy hunt for him was all in his business. For months he had to see blogs, posts, and interviews coming up with reasons he was gone and begging for information on his superhero identity. Alya had been one of the most insistent on tracking him down "I think this is silly. Marinette just gave birth and your ditching her to go after some idiot in a suit. The real Chat noir is gone, probably dead on some ditch as he deserves."

"Wow there. I know you hate him because of what he did to your father but Paris needs him. Marinette, that baby ..."Alya could tell her ladybug friend was about to kill her "And all need him " Marinette relaxed happy Alya hadn't revealed to Adrien the baby's father identity.

" What Paris needs is to move on. Ladybug also disappeared. why don't you cover that instead? Why focus on him and just not leave him to rest in peace ?"

"You really think he is dead ?" Marinette weak almost crying voice asked

Adrien looked at her and sighed

" I don't know what happened to him. He might have moved on. Probably he is happy somewhere with a wife and a dog or a hamster " That was nowhere near the truth but if Marinette cared for his alter ego so much, he assumed this lie was more calming than the real horrible truth. He cried every night alone. He missed his friends and also his super hero's partners but was too scared to go back to any of them. He was barely able to go to Marinette when she showed up. The truth was that he was Feeling isolated and alone so he was far from happy.

" I can live with that but I don't think he has a dog" pain settled on her heart imagining Chat with another but it was better than him dead somewhere . All she wanted was for him to meet his daughter but if that wasn't possible at least that he would happy.

Adrien laughed at her response and asked " why don't you think he has a dog? "

Marinette giggled remembering once her discussion with Chat about pets and pets they were going to have in the future. "He is more of a hamster or a cat person. "Adrien had no memories of ever telling her that but maybe she read somewhere or guessed. To be honest he tried to forget everything related to his alter ego.

It was at that moment they noticed Alya left probably chasing after Chat. The door was still shaking from the speed she left with.