The Merciless World
After leaving the hospital, Sam and Dean didn't talk for a very long time. The car is heading to nowhere on the highway right now.
" Dean-" Sam breaks as he's driving.
" Watch the road, Sam." Dean sounds so tired.
" Listen. I tried. But I still-"
" Then quit thinking of it, ok? "
" Are you joking, Dean? Seriously? You can just sit in a stolen car and leave that unsolved? "
" We've already got tons of things left unsolved, man. Well, you may notice that there are hundreds of Leviathans still kicking outside. And Crowley is in his pit up to something quietly. Can we just leave this unconscious little innocent angel behind temporarily?"
" No! We can't! Cas is our friend and he saved me! "
" Like I don't know! " Dean is practically yelling to Sam, " But..." He suddenly shuts his mouth, swallowing the rest of the words.
" But what? " Sam shoots Dean a confused look.
Dean stares into the distance. " But he destroyed the wall. Completely." That is not what in his mind and he didn't expect Sam would believe. But how's he supposed to say that? He's afraid they would get Cas into troubles? He didn't think they are stronge enough to protect Cas? No way he could say that, especially in front of his little brother.
" So you're still mad at him? Is this a pay back or something? "
Rolling his eyes for the genius' opinion, Dean shakes his head slightly. He rubs his forehead with right hand, whispering, " Yeah, pay back. That's right."
A sigh escapes Sam's lips. He's been joking about the pay back thing. Why Dean just took it? There must be something seriously wrong. He stops the car aside with a rush and slams the door behind him as he gets out.
" Dude, what's wrong with you?" Dean follows.
" You know, after all those years, I thought we'd be crystal clear that keeping something inside can not solve the problems, Dean. You've locked yourself. Alright, fine. That's your choice. But I can not watch my own brother suffering the pain alone and wasn't doing anything."
" I'm not-"
" Dean, I know you and don't expect I'm buying your pay back crap. I'm your brother and I'm always here for you. Cas is our family. We can not-"
" So what am I supposed to do?" Dean shouts at Sam, " pick him up and hit the road together? Tell me, Sam, tell me what I should do!"
" Dean, I didn't say-"
" I thought you knew that," Dean interrupts. " Think about many troubles did he get involved ever since he raised me from hell? How many problems did I bring him to? Did we help him out every single time? I can not take that risk now, Sammy. They are all gone, our family and friends-Dad, Bobby, Ellen, Jo, Pamela... I just don'y wanna lose Cas as well. "
Alright, he finally splits that out. However, Dean doesn't feel any better. The burden on his shoulder is way out of the earth. It seems the fate has been playing with them since their birth and they never get the chance to win. The world is unfair, and merciless additionally to the Winchesters.
Sam watches Dean get into the car. He's not sure if he sees something shimmering in Dean's eyes. Dean's right. Cas is safer now.
" What about Meg, then?" Sam asks as he turns the ignition key.
" From where she is standing, she doesn't have any other options. She won't be able to do anything as long as Crowley's still down there."
" And Cas-"
" He will show only if he's alright."
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