The forbidden Spell

Author's note: Well it's my first real fanfic, so please be nice ^^' I know my English isn't the best but I tried very hard to make it as good as possible. As I'm a big FredxHermione fan, it was only a question of time until I do something like that and I'm quite pleased with it.

I'm not that fond of describing people, places and situations, as you'll see. I'm not even in German ^^' The 'World' I'm writing in is kind of post-Hogwarts (at least if you think about the books and movies) but also kind of Hogwarts. It's oriented on both, the books and the film somehow.

Anyway I hope you like it and I don't want to go on talking about everything else xD Reviews are appreciated.

Disclaimer: I own nothing but the story. All characters and the world belong to J.K. Rowling

Chapter 1

Living without him

Two months had passed since the battle. Two long and painful months. Month full of suffering, mourning and loneliness. At least Hermione felt like that. Even though she gave her parents their memories back and even though she mainly spent her time at the Burrow with Harry and Ron. She felt lonely…and the reason was HIS death. He had died in the Battle of Hogwarts as many other people had. When it had happened, he was together with Percy. …Fred.

Hermione sat in the room she shared with Ginny on her bed having tears in the eyes. She thought again how she saw him laying there on that stretcher. Badly injured…and lifeless. It was when the fight had paused. The whole Weasley-family had been deeply sad. George, who is Fred's twin, was the most. One had not been able to see how she had felt at this moment. However everyone who knew her also knew that her whole world broke into pieces. Just like glass.

Tears ran down when she put out some thin books out of the nightstand. Diaries.

She opened one of them. It was her diary of her sixth year in Hogwarts. This had been the year when her relationship with Fred started. Yes, she was in love with Ron in the first place, sure. But his relationship with Lavender Brown had changed everything. She had hated him for that and so her love had slowly disappeared. During this hard time it had been Harry, Fred and George who cared for her. Especially Fred…

~Dear diary,

Fred and George were here again. I still don't know how they made Dumbledore allowing them to come to Hogwarts any time they want. But…well…somehow I think it is good. Harry doesn't have so much time and I still feel bad.

While George sold their joke articles to second graders, Fred was with me. I really don't know why…but he really knows how to make me laugh. When he was with me, even Ron and Lavender didn't matter to me. They kissed in front of us…but I didn't care.

It's almost Christmas. This year I'll go back home. Maybe I'll visit the Burrow sometimes…but I won't stay there. To be honest, Fred asked me if I would come to visit them. And then, when I said I wasn't sure he simply said that he then would come to visit me. He doesn't want me to be alone…even during our vacation…that's kind of sweet…~

A tear dropped down on the page. During those vacations she had recognized that she had feelings for Fred. For a long time…maybe even since they first met. The rest of the year, they had spent much time together…and had gotten closer to each other.

However the dark time started then. After they had escaped from Bill's and Fleur's marriage, they had hardy seen each other. Just three times. Three times before the battle started. Those moments had been the only time she felt safe…and the only moments she knew everything would be alright. But nothing was alright. The battle started.

Their last moment together was short time after she and Ron had destroyed the horcrux in the Chamber of Secrets. They had met in the corridors. Fred had been on his way out together with Percy. This had been the most wonderful moment in her life…though it had also been the saddest. They wished each other good luck…and just before Hermione was able to go on, he had kissed her. It had been their first kiss and it had been longer and more emotional than they had expected. They had promised to be together after the battle…but they have never been able to keep it.

Hermione hid her face in her hands. Her tears became more and more. She loved him. They wanted to be together. But he left her.

She didn't notce that someone opened the door. And she also didn't notice that Ginny, her best friend, sat down next to her. She noticed it just when Ginny put her hand on her shoulder.

"You have to…stop it Hermione." she said carefully.

"How should I?" she asked sobbing. Of course Ginny didn't know an answer for this question. She was hardly able to hold back her tears, too. It was the same with everyone…

George hadn't joked once for two months and he also seemed to be just partly interested in his business. He was serious and silent. He was no longer the George one had known before. No way.

Ron sat most of the time downstairs in the living room on the couch. He was quiet and thought a lot. He even didn't want to eat as much as he used to!

Mr and Mrs Weasley seemed normal…but everyone in the Burrow knew that they were crying and watching old photos every night as they could not sleep.

"Do you come down for dinner today?" Ginny asked a few minutes later.

Hermione just shook her head opening her diary of the forth year in Hogwarts.

Groaning silently Ginny stood up and left the room.

Downstairs she sat down next to Harry and Ron.

"So?" Ron asked gingerly.

"She's crying while reading her diaries. Guys…we have to do something to distract her! Otherwise she will break even more!" she answered frowning.

"Tomorrow we want to go to Diagon Alley as we want to buy stuff for school." said Harry. He, Ron and Hermione wanted to graduate this year and therefore they had to buy school supplies. Just as Ginny had to.

"Just think of all the books we will get! Hermione HAS to feel better when she sees them!" Ron joked. His sister and his best friend smiled a bit.

But actually he was wrong. Hermione still looked sad. At the end of their shopping-tour she looked as sad as at the beginning. Her gaze was absent and every moment there could be new tears in her eyes. She also did not once have a look on her new books. She put them into her trunk when she was back upstairs and that was all.

Almost a month later, in the train to Hogwarts, she still didn't change. The four of them sat together in a compartment. Hermione just looked out of the window. She indulged herself in memories. Her lips trembled slightly once. She tried to hold the tears back again. And she succeeded. She was able to hold them back. The next she noticed was how the train stopped. Everything in between had not been important to her.

During the feast she first smiled slightly again. She smiled with every new Gryffindor and because of Ron's crowded plate. Many things had changed. Dumbledore's speeches were missing as McGonagall just said the most important things…in a very strange and foreign way.

At the end, after they had been sent to bed, Hogwarts' new Headmaster came to Hermione. Her gaze was worried.

"Miss Granger, I have to ask you to come to my bureau tomorrow before lessons. I want to speak with you."

"Ehm…yes, sure I'll come, Professor." Hermione was confused but she nodded.

Upstairs in the common room she looked around. She stopped in the corner Fred and George used to sit. She saw them right in front of her. She saw them chatting with Lee about their next pranks or about Quidditch.

Luckily Ginny came to bring her back to reality. Otherwise she would have cried again.

"Tomorrow we both have free during the first lesson. Would you come with me to see Hagrid?" the redheaded girl asked.

"I'm sorry but I shall go to Professor McGonagall tomorrow. I don't think that I'll be able to come to Hagrid after that. But thanks for inviting me."

"You have to go to McGonagall? Have you already done something on our first day?" she grinned impudently.

"No." Hermione laughed a bit…it was strange hearing her laughing…it even was for herself. "She wants to speak with me…I don't know why."

"Mh…well…let's go up, chatting a bit!"

"About what? We have been together the whole time."

"I heard some rumours…we're just back in Hogwarts and something happens." She winked.

Hermione nodded and smiled a bit. Then the two girls went upstairs to their dormitory. They prepared for bed first, then they sat down on their beds and talked about the first rumours in Hogwarts.

An hour passed, then they said good night. Hermione wrote some lines into her new diary and then said Nox to make her wand stop glowing. She snuggled into her pillow and robbed one last time gently over the four pictures which were standing on her nightstand.

But she didn't sleep well. She was haunted by nightmares about his death. And they were even worse than ever before…

End note: Next chapter will be up soon...at least if someone likes the story ^^