A/N Ok guys, the following story is a dream I had yesteraday (please don't judge me or compare me to some authors that actually published books based on dreams) about Blair and Dan. It was very POV, like I was in Blair's body or maybe just seeing everything from a very close perspective of hers, even during the dream I was thinking "I will have to write this down".

Oh well, they're stuck in the back of my conscience so here how it was. I decorated the dream with some more sentences so it won't happen out of nowhere. Read and hopefully enjoy :D

Chuck and she are…together but not together. It's already a routine she accepted she'll participate in, so whenever someone asks her about their relation she gives plain answers avoiding eye contact. Whenever she tries to ask Chuck about them he does the same.

Eleanor freaks out one day when Blair does a very beginner's mistake at work and fires her in front of the staff. She practically yells at her things like "You know that being powerful woman is not an actual career" or "I had high school kids on internship with more sense for business. Go home and finish college for Christ sake!"

Everyone is silent, Blair's eyes are filling with tears and the worst thing is Jenny is there. But Jenny has a diploma from a very prestigious London fashion college in her pocket, an experience and talent. She looks at her, but Jenny doesn't look back. She gets her things and quietly leaves her mother's studio.

…

She was avoiding opening her college drawer for months. Not that she didn't plan to finish her education but… life happened, she got deluded with her surreal fairy tale dreams and goals. She gets the books out, arranges them on her bed and decides that she has to go to college the following day. It'll be hard, but she has to do it. She will prove everyone wrong.

"Powerful woman is not a career, my ass…" – She mumbles, remembering those same words coming out of someone else's mouth.

….

She goes to NYU the following day, feeling idiotic and like she doesn't belong there with a terrible feeling of insecurity, but of course nobody can even sense that. She wears black suit and white shirt, new shiny black high heels, a bag over her elbow and a freshman actually refers to her as "professor".

It's all so weird, same old yet everything is changed. As she goes to the info desk she stops for a moment and with the corner of her eye she spots a guy standing few steps away. He has pretty short hair, wears something brown and she is suddenly frost. She wants so much to turn towards him to see him and hopefully he will not be who she thinks he is.

She nervously pretends like she has something important to do with her phone but she actually only touches the screen and does nothing. She finally inhales, turns on her heel ready to walk to him and yell "Oh come on Humphrey, like you have to finish college now" and makes few big steps when she realizes that the guy is not Dan at all. Although she spotted him from not so far and like a silhouette he resembled so much like young Dan, she could have bet it was him. A little disappointed she walks past him and his girlfriend who comes to him. She leaves NYU.

…

It's the first time in a very long time for her to have a coherent dream. And no, it has nothing to do with old Hollywood.

She's in the hall of NYU again, this time she's a freshman too. There are some students there and she again is lost. And what is weird she wears pants. And again…there he is. This time it's really Humphrey. He's mysterious, his hair is short, he wears dark long coat and is kind of shady. Maybe he even wears a hat, she can't tell, but it's Humphrey for sure. Some of the students are acting as if they know each other, and they probably do, but all she can do is walk towards Humphrey. He simply stands in the middle of the hall, right next to a pillar and suddenly when she stops in front of him, the hall is empty. She just stands there, no words, she just stares at him and she can't tell if he looks at her, because his face is shady and…he's just so dark.

"You're here" – She says or maybe it's just a thought, because he doesn't do or says anything. Then Nate shows up and takes her hand to take her somewhere.

….

She has morning classes and in the afternoon she rushes home to study because if she's honest she's rusty, and being an older student in a group of younger intellectual snobs twice as worse as her (or Humphrey) is one of the most frustrating things for her. Even more frustrating than not knowing what she is doing with Chuck again…or anymore.

…

The other dream she is when she has an afternoon nap after the two very confusing hours she spent writing an outline for her paper.

Again she is in that hall, and everybody she knows it's there. She knows that half of those people are actually her school mates from Constance and she wonders what is she doing there, or better – what are they doing there. Suddenly everyone rushes to get out through some door, and she's the only one standing there not able to move. When the hall is quiet and there are no people at all, she decides to look for them, goes through the door and gets herself on a stage. Still no one is there and the stairs that lead down to the seats area are covered in Christmas lights and she walks down doing a little dance, thinking how lovely everything is, like in a muscle, she even hums some song. And the moment she steps off the stairs she is on a street where a bus full with the same people, most of her classmates waits for her.

"A school trip?" – She asks out loud, and yet again Nate shows up and tells her to hurry up because they have to leave.

Dorota wakes her up to remind her that the paper won't write itself.

…..

As she types the paper, she can't help but stop several times and drift away. She never dreamed of anything alike. There was no glamour, she was unimportant in her own dream and she wasn't wearing a gown. Yet, her dream with Humphrey from the other day still bugs her. She decides to finish the paper as fast as she can so she can go to bed.

…

The bus trip is weird. It takes them to a bumpy road, up and very down, then up again and when it finally stops it's on a beach. She is the only one who gets out of it, just to realize that all of her classmates are already having their deck chairs or whatever they are sitting on, on that beach which is very unusual. It seems as if she is the only one who hasn't got a spot on the beach and she feels so exposed, standing all alone. She stands on the path that divides the ocean and the bars and the place where the deck chairs are. The place where all of her school mates are lounging or sun tanning is like a small hill, everybody is above her and she feels so small

Nate shows up and asks her to have lunch with him.

"Where's Chuck?" – He asks. Even though she has just arrived, she knows exactly where to turn to spot him. He lies on a water mattress in the sea, wearing his idiotic red and white striped swimming suit and is apparently out of touch with everyone there. Although everything is in color, when she looks towards the direction where Chuck lies on the mattress in the water, he's in black and white.

"There he is, but who cares, let him stay there" – She says. But apparently Nate disappears when she says it and once again she's all alone standing on the same spot.

The alarm clock makes her practically jump up.

….

These dreams she has are hunting her. She knows she spot Humphrey somewhere on that bumpy beach, sitting on a chair, above her. Of course she forbids her brain thinking about it. Instead she focuses on her classes and studying.

For a while she has peaceful nights. No dreams of the brats from high school, or Nate with his bangs, or Chuck in his young days, and thank god no Humphrey.

It's the night right before her presentation in front of her colleagues of her research, when she has another dream.

….

So the bumpy beach again. Nate is not there, everything is the same, Chuck still floats on his mattress and that part of the beach is black and white. She turns around unwilling to keep looking at him and from the top of her lungs she screams Nate's name.

"I know you're there Nate, come down" – She keeps yelling and her classmates are staring at her. – "Come on, all of you get down here, I want to go home this instant and the bus can't go if you don't move".

Suddenly people start coming down to her, Nate too and when she looks on her right, highschool looking Humphrey, short haired and with a brown coat on stands in front of her, not shady at all and she can see his face very well. He smiles at her.

"Ha! I knew I didn't even have to call you, I knew you'd have come by yourself" – She doesn't even finish the sentence as he takes her hand in his like he wants to shake hands with her. The sensation of his warm and soft hands is so real and she tries so hard to remove her hand out of his two palms that now are stroking hers.

"Can I have my hand back?" – She says louder than she means. Humphrey doesn't speak and doesn't let her hand either.

With every atom she tries and takes her hand off of his palms and Nate drags her away from there. Next thing they're in a restaurant where he forces her to eat some disgusting raw food. All she keeps doing is turning her head back to the beach where Humphrey was standing.

…

The following morning she does a very average presentation, not even bothering to sound sharp or great as she planned. When she goes home it hits her. It's a blurry memory of her dream, but she may or may not tried to kiss Humphrey. Or maybe it was just a wish while he was holding her hand.

Serena wasn't in any dream she had.

tbc