Author's note: I read on web that the writers wanted to bring JR and Sue Ellen back together but Larry died so everything changed. This is my version of what it could have happened if Larry wouldn't pass away.
This fanfiction starts during the episode 2x07 when Sue Ellen receives the love letter from JR.
They are my second OTP so I had to write about them and I think that all the people that ship Sue Ellen and JR wanted to see them together, giving them a "second" chance.
Hope you like it.
CHAPTER 1: The letter
Dallas.
Sue Ellen was in her new office at the Ewing Energies.
She was unpacking her stuff.
She was proud of herself. She had a foundation and now she was the new partner of the family company.
Sue Ellen lived a tough life but she found the strength to live an independence life without JR. He was the cause of most of her problems, alcohol has been the beginning of everything.
A lot of years ago, she left Dallas to start a brand new life with John Ross and Don Lockwood but it wasn't a true love. She came back to Dallas as soon as she found out that JR was dead, but it wasn't real.
She hated JR for his twisted games.
Even if they decided to be only good friends after everything they had been through, she was still in love with him.
He hurt her so many times and John Ross as well. Their son was almost beaten to death in jail because of him.
Sue Ellen never forgave him for that. She hated JR for a lot of things but in the quiet place of her heart she never stopped loving him.
Watching on her new desk, she found a little packet. It wasn't on her boxes, probably someone put it there.
She took it and opened it.
There were a lot of letters. She immediately recognized them. They were the love letters that she sent to him in the past years, but there was a new one.
She read some of the old letters when she saw John Ross.
'John Ross?' she said from her desk.
He turned to her and he reached the threshold of her office.
'Did you tell your father that I was working on Gary?' she asked, putting a letter on its own envelope.
In the last few days she was trying to bring Gary on her side. John Ross and her needed to drill on Southfork and Gary could help them. Then she received all those love letters from JR.
*Coincidences? No, JR used to plan everything* she thought.
'Mentioned it, yeah' he replied to her.
'Because he's jealous' she said, smiling. JR used to be jealous. Everytime she was trying to be happy with someone else, he did everything he could to bring her back to him. 'He sent me a handful of letters that I sent him when we were courting and a new one that I'm not opening' she continued.
John Ross took some steps forward. 'Love letters?' he asked with a funny tone.
'I just..' she wasn't ashamed about her feelings for JR but she was surprised. 'I can't believe that he actually saved them all'. Sue Ellen took a deep breath. 'But I think he's trying to make me feel guilty'.
And it was working. Sue Ellen still loved JR but she was afraid about the consequences. She suffered so much in her life because of him.
'Or he just testing your resolve' John said with a smile.
John Ross always wanted to see his parents together again, even if he knew what happened in the past.
'Well, either way, he's trying to manipulate me' she said, putting all the letters in a box on her desk. 'And I won't let him do that'.
John Ross smiled at her. He walked out her office. 'Night, mama'.
She put all the letters in that box, except one. JR's letter.
She took it. Even if she said to John Ross that she would have never let JR manipulate her, she couldn't help to put the letter on her bag.
She was exhausted and she needed to have a warm and relaxing shower. She took her bag and she walked out of her office, turning off the lights.
Sue Ellen walked over the elevator.
She wanted to read the letter. She had to.
Nuevo Laredo.
JR was in his room of the hotel.
He had a busy day. He had to meet some people to help his family to take Harris Ryland and Cliff Barnes down, once for all.
He found a way to bring Harris down. He didn't know pretty much the new Mrs. Bobby Ewing, but he knew that Ann didn't deserve what Harris did to her and he really wanted to help her. Bobby cared about Ann and she suffered too much for only one life.
Thinking of suffering, he thought about his beautiful Sue Ellen. She wasn't his from a while but he tried to help her as much as he could.
He offered to help her against Ryland when he was blackmailing her but she declined his offer.
'I don't want your help JR' she said to him. 'Look at your son. Look what's happening to Southfork.. and Bobby. Everything you touch, crumbles under your misdeeds'. She was right, he lost her and he almost lost his son because of his choices. 'I'm my own person JR. And I make my own decisions and I'm going to live with them. My way' she said to him, flatly.
He couldn't help her against Harris Ryland but he did everything he could to help her against Peter Bedford. He convinced the state's attorney not to press charges.
She thanked him for his help. 'I'm grateful' she said to him, smiling. Then she kissed him. JR still remember the touch of her lips on his cheek. He missed that feeling so badly. He missed Sue Ellen so much.
*I deserve to be alone* he thought *after everything she had been through because of me, she deserves to be happy*.
But he really missed her. He missed everything of her, her hairs her perfume.. her laugh.
He cheated on Sue Ellen so many times in the past and with so many women, her sister included. He had never forgiven himself for all the pain that he caused to her but he would have given anything to be with her, happily.
It was too late but he tried to bring her back. He wrote a love letter to her and he sent it with all the love letters that she sent him during the years.
He wrote that letter with his heart. Even is Ann said he hadn't an heart. He remembered that moment, he was trying to see Bobby after a cerebral aneurysm and her answer was 'If I catch you anywhere near Bobby's room, I'll shoot you! And since you have no heart, it'll be somewhere more vital'. She was just trying try to protect Bobby, she was scared to lose him. She had all the right to be, he would be scared as well if he was about to lose Sue Ellen forever.
But every single words in that letter were coming from his broken and lonely heart.
Anything couldn't change the past, but he was still hoping for the future.
Even if he was hoping for a miracle.
As soon Sue Ellen got home, she jumped in the shower.
She needed some time to think about a lot of things. Her foundation, the Ewing Energies and the letter.
She felt alone for most of her life even if she was married with JR, but stay in that big house alone she felt more sad.
Everytime that JR walked out of the house, she knew that he was going to spend love times with someone else.
She remembered that night when she asked to him 'Tell me, JR, which slut are you going to stay with tonight?' and he replied to her saying 'What difference does it make? Whoever it is has got to be more interesting than the slut I'm looking at right now'. He definitely broke her heart with those words. He really insulted her but she couldn't do anything against him because her feelings were too strong to fight them back.
He also had the courage to put her in a sanitarium when she was pregnant. She was drunk and she knew that but she could blame only JR for that. Her life was in danger and her son's too, they almost died in an car accident because she was escaping from that sanitarium but she was drunk.
She was exhausted so she went to took her cell phone in her bag. When she opened it she saw the letter. She couldn't help but take it with the cell phone and go upstairs.
She put the stuff on the bedside and she lied on the bed. She covered her legs with the blankets.
Her back was counter headboard of the bed. She turned to the bedside and she took the letter.
Only two words were written on it: Sue Ellen.
Nothing else. She turned the envelope, she opened it and she took the letter, putting the envelope on the bed. Sue Ellen took a deep breath before to start reading it.
"My dearest Sue Ellen." She had a thud stomach. "Old age has a way of humbling men. For me to apologize now for all the wrongs I've done you would take up all the time I've got left. So I'm hoping it'll suffice for me to say that.." her eyes were full of tears. ".. I was never worthy of you, that I loved you the moment I saw you and that I love you today more than I ever did".
'It's too hard' she said even if she was alone in that big bedroom, with the tears on her cheeks.
It was too hard for her but she had to continue. She wanted to know what he had to say. She said she would have never let JR to manipulate her again, but with just a letter he changed her feelings again. Reading that letter, she felt like a lot of years ago, when he tried to fix all the bad things he had done with romantic things.
"It is my greatest hope in life to earn a second chance with you. So, what do you say?" Sue Ellen smiled. JR always had a particular way to say things, even the nice ones. "When I get back to Dallas, will you have a dinner with me?".
She started to cry. She tried so hard to fight back the tears but it was impossible. She always loved JR and he always loved her. She had the proof of his love in her hands.
'My God' she said to herself, trying to wipe the tears. 'How can I trust you JR after everything you done to me?' she asked to herself. She didn't know the answer; the only thing she knew was that she didn't want to suffer again in her life. She spent most of her time feeling sad and hurt because of JR but something in her heart tells her that this time would have been different.
"I know it's probably too late. But I still believe in us. Always yours, JR" were the last words of the letter.
She believed in them as well, but she was too afraid to get hurt again.
Sue Ellen was still in love with him.
*What I supposed to do now?* she thought.
She turned to the bedside and she took her cell phone. It was almost midnight but she had to do it before she could change her mind.
She typed JR's number and she brought the phone to her ear.
It was ringing. JR picked up.
'Sue Ellen?' he said with a sleepy tone. 'Is everything all right?' he asked.
'I'm sorry if I'm bothering you in the middle of the night JR, but I needed to talk to you' she replied to him.
'Don't worry, darlin. What's wrong?' he asked.
Darlin. He used to call a lot of people with that name but hear that again, after the letter, it made her smile.
'I just read the letter that you sent me'. She took a deep breath, 'Even if you've been an horrible person, you've hurt me so many times and you've made me feel worthless of somebody's love, I'm here, calling you in the middle of night just to say that..' she was about to tell something that she had never imagined to say to him. 'I'd like to have a dinner with you when you'll get back to Dallas'.
She couldn't believe it, she was really giving to JR a second chance.
'What?' he asked with a surprised tone. 'I'll be in Dallas in two days. I'll come to pick you up Saturday at 7pm, okay?' he asked.
'See you Saturday' she said, smiling. Obviously JR couldn't see the smile on her face but she was really happy even if she had never been more scared.
'Good night, darlin' he said, but before Sue Ellen could close the conversation he said 'Oh, Sue Ellen?'.
'Yes?' she asked.
'Thank you' he said with a lovely tone.
'Good night JR' she said with a sweet tone.
Sue Ellen closed the conversation and she put her cell on the bedside. She laid under the blankets, holding the letter in her hand.
A tear dropped on her cheek but for the first time in a long time it was a tear of joy.