Hi Everyone, it all kicks off with Sam and Emily's Wedding - Uh Oh

Its Cazza here, please review and favourite and encourages other people to read it, I would really appreciate it. Any feedback and constructive criticism is welcome as this is my first ever fanfiction. Rated M for later chapters. There is a lot of dialogue and interaction between different characters throughout to prevent it becoming tedious.

Of course the characters, themes and ideas are based on Stephanie Meyer's books. I would also like to thank, the author of Season of the Shewolf(or Wolf) as this story gave me inspiration along with a few other Leah/Nahuel Fanfics. I will update at least 2 or 3 times a week so don't lose faith in me.

Enjoy!

Set: 2 years after Breaking Dawn

Happy Ever After

After the grand meeting at the clearing with the Volturi over two years ago now, everyone seemed to have a happy ending. Jacob got Renesmee, and even Bella eventually came to terms with him having imprinted on her daughter. Gladly for me, we stayed as two packs splitting up areas of the land in which we patrolled and I never had to be inside Sam's head ever again. The packs grew to enormous sizes, we never knew that many people possessed the gene, even after the summoning a 15 year old girl called Annawan and her twin brother Anoki phased. Jacob asked me to stay beta even after the pack grew, our pack now consisted of; Jacob, Seth, Embry, Quil, Brandon, Collin, Kiowa, Annawan, Anoki and me. It made sense that the twins join Jacobs pack, as a girl I understood what it was like to have your life wrecked because of this. Sam's pack consisted of; Sam, Jared, Paul , Bill, Harry, Hakan and Viho. Two separate packs had become a blessing, we had more than enough wolves to protect the village for years even if some retired soon. I still hated vampires with a passion but my relations with the Cullen's has eased. They are more human than I originally thought, especially Esme and Carlisle. With Charlie sort of in the loop it has meant the Cullen's have stayed longer. As for Sam and Emily, I'm still heartbroken, not as bitter but still pretty bitchy; right now I am content with my life. Every time I see them together I fall apart inside all over again, how happy they are and how useless I am. She's everything I wanted to be and he's everything that ruined my soul. I miss my cousin, although she was more of a sister, I've recently tried to make amends with her; I even attended the wedding as a bridesmaid. The wedding was the single most awkward situation and hurtful situation. As I recall...

The Wedding

As we gathered all around Emily preparing her for her fairy tale ending, she was looking beautiful...even with the beastly scars traced down her cheek she still looked amazing. Everyone was fusing around her, pull here or there, sorting, shuffling; it eventually became a blur of colours as I sat quietly waiting for it to begin. I had to step outside, it was sickening, as happy as I was for my Cousin I couldn't fully let go and everything was drawing up old feelings. For a while I had resented Emily and even blamed her for Sam ending it with me. This was supposed to be my day and he was supposed to be my husband. I still hadn't let it go. I don't know if I could. As I sat watching the waves hit the first beach, all the memories me and him spent together came flooding back and a tear escaped rolling ever so slowly down my cheek. It was only fitting they marry facing the beach and the woods behind, it was their reality. Unfortunately for me, I had planned whilst engaged to Sam the exact same thing. More tears escaped as my dark demons pulled me deeper into hell. Luckily by the time I was interrupted my body temperature had quickly evaporated my tears.

"Hey Lee-lee" a husky familiar voice spoke. I turned smiled and shifted awkwardly on the spot, I feared if I spoke I would breakdown. I slowly looked into his eyes and saw the old Sam, my Sam, hidden behind this new older serious alpha Sam, Emily's Sam.

" I'm surprised you came. I mean surprised in a good way. We are happy you came, I just wanted to say thanks...I mean it mustn't be easy to see us t-" quickly I cut in, before he continued on his pity speech.

"Look, I didn't do it for you, I did it for my sister in there. Don't pretend to care when you don't. So get over yourself, I'm over you but it doesn't mean I have to like you." I spat out coldly.

"I didn't mean it like that Lee-Lee" he basically whispered out.

"Stop calling me that, you lost that right a long time ago" I wasn't going to let him get to me, so i did the only thing I knew how and brought out bitch wolf or SheBitch as I like to call her.

"sorry, Leah, I didn't come out here to fight with you. I know we were engaged before ...the whole thing" this sounded too much like my Sam.

"Why are you bringing this up now?! I don't need you to pity me and tell me 'you care for me' when you don't. YOU broke us up, YOU broke my heart and its time for YOU to leave me the hell alone." I managed to force out painfully.

" I don't want it to be like this between us, Emily still hurts because of your relationship. And I just wanted to say thanks for coming because this means so much to her." Emily's Sam was never this nice to me, usually he was in all high and mighty alpha mode. I preferred that, this was too close to my old happy life.

" You can't expect me to be friends with you, you meant everything to me once, you were supposed to be MY future. The sick twisted thing about this is, I've been in your head and i know you would chose to hurt me again if you had a second chance at this life; for Emily. All because some wolf shape shifting magic tells you that you are happy. I know it's your imprint thing but I can't be friends with you. I'm here for my sister for now but in terms of the future I can't make any promises." Each word was taken from my soul and laid out for him to hear, I promised never to breakdown in front of anyone but right now I am dangerously close. I couldn't face him anymore so I ran back into the girls tent and quickly put on more make up to cover the tear stains and uneven pale and russet splodges across my cheeks.

Once I returned to the girls tent Emily insisted everyone leave so she could talk to me. What is this? Lets rub it in Leah's face day or something?

" I just wanted to say, I am sorry Leah. I'm sorry I caused you pain during your hardest time in life. I'm sorry life dealt you this hand but I really appreciate you being able to come here for me. I can't fully move on unless you're happy because I feel responsible for your unhappiness." She said sweetly. Every word was gentle and loving which is what made me miss her so much, our relationship had been strong before. I'd told her everything and she told me everything, she and Sam had once been the most important people in my life. I needed to stop all this wallowing in self pity. SheBitch decided to come out finally. It's time for me to move on, they are getting married there is no hope for you and Sam and Emily nor he can unbreak your heart. Pick yourself up and keep fighting, you are Leah freaking Clearwater the first and toughest Shewolf to ever exist.

"I accept your apology but I know it's not needed Em, I'll sort things out eventually and I truly am glad for you, that you're happy. I don't blame you for what happened and if anything I'm sorry for blaming you when I did, I wasn't thinking straight. I love you as my sister and I know you tried to fight it...the evidence is your scar, I feel responsible; maybe if you hadn't fought the imprint for me it may never have happened."
She responded lovingly, "Don't you dare blame yourself and I just wanna bury this now. You are here, my best friend, my sister and that's all that matters."

"Burying it sounds good, lets not ever talk about the past again." We finally hugged and had made amends. Maybe I could finally move on myself, instead of being left behind in the past as everyone else seemed to keep moving forward.

As I stood there watching them exchange their vows, I could feel people staring at me and whispering. maybe I was just crazy, it's not often SheBitch allows me to be self conscious. My enhanced wolf hearing overheard one woman 'whisper' to her friend," the poor girl, imagine having to watch your cousin marrying your ex fiancé." As if this day hadn't dug up enough old skeletons.
The thin strings I'd used to put my heart together again tugged once more and my heart was bleeding again so fresh so new it hurt as if he'd broken up with me yesterday. I dazed off into my subconscious thinking of the end of mine and Sam's relationship.

" Leah, I'm sorry. I can't do this anymore... there's someone else. It's nothing you did I promise and as lame as this sounds it really is me. I wish explain to you why but, I just can't. I wish I could make you happy and love you like you deserve but I'm not the one for you. He is waiting for you somewhere" For a while I remember I was just stunned, it was just so sudden, I'd never expected it.

"Sam you do make me happy, don't go please! Give me another chance I can fix it just don't leave me, Is it Emily? I saw the way you looked at her yesterday, you've never looked at me that way once in our relationship. " SheBitch shuddered at the visual of me begging like a spineless shrew.

"I'm sorry Leelee it's not as it seems. It's different. It's pathetic I, know; I really am sorry baby"
"You're pathetic"
And without realising I had repeated the last part out loud, luckily only the people in the front heard. "Sorry, mind was somewhere else" I attempted to redeem myself.

The rest of the day was as painful and dreary as the beginning. I wore a lot if fake smiles that day but before I could sit through the cutting of the cake I had had enough. I said my goodbyes to the newlywed couple just escaped the god awful wedding speeches, hurriedly to my home and cried myself to sleep that night. The only good things to come out of this day was I had reconnected with Emily and made that the last day I ever cried myself to sleep over Sam Uley or anyone else.