On The 17th Of November 2005 Something Happened. Something I Will Never Forget. Something I Wish I Could Forget And Something I Wish Had Never Happened. But It Did. And Today The Same Thing Happened To One Of My Mum's Friend. Cancer Kills I Hope I Doesn't Happen To You.
Ok Maybe I Do : )
Based On A True Story
"I Love You." he smiled that mega watt smile and wrapped his arms around me.
"No you don't." I laughed. Were kids we can't be in love, we don't understand these things, we can't. That would be me trying to prvent myself from falling in to deep with someone I know isn't going to round for long. I can't get attatched. It's impossible.
"Yes I do. You know I do." Why does he do this? How can he do this? He says all these wonderful things takes me to these wonderful places because he wants to go there before he dies. He makes me love him more and more with every word and action, and I can't take it anymore. I want to be able to love him without getting my heart broken but I don't think it's possible.
It was possible when I snuck out of my house at one in the morning on that fateful day, the ambulance lights flashing, I knew he was gone I didn't even ask the paramedics I just knew. I saw him laying there and I saw his sister and his grandma crying but I couldn't cry.
And I didn't cry, not until I got totally off my face, nearly got runover by a yellow mini and cried in front of my friends.
Now nearly three years later here I am and here he isn't but I'm doing okay. I have my friends to make me laugh and talk to if I need to. I have a party to go to on the 17th because it's my friends birthday, so I try thinking of that and not of the person I lost.
I used to think I was to young to fall in love but now I know I was never too young and I don't regret any of the things I did. I was young and I did something I probably should have waited to do, but I couldn't. I was too much in love.
I hope you never feel the way I felt that morning. I go on wandering round as if nothings wrong but sometimes I have to remember because I feel like he is the only person who could ever love me. No one else can because no one else wants to. I laugh but I also cry, I think I laugh more than I cry but nobody see's me cry because I don't let anyone in that far because I'm ashamed that I can cry and I want them to think I'm strong but I'm notkill you personally if you hurt my friends. If you hurt me though? I'll stand there taking it because I think it's no more than what I deserve.
I miss you Troy.
I love you so much.
If You Know Me That Story Was About Troy And Ryan.
And If You Really Know Me I Wasn't Going To Write Troy Where I Did.
Love
Hannah
(CrashAndBurn93)
xxx