November 17, 2004.
"What's up Brittany!" I grab her pinky, and she looks at me ima confuse way. "Uh, is there a problem?" She asks like there's something wrong.
"No, whys that?" I ask. She shook her head and she went to her locker. She opens her locker and gets her books. "Guess what?" Her eyes beams at me and I can see her blushing. "What's it?" I ask casually.
"Mike asked me out!" She squeals quietly and my jaw dropped.
Oh wow, congratulations...
I feel a little hurt, but that's normal right? I mean she's been my best friend ever since!. Maybe this is normal, but why are you feeling something aching in your heart?
"O-oh!, that's good.." I pause with a sad sigh. "Really good.." I trail my words off and looked down, she lift her eyebrows up and lifts my chin. "You okay?" She whispers, I nodded and smile softly.
Next 5 Months,
"We're official!" She goes out of the bathroom, and goofs around. I stopped reading my book and throw it at the edge of the bed, I smile weakly and I feel a lump in my throat.
Why am I feeling hurt?, this has to stop..she's my best friend!, I don't have feelings for her, besides..I'm a play girl I don't date or have feelings.
"That's great B!" I pat the mattress for her to sit down beside me, she sits beside me and gives me a hug. She pulls back and she smiles. "How about you?, any love life San?" She asks.
"You know me B, I don't have feelings. I don't date, I just like sex." I tell her, she sighs and sucks her bottom lip. "You should stop doing that tho, you know that's not the right thing to do." Brittany says in a stern way, I chuckled nervously and I stammered, not knowing what to say to my best friend.
"W-What ever, at least I'm wealthy..look Brittany, I'm happy..okay?" I tell her, I look at those blue orb eyes and she blinks she nods and I smile. "Okay, I just want what's the best for you." She tells me.
October 23, 2009, (Present Day)
I wake up in the middle of the night, panting and sweating. I hate being alone, I mean yeah I sleep with girls a lot..but when they leave, I just feel empty.
I date them, and dump them, date them, dump them and yeah, it's like a routine to me. I get up, I take a nice warm bath and look for a very nice clothes to wear.
I decide to wear a long black jeans with a white plain shirt, I get my Chanel bag and I start walking down stairs, I eat my cereal and watched tv, and then I'm off to work.
I own a cafe, it's called 'Lopez's Cafe.' The cafe is very industrial, and classic; also my house is very industrial too. As I park my car in the parking lot, I get out and briskly went inside the cafe.
"Goodmorning, Santana." Quinn greats me and I smile at the blonde, "Goodmorning, Q." I smile at the blonde. I went inside my office and I sit down on my office chair.
"San?" Quinn knocks at the office door and she goes in, "Santana, Brittany wants to see you today. I can take care of the cafe." She tells me quickly, I nodded and settled my paper on my desk office. I get my keys and my phone,
"Where is she?" I ask. Quinn hums and goes through her phone. "She said, tell her meet me at Santana and I's Favorite Place." Quinn tells me straightly. I smiled and got out of my office.
I walked around the Central Park to find her, I know where she is. I went to our favorite bench and she was there.
She's very beautiful.
She spins her head to look at my eyes, it's like a slow motion. They way she moves is very slow, the way she flips her hair and the way she waves at me. It's very adorable and beautiful.
"San!" She squeals and runs to me, I hugged her tightly, smelling her vanilla scent. She hums and pulls away. "How are you?"
"I'm good B, how about you? How's Mike?" I chuckled and star at those beautiful blue eyes. Her smile fade away and she gulps, and looks down, "We broke up." She whispers, my heart shattered and I feel bad for her, how can somebody break up with Brittany?, she's so kind and she's so innocent..she doesn't cheat.
"I'm so sorry Britt..do you want to go to my place?" I lift her chin up and she nods, I give her a small smile and hold her pinky.
"Your house is very cosy." She softly speaks, I chuckled and locked the front door. She sits on my expensive couch and she sighs. I pour water on her glass and I give it to her, she said thank you and drinks the water.
"So, what happened..Britt?" My voice was soft. She looks at me and gives me a weak smile. "I caught him with Tina, and they were kissing..after our huge fight, I moved out and find another place. For now I'm living her in New York, but I also want to live in the Philippines." She says, I nodded and soothe her back and I can see her tears falling.
"Why the philippines?" I ask calmly, she sighs and slumps her back on the couch.
"Because I have an auntie who lives there, anyways.." she whispers and she looks down. I hate it when Brittany's sad. I fucking hate it.
I just wanna wipe her tears away and comfort her and maybe..
Kiss Her, Deeply and Passionately..
Oh my god, am I crazy? Of course I won't kiss my best friend!..I never had feelings for her. God Santana what are you thinking?
"Brittany, I'm very sorry..but I know you'll find someone who'll love you, very deeply..and take care of you, and tell you how beautiful you are, and brings you flowers all the time, and tells you how much that person loves you.." I whisper at her, I held her hand and squeeze it. "You're special, B.." I cupped her cheeks and she starts to sniffle.
"Wow, thank you so much Santana, you're such a great friend..thank you for being my best friend." She says, I cuddled her and she rest her head on my neck. I sighed and hold her gently.
I was there for her Mike, who the fuck are you?
"You said you will find a place in New York, right?" I ask, she nods her head and I sigh. "You can stay with me here, in my home. I have a guest room..you can stay with me, Brittany." I whisper, she looks up at me and I can see her eyes, happiness..I don't feel happiness.
"R-really?, oh wow thank you so much San!" She hugs me and kisses my cheek, I chuckled and looked at her. "Yeah, stay as long as you want..where's your stuff?" I ask.
"It's at the motel, I can get it now." She says, she got up and walk towards the front door. "I'll come with you, let me take you there." I tell her, once we got in the car and she sighs.
"You are really my best friend San." She says, I chuckled as I start the car. "I know, I'm so awesome." I wink at her and I drove to her motel.
Hours Later,
"Here's your room, settle down. Make yourself at home, I'll be making dinner soon..okay?" I tell her, she just nods and I close the door. I quickly ran to the kitchen and made Grilled Cheese.
Once I was down, I called her. She goes down and goes to the dining place, I give her the food and we eat, very quietly.
"Your grilled cheese is always good." She takes another bite of the grilled cheese. "I miss these.." she tells me, I laugh softly and drink my water. "How's Everything Santana?, still sleeping with girls?" She looks at me.
"Duh, I'm Santana Lopez. I don't have feelings." I tel her, she rolls her eyes in disappointment.
I mean I have a good sex life, I fuck like 32 girls already. And I love, love how they suck my cock. But here's the thing. Am I happy?
I don't even know, I never had a girlfriend before..no I will never have feelings for everyone.
Kiss her..kiss those soft lips..touch her, pound her..
Stop, it mind!..this isn't right, I will never have feelings for Brittany, never.
"You should stop doing that, please Santana I'm worried for you." She tells me straightly, I know what she means but..I can't stop. "Meh, at least I have a good sex life."
"Yeah sex is good, but happiness is really important. Santana, please..you need to stop playing with other girls for sex." She pleaded, I sigh and slump my back on the chair. "I don't know, I'll try B.."
"Okay."
I can't sleep.
Those words sunk in my head, stop playing with other girls for sex. I can't sleep, Fuck!
There's a girl beside me and I don't know who she is, I just remember I fuck Her relentlessly. She groans and hugs me, "was that good?" She asks.
"Yeah, it was." I lie.
I hope you guys like the first chapter, after couple more chapters it'll go deeper.