Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight or any of its characters.
Author's Note: This was written while listening to Epiphany by Staind. It's dark I warn you once more before you read it.
Broken Hearted.
'They left you.'
It's as simple as that. The Cullens got their amusement from their frail human pet and now they have moved on. If they had cared about me, if she had cared, I wouldn't have been left in the middle of the forest, broken hearted. My mind has fallen into a hole so deep, nothing will be able to drag me from my thoughts of despair and death. I have tried to move on, tried to forget, but nothing will erase them from my memory and nothing can motivate me to live my life with the same exuberance that I once did.
'You are nothing, tainted, used, human.'
My lifeless brown eyes stare at the vibrant outline of the setting sun. An act that used to hold an air of romance for me now can not even cause a twinge of emotion in my broken, bleeding heart. The rough surface of the faded brown shingles dig into the small of my back. The uncomfortable feeling alerts me that I still exist, that I still can feel something.
'She can see your decisions, but will she care?'
After the family of vampires left, I tried to call Alice to find out why, but her number was disconnected. So emailing was my next option, but every message that I've written her has been returned because the account no longer exists. I've done stupid things that normally would have her calling to reprimand me, like riding a dirt bike and getting injured. Cliff diving and almost drowning. Apparently nothing has interested her enough to come back to me, or at least find out if I am okay. Now there is only one more step. I know I am strong enough to complete it, my last resort.
'Your mortality.'
My pale hand clenches tighter around the glinting silver blade. The sting of the flesh tearing and blood flowing reassures me that this is the right way. The only way.
'If she cares for you, she will come.'
The perfection of the blade is now marred by my worthless life, much like everyone around me. The scarlet color of my blood seems dull. I pull my body up so I am now sitting with my knees bent and my elbows resting on top of them.
'Don't stop now... you are so close... show them... show them they should have never left... the pain they have caused you is irreversible... now... do it NOW!'
Tonight is a full moon. It's as if the universe is mocking me for my pathetic inability to cope without those I have grown so accustomed to, those who I loved with all of my heart. The blade calls to me. I clench it in my bleeding hand, raising it to the milky white skin of my wrist. Pulsing blue veins are laid out before me, awaiting the damage I am about to inflict.
'That's it... end this… you can't live in a world without her.'
The blade bites into my skin. My emotionless eyes watch the blood rise and trickle down the ghostly white skin of my wrist. It stings and a pull can be felt as scarlet makes beautiful strokes, but it is nothing compared to the feeling of my chest aching with each thought and memory of her golden eyes. My eyes are heavy as I jaggedly slice the flesh. The sound of squealing tires reach my ears as I drop the knife and allow my body to fall back against the roof.
'It'll be over soon... you'll feel nothing... good girl.'
A gust of wind and a rustle of clothes from my right cause me to lazily turn my head. A distressed Alice stares back at me. Her eyes are wide, charcoal black, tears she can never shed glistening in her eyes. Her full pink lips are open in shock as she drops to her knees next to me.
"Oh, God, Bella... why?" she whispers as her musical voice cracks with emotion.
"Al... Al-ice." I manage to fight off sleep to raise a blood covered hand to her face, my fingers grazing her cheek and feeling the muscles in her jaw tighten. "You're so... s-o... b-beautiful...." Everything I say sounds as if I am under water. My body feels weightless, as if I could drift into the heavens. "I... I… love... y-you..." I allow my eyes to close, darkness enveloping me. My hand drops from her face, landing with a thud against the roof.
'She came....'
"No Bella... BELLA!" Her voice is frantic, laced with a heart wrenching sadness. Cold hands clasp around my wrist, trying to stop the bleeding by applying pressure. We both know that too much blood has been spilled to save me now. "Oh, God, Bella, please... don't leave me! I love you, Bella, I do... so much." Dry sobs wrack through her small frame as she pulls me to her stone chest, cradling me so gently. Sounds get further away as my life slowly drains. The last thing I feel is soft lips pressed against mine.
'Don't cry my angel... we will meet again some day.'
Okay so I know EVERYONE probably hates me right now...but eh...yeah I just felt like writing this...um...if you want an alternate ending just message me and I'll write something up for you okay? Love it? Hate it? Let me know!