Disclaimer: I don't own anything to do with Crossing Jordan nor do I own Sitting, Wishing, Waiting by Jack Johnson.
A/N: I couldn't resist using this song because I think it sums up how Woody feels prior to JPF.
Sitting, Wishing, Waiting
He left her office in anger, she didn't want his ring and she didn't want him. He felt a burning sensation behind his eyelids. He loved her and she wouldn't let him in. She would dangle the bait but when he tried to bite she'd reel in the line. She wouldn't have him, it was time for him to move on past the games, past their dance, to someone who wanted him and would let him love them. As he reached his car he put on the radio and Jack Johnson filtered through the speakers.
Now I was sitting waiting wishing
That you believed in superstitions
Then maybe you'd see the signs
But Lord knows that this world is cruel
And I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
Learning loving somebody don't make them love youHis mind flooded with memories of them. He pictured her smiling face and her laughter. He pictured their kiss in the desert. Tears followed these thoughts and he found himself sobbing.
Must I always be waiting, waiting on you?
Must I always be playing, playing your fool?
He continued to let his tears escape. "Why won't she just love me?" He is giving up. He can't wait on her anymore. He is tired of being her fool.
I sing ya songs I dance a dance
I gave ya friends all a chancePutting up with them wasn't worth never having you
And maybe you been through this before
But its my first time
So please ignore
The next few lines cause they're directed at you
He remembered what he had just told her, he was ending their dance. He had, had enough of the dance that they played one step forward and two steps back. He wasn't playing anymore, it was over. More tears flooded down his cheeks but he bitterly wiped them away.
I cant always be waiting, waiting on you
I cant always be playing, playing your foolI keep playing your part
But its not my scene
Wont this plot not twist?
I've had enough mystery.
Keep building me up, then shooting me down
Well I'm already down
Just wait a minute
Just sitting waiting
Just wait a minute
Just sitting waiting
He tried several times to change the outcome but she wouldn't budge. She would build him up and shoot him down, but no more, it was over. He was down and he was done and that was all there was to it. Enough was enough.
Well if I was in your position
I'd put down all my ammunitionI'd wondered why'd it taken me so long
But Lord knows that I'm not you
And If I was I wouldn't be so cruel
Cause waiting on love ain't so easy to do
She wouldn't change. She was who she will always be, he knew this was for the best. "I wouldn't do this to you Jordan," he cried angrily, "I won't do it anymore, I am tired of being rejected. I am tired of waiting. This is the end."
Must I always be waiting, waiting on you?
Must I always be playing, playing your fool?No I can't always be waiting, waiting on you
I can't always be playing playing your fool, foool
"Goodbye Jordan Cavanaugh," and with that he sped off into the night.
A/N: Please let me know if I should keep going or just leave it at this. I considered doing Jordan's POV listening to this song but I don't know if I should.
