*Just fanfic I don't own anything, the beginning of this is from Ali's Pov but this chapter trades pov's with mrs.D, some of the other chapters will have mulitiple Pov's
Alison: I was sitting in an uncomfortable chair in an NYC hospital with Aria, Spencer, Emily and Hannah waiting for news on Ezra who has been shot, he look those bullets for the 5 of us, the 4 of them had protected me I feel truely blessed to have friends like them. Someone had gotten shot probably because of me though I had been hiding on the run for years now and I had changed a lot before I wasn't the kindest person and may have even been a bitch but thats not who I am anymore. Being on the run wasn't a vacation only a few people knew I was even still alive my own mom had buried me alive in the ground I had been abused by the man she was married to who's a damn alcoholic I remember the times I stood in-front of my mom and took the beatings for her refusing to let him near her. My mom and I had our disagreements but I never stopped loving her she had been cold to me at times but I was also cold to her at times I wanted her to leave the man she was married to and she wasn't listening to me I tried to get through to her that one of these days he was going to go into a rage so bad it was going to kill both of us.
Staying away from my mom was difficult, I knew she wouldn't of buried me if she had known I was live there was no way she could of I realize she was in shock yes I'm scared of her for doing it and upset but I also had never told her I was still alive when I had run away she thought I was dead and I left it that way. What I hadn't told anyone was that I had been raped multiple times and that the man my mom had been married to had also raped me and wasn't my father, pieces of my life are a traumatic blur. By this point I knew I had pretty severe ptsd and that part of the reason I had done some of the mean things I had done at times was more or less because I was in emotional pain I didn't want to admit to myself that I had ptsd or how bad the abuse was. I knew there was no way that man was my father he had told me right before he forced me to have sex with him when I was 12, For all I know he could be A but I don't know I really don't.
The nurse came out "He's out of surgery but hes not going to wake up any time soon it could be days, why don't you all go home and get some rest I'll make sure he knows you were all here the 5 of you have been through quite a lot for one day it seems". We had all answered the police questions pertaining to the shooting but I hadn't told the police anything that wasn't related to that other than who I was and technically they couldn't question me about that without a parent anyways as far as I know. As we were about to get up and leave a cop came through the door "Whichever one of you is Alison Dilaurentis your mom is in the hospital the 5 of you need to come with me now". Tears poured out of my eyes I held onto Spencer practically in shock "How do we know your really a cop?" Hannah said he handed his badge to Hannah she handed it back "I've arranged for a chopper to take the 5 of you to the hospital you need to hurry, we're pretty sure whoever attacked your mom and shot Ezra is after the 5 of you and as of right now we don't know who this person is" the cop said.
"Okay, we'll go but, please do you know if shes going to be okay?" I ask breaking down he lead us out to side to the parking lot there was an unmarked helicopter "I really don't know that much other than she was brought in by an ambulance her sister called 911 and is with her at the ER now, her twin to be exact apparently someone had buried your mom alive in the ground" The cop said as we got in the copter. it took off quickly up into the air, At this point I broke down into Spencer's arms feeling the rest of the girls trying to comfort me "I didn't even know my mom had any siblings let alone a twin" I say hysterical she had been buried alive in the ground like I had been. I never would wish something like that upon her I know what thats like I wondered if she had been hit in the head with a rock like I had if she had been conscious or unconscious if she had reached her hand out up of the dirt like I had. "She'll probably be okay" Emily tried to reassure me "I don't know that!" I try to control myself. "I know this is hard Ali but we're all here for you no matter what" Aria says "I'm not sure I could take loosing my mom" I say quietly Spencer held me tighter "Don't assume the worst, you need hope not despair" Aria says.
*Earlier breif pov from Jessica Dilaurentis: I was in my car parking it in my driveway the police had just conformed my daughter is alive which means I buried her alive in the ground, why didn't I realize she was alive how I could have buried my breathing daughter in the ground?!. I didn't see who hit her in the head the person was wearing a black mask and black clothing I saw them come up behind her though I tried to warn her I was screaming but she didn't seem to be paying attention if she heard me. When she turned around the the person had thrown a rock into her head and then they ran off I was horrified and in shock she didn't seem to be moving or saying anything I couldn't make out if she was breathing her head was bleeding I assumed she was dead I couldn't feel a pulse on her. So I took her into the back yard and buried her because I didn't want her death to get pinned on me I thought I had just watched her die, she had said someone had been threatening her I wish I knew who it was.
As I stepped out of my car someone came up behind me suddenly I recognized it as the same person who had tried to kill Alison Suddenly the person came at me I looked at the black figure trying to figure out who they were I tried to fight them off "Stop please" I begged hyperventilating but before I could respond the person hit me over the head. I felt my body fall to the ground trying to open my eyes I couldn't seem to I felt my body being dragged thrown into a ditch of some-kind I feel dirt on myself. Would I ever get to see my daughter again right now it didn't seem that way I thought of the last time I had seen Alison feeling more dirt being thrown onto my body I managed to open my eyes slightly seeing a black masked figure burying me alive I tried to move and get up yell but I couldn't seem to. I thought about my twin if there is such a thing as twin telepathy right now I need it to work for me I need my sister to get me out of the ground before I run out of oxygen.
The dirt was piling up around me I was being buried alive just like my daughter had been I feel so terrified why can't I move, taking deep shallow breaths trying to get as much air as I can before this person fills up the hole I thought about Ali was she dead now? what if this person had killed her before coming after me. Hearing a metal shovel and more dirt falling onto me I feel my body surrounded by dirt "One more person dead, the mother of the girl I raped years ago" I heard a voice laugh I recognize it but I'm to disoriented to put together who it is. One more person did that mean Ali was really dead when had she been raped?! I should of called 911 that night I should have gotten help I shouldn't of buried her but I was in shock and didn't know what else to do, that doesn't make what I did okay though and I know it. This is probably that last few minutes of my life pain rushing through my body no if my sister gets here it'll probably be too late, My eyes had shut again I can feel the inches of dirt on me suddenly I don't hear the shovel anymore I hear distant footsteps of someone walking away.
I open my eyes to darkness I try to reach my hands up feeling weak oxygen deprived I heard faint fast footsteps was that person coming back to put more dirt on top of me? does my life matter at this point I feel my hand reaching out of the dirt slightly I can feel sharp pains in my stomach feeling as if I'm about to pass out and suffocate to death. Suddenly I feel someone touch my hand I recognize that touch its my sister, My body being pulled up further my sister grasping my other hand from the dirt I feel her pull me up my face out of the ground I try to open my eyes failing all I can do is breath. Feeling the rest of my body being pulled up from the ground I feel my sister lie me down on the ground putting my head on her lap "I'm here now I've got you Jessica" Her voice becoming louder to me. "911 Whats the emergency?" "Help I need an ambulance it's my sister shes been hurt shes bleeding!" I hear her voice shaky I can tell shes crying "We've tracked your location help is on the way mam, you don't have to stay on the phone just don't move from your current location" it sounded like a guy on the other end "Thank you please hurry" I heard her stutter into the phone.
"Please open your eyes don't die on me I'm sorry I know we haven't been as close as we used to be since you got married but I promise if you make it through this thats going to change I love you" she said I can hear how hysterical she is I struggle trying to open my eyes to let her know I'm alive I can feel blood seeping down my forehead. My breathing becomes tense again I start to hyperventilate "Jess, no! please don't die on me now! please wake up!" She yells out into the night Suddenly my eyes open slightly I try to squeeze her hand, my breathing evens out a bit tears slide down my face. "Veronica" I stutter out horsely sounding rather raspy I let out a cough something flying out of my throat out of my mouth 'dead bitchs don't talk kisses-A' it was written on a small bottle of sleeping pills with my name printed on it. "I love you too Sis" I say slowly this time my voice sounds more normal. "Did you take any of these, Jess? who is A?" she questions me "N-no I don't remember taking any I don't know who A is but they just tried to kill me and buried me alive in the ground, they tried to kill Alison too" I respond to her hysterical.
"Breath come on sis deep breaths" She says trying to calm me down my eyes open further I see her clearly Veronica Hastings my twin and next door neighbor tears streaming down her face as she looks down at me holding a wat of tissues to my head. We hadn't told many people we we're even related after I we had left it that way for a reason she didn't approve of my marriage and had tried to warn me my husband was a drunk I should of listened to her. Another argument happened when I found out her husband lied about having an affair with me Jason isn't her husbands son hes his nephew why he lied about it I still don't understand, honestly right now I thats not important I'm just glad shes here now "I saw black so much darkness I couldn't breath" I say trying to get up, she sits me up hugging me. "I'm sorry" She whispers using the little strength I have left I hug her back "I'm sorry too" I whisper back "Do you know where my daughter is?" I ask hoping shes alive "Shes in New York City with the other girls Spencer is there too, I'm pretty sure there all going to come home" She says.
"Please do me a favor if I don't make it out of this take care of Alison I don't trust anyone else with custody of her and I know how close she is with her cousin they're both good kids" I say obviously taking about Spencer. "Your not about to die your going to make it through this I'm not about to leave you Jess I'm not going to let us get separated again" She responds upset "I missed you Veronica" I say "I promise you things are going to be different Jessica from now on we're going to be close like we used to be I'm here for you no matter what happens" she says. I hear sirens in the background flinching flashing back to when I was a kid and our father had beat up our mother so bad she had to be rushed to the ER, It had been just my sister and I for so many years we had only had each-other but it had been all we needed. "I'm terrified what are they going to do with us, they're arresting our dad! We can't stay here alone"I remember saying 'Then well run away if it comes down to it we're not going to let them separate us' The flashback ended.
An ambulance pulled up "Step away from her" I heard a male voice "I'm not going to let you separate us!" I hear her yell hysterical "Please Sis don't leave me" I whisper hearing another voice in the background "The call came from phone sir, I don't know ether of them but maybe they really are sisters I mean I think they look a lot alike". I felt someone pull me onto a stretcher she didn't let go of me "Mam do you have any valid proof of your relation to ?" I heard an officer ask her "She's my twin if you don't believe me take our fingerprints and look at them for crying out-loud that will give you all the proof you need!" she said upset. "Hold on a minute" I saw a piece of white paper and a black ink pad they stamped her thumb and then walked up to me and stamped mine "I'm telling you officer we're twins" I managed to get out, after a minute I heard one of the officers "Almost Identical, they're telling the truth no doubt about it". "Let accompany to the ER" she squeezed my hand I felt my body being moved up into the ambulance "I'm right here Sis" She whispered wiping tears off my face I felt the ambulance drive off I feel a needle begin inserted into my arm within seconds everything goes blank.
*Switches back to Alison: After 30 long minutes in a noisy helicopter it finally lands in the hospital parking lot in vacated area of it "I don't know what room your moms in sorry you'll have to ask the front desk, good luck with everything" a cop sitting next to the pilot says we all get out of the car heading for the Emergency room entrance. "Spencer could you stay with me? I doubt they'll let more than one of you into her room with me" she didn't seem surprised I had picked her "Sure Ali" She responds "We still don't know who your moms twin is though I mean how do we know her twin didn't hurt her?" Hannah questions. "I'm pretty sure if that had been the case her twin wouldn't be in there with her" Aria says "Your right Aria, I don't know who my aunt is right now but when I do know I'll make sure to thank her for saving my moms life" I say "Well be right out here waiting" Emily says. "I'm looking for my mom I was told she was brought in here, her name is Jessica Dilaurentis" I said the other girls were behind me I see the woman type in something on the computer.
"Yes she was brought in about an hour ago unconscious she was in an ambulance her sister was with her quite amazing actually I've never seen 2 siblings that seemed so close before she pretty much knew your moms entire medical history, Ah yes room 205 second floor elevators down the hallway in-front on the right and I'm sorry but only one of your friends can accompany you" the nurse says. "Thank you for staying I'm so grateful you guys are the best friends I could ever wish for" I say, The other 3 sat down in the waiting room as Spencer and I sped off walking quickly down the hall hyped up on adrenaline "I'm sure she'll wake up if she hasn't already" Spencer tries to reassure me. I hope shes right we find the elevator and press the 2 button "Thank you for coming with me Spenc I really need the support right now" I say "It's okay I'm not about to leave you Alison" she says we hug the elevator door opens. Theres a nurse up front "Ah one of you must be Alison Dilaurentis I got a call from the front desk saying that 2 of you would be coming up".
"Yes I'm Alison can you tell me what direction her room is in?" "I need to check both of you over first make sure you don't have any sharps or drugs on you routine procedure in these kinds of situations when we don't know who hurt the patient" the nurse states Spencer and I nod. The nurse quickly checks us over and of course doesn't find anything because theres nothing on us "Sign in, shes on the left towards the end of the hallway" The nurse says both us sign in quickly taking off down the hall I can't believe I'm finally going to see my mom after all these years a rush but yet fear at the same time. No one else seems to be around this end of the hall right now it's a ways down from the nurses station Suddenly someone turns the corner who's wearing all black 205 I step to 206 recognizing the person. "So we meet again bitch" "Stay away from my mom!" I yell Spencer practically grabs me "Do you really think you can stop me? I had both of you 6ft under" Suddenly it hits Spencer and I.
"You raped me, I was 12 years old I should have turned you in when I had the chance to for that then maybe none of this would have happened I know your A now and your getting near her again over my dead body" I say crying "That can be arranged" my ex step father laughs. "Your not going to hurt her again I love my mom nothing is ever going to change that, I took the beatings for her then I'm protecting her from you now!. My life isn't going to be normal I have fucking post traumatic stress disorder so bad I can't even sleep through an hour I'm in so much emotional pain from the abuse you inflicted on me. I'm not about to let you near my mom again not as long as theres a breath left in my body" I say practically hysterical I try not to shake.
"I'm going to beat you to death, I almost had you before with that rock" he moves his hands Spencer suddenly gets in-front of me holding me behind her "If you want to get to her your going to have to go through me!" She yells. I hear footsteps coming from behind me "Don't you dare hurt my family!" I recognize Spencers' moms voice what was she doing here?! She pulls Spencer and I back into a hug trying to protect us. Suddenly I see the bloody rock in his hands the one that had hit me that night "And I'm going to rape you again before I bash your head in for the second time, you should have stayed gone your nothing but a worthless piece of dirty trash" he yells. "Leave my daughter alone!" I hear my mom yell shes standing in the door way behind me falling over I take my chances running to her "Mom" I say holding her up we hug tightly A security guard comes running down the hall he looks like hes about to beat me again "Stay the hell away from my sister" Veronica says pushing Spencer back.
"Since when do you give a damn about Jessica? You tried to split her up from me and then distanced yourself from her for years do you really think she even cares about you anymore?" My assumption is correct Veronica is my mom twin shes my aunt. He suddenly throws the rock "Mom get down!" Spencer yells the 3 of them duck accept for me I stand up straight blocking my mom from him "I told you I stood in-front of her and took the beatings back then. I'll take them again now I'm not going to let you hurt my mom again even if it kills me" I say crying my mom tries to pull me down but that rock is coming directly at us and if I allow her to pull me down she'll probably get hit by it. "I'm sorry mom I love you" Suddenly I see her inch back into the room she pulls me back slightly into the room I fall to the ground the rock missing me by a fraction of an inch. 2 security guards tackle that sick man to the ground my mom looks at me holding my face in her hands crying "I love you too Alison I'm so sorry I wasn't sure I'd ever see you again" she leans towards me and kisses me on the forehead she seems surprised when I return the affection kissing her on the cheek.
*Switches back to Jessica: I was half awake my sister was holding my hands when I heard footsteps 'So we meet again Bitch' I heard the same voice of the man who had buried me earlier to my horror I realized that it was my Ex husband. "Stay away from my mom!" I hear Alison's voice clear as day suddenly becoming more alert "Do you really think you can stop me? I had both of you 6ft under" I start to cry again how could he have done this?. "You raped me, I was 12 years old I should have turned you in when I had the chance to for that then maybe none of this would have happened I know your A now and your getting near her again over my dead body" I hear Ali her words strike even more fear inside me. she was raped by that drunk? how could I have missed something like that if I had known I would of left him! what kind of mother have I been my ex husband raped her without me knowing and I buried my daughter alive! "That can be arranged" I hear him say I start to hyperventilate again.
"Jess please calm down I'm not going to let him do that to ether of you, I'm going to protect her okay?" she says "Thank you" I say "Your not going to hurt her again I love my mom nothing is ever going to change that, I took the beatings for her then I'm protecting her from you now!. My life isn't going to be normal I have fucking post traumatic stress disorder so bad I can't even sleep through an hour I'm in so much emotional pain from the abuse you inflicted on me. I'm not about to let you near my mom again not as long as theres a breath left in my body" I hear Ali say I break down hysterical my sister squeezes my hand before getting up. I hear him saying he has the rock in his hand, Spencer's trying to protect Ali "Don't you dare hurt my family" I hear Veronica yell at him he says hes going to rape my daughter again and kill her, no please no! as weak as I am I can't just lie in bed and do nothing.
I get up barely making it to the doorway "Leave my daughter alone!" I yell in tears I start to fall suddenly Alison runs to me "Mom" She says as catches me holding me up the two of us immediately pull each-other into a hug a feeling I had though for a long time I'd never get to feel again my arms wrapped tightly around her I have my little girl back!. "Stay the hell away from my sister" I hear Veronica yell "Since when do you give a damn about Jessica? You tried to split her up from me and then distanced yourself from her for years do you really think she even cares about you anymore?" He says I know hes wrong thats not true!. Suddenly he throws the rock thats in his hand Spencer yells to get down Spencer, Veronica and I do but for some reason Alison is standing up, No please no I can't watch that rock hit my daughter again! I'm too weak to get up Ali's standing right in-front of me I suddenly realize what shes doing."I told you I stood infront of her and took the beatings back then. I'll take them again now I'm not going to let you hurt my mom again even if it kills me" She says crying hard I try to pull her down out of the way but she won't budge damn it I have protect her, get her out of the way!.
"I'm sorry mom I love you" I hear her say I realize I need to get her behind the doorway I crawl back into the room pulling her back slightly trying not to hurt her she falls to the ground next to me I see the rock just barely miss her I let out a sigh of relief as two security guards come running by I hear them pin him to the ground restraining him. I look deep into her eyes cupping her face in my hands "I love you too Alison I'm so sorry I wasn't sure I'd ever see you again" I say crying my maternal instincts kicking in full blown I move my face towards hers kissing her gently on the forehead for a few seconds. She surprises me kissing me back on the cheek something I didn't expect her to do, I could tell something about her had changed from the last night I had seen her she was holding onto me to tight almost like I small child I could see a kindness in her eyes that made me feel even closer to her. we seemed to hug each-other as tight as we could I'm afraid to let go of her it was almost as if I felt she would disappear forever if I did, I love my daughter so much she really is one of the most important things in my life and she always will be.
My sister walks back in the room reaching out her hand towards me I let go of Ali taking Veronica's hand she pulls me up"Are you okay?" we ask each-other simultaneously pulling each-other into a tight hug "I've got you Jess, it's okay your safe now, I love you so much" Veronica says. "I love you too, your my twin I should of listened to you when you told me he was a drunk I'm sorry marrying him wasn't worth the strain it put on our relationship" I say as she helps me back to the bed lying me back down. "When you care about someone and love them with all of your heart you forgive them, We'll always forgive each-other" Veronica says to me still hugging me sitting on the edge of the bed in-front of me. "I promise Alison you and Spencer will come first from now on I'm not going to let anyone change that" I say to her. At that moment Veronica gets up as Alison walks over to her "Thank you for saving my moms life thank you for protecting my mother" She says to my sister who pulls her into a hug "I'm so glad your alive Alison, my niece" they hug tightly.
To my shock Spencer walks over to me and hugs me I didn't see that coming I hug her back "I'm sorry Spencer I know how much you care about Alison I know you wouldn't hurt your cousin I really do care about your my family and a great young woman" I admit to her. "Thank you, that means a lot to me it's going to take time for Alison and I to get used to the fact that you and my mom are twins though that we're related, I want you to know I care about you too" She says tears trickle down my face as she lets go of me standing up. Alison walks over to me and lies down in the bed next to me we pull as close as we can to each-other locked in each-others protective embrace my little girl what a sweet person she seems to have grown up to be I wish I'm going to try and make this up to her.
*Switches back to Alisons Pov: Veronica helps my mom up off the ground back to the bed Spencer has helped me up sitting me in one of the chairs I hear my mom and her sister talking "Thank you Spencer my cousin, It's going to take some time for me to get used to the fact that they're twins I mean I just found out I have an aunt and its your mom" I say as we hug again. "I feel the same way Ali, it's going to take some time to get used to but you and I being cousins is actually pretty amazing" She says "Yeah it really is, I love you Spencer I always" I say. "I love you too Alison, we we're each-others first friend we've always close" Spencer says I know shes right. "You better not disappear like that again Ali none of us want to loose you again" Spencer says crying I squeeze her hand and get up to to talk to my aunt, Veronica lets go of my mom getting up.
"Thank you for saving my moms life thank you for protecting my mother" I say to Veronica who pulls me into a hug "I'm so glad your alive Alison, my niece" we hug tightly then holding each-other at arms length no doubt in my mind my aunt loved me. I see Spencer go over and hug my mom they exchange words when they're done talking I go over and climb into the bed lying down next to my mom we move as close to each-other as we can hugging each-other again locked in an airtight protective embrace it feels so good to hug my mom. "I'm so sorry I swear I didn't know you we're alive when I buried you I thought you we're dead I didn't know who had hit you with the rock I was afraid the police we're going to think I did it and arrest me I never would have done it if I had known you were alive" She says squeezing me. "I know mom you thought I was dead I couldn't move or speak my eyes we're open I was blinking trying to let you know I was alive but you we're in shock.
I saw the look on your face you saw it happen you came running to me but when I was unresponsive you assumed I was dead I heard everything though I was conscious when you buried me in the ground and I probably would of died but someone I knew saw me reaching my hands up out of the ground and helped me up out of the dirt. They put me into their car and drove me to the hospital when the person went in to get help I managed to get up out of the car someone else I knew saw me and took me to a motel where they helped clean me up. This person told me I should die they said A thought I was dead so I should just disappear and leave it that way I was confused and at a loss as to what to do I was terrified of you at that point and as much as I cared about you I wasn't sure I could ever come home. So I left and cut off most of my contact with the my past I tried to help my 4 best friends from afar on the run from the best of my ability trying to keep them safe from A.
It wasn't until the person that had told me to run away hit Hannah with a car that I came back to rosewood she didn't know she had actually seen me though and brushed it off as a hallucination. I knew it was too dangerous for me to stay for long so I saw for myself that she was going to be okay and quickly ran away again but this time I contacted someone else to help me try and figure out who was A. They did help me for a while but towards the end I ran out of money and had to have someone mail me the stash I had hidden in my room after making sure I got the money the person left because things we're getting to dangerous for them to stay. I had tried to stay away from CeCe because I had been afraid that she had a dangerous tie to whoever A was but at points she was stalking me which evidently is partially how the police figured out I was alive.
Emily figured out how to contact me earlier today by hacking to an email account I was using I called them worried that they figured out how to contact me and that A was going to find me so they wanted to know what happened that night I went missing so I told them to meet me so we could talk face to face. I told them about that night and unfortunately as it turned out A had tracked me down and tried to kill the 5 of us he was shooting at us but someone else had also tracked us down Aria's ex boyfriend and he was the one who got shot A jumped off the rooftop and ran away. I was in the ER waiting room waiting for news on Ezra when a cop came and told me you'd been attacked and I was skeptical at first but they showed us there badge which was legitimate they said you were in the hospital they told me you had a twin which confused me I had no clue but I made a promise to myself that when I found out who they were I'd thank them for saving your life.
After 30 minutes in a police helicopter I finally got here only to be stopped by A when Spencer and I were about to enter the room and suddenly I wasn't afraid of you anymore I was afraid of the monster your ex husband I blocked him from getting into your room and I told myself I would keep you safe from his wrath even if it killed me. He called me a worthless piece of dirty trash he raped me when I was only 12 years old he was a drunk who kept abusing both of us and I was constantly in-front of you protecting you from him taking the beatings for you. At this point I've been raped so many times abused so bad I can hardly sleep through an hour I have severe ptsd it may get better over time but it's never going to go away my life is never going to be normal I have to live with this emotional pain for the rest of my life I have to deal with the flashbacks. I may be afraid of the dark for the rest of my life I may always have to sleep with a light on and need to always be able to make out my surroundings I can't even get a decent amount of sleep because of nightmares and waking up screaming in a hot-flash. Maybe he's right and I am a piece of dirty worthless trash maybe I'm a mistake but never for one second will wish I was dead right now." I say I had been talking for many minutes.
Tears slip off my face I realize I'm shaking my mom looks into my eyes also crying "I'm sorry all of that happened to you Sweetie but please don't think for one second that your a piece of trash or worthless you never will be your so precious to me Alison your not a mistake I want you as my daughter thats never going to change. Nothing can ever make me stop loving you I wouldn't trade you for anything in the universe, your just as important to me as my sister and I want you to know that you don't need to be afraid of me you can trust me I promise you I'll never do anything to intentionally hurt you and I'm sorry for the times I did hurt you. I want to protect you but if you disappear again thats going to be hard for me to do, I just got you back I don't want to loose you again" My mom says to me I take my hand wiping the tears off her face. "I'm not going to disappear again unless I feel that I really need to and I promise you I won't do anything to intentionally hurt you ether I'm also sorry for the times I hurt you. I realize we may have been cold to each-other at times but nothing can ever make me stop loving you mom , your the only mother I'll ever want I wouldn't trade you for anything in the universe ether I'd go back and take those beatings all over again I'll take abuse until they kill me if it means protecting and keeping you safe, you can trust me" I say.
I break down hysterical hiding my face in her shoulder I feel her rocking my gently back and forth rubbing my back softly "It's okay let it out Sweetie" She says to me I hold her even tighter "I wasn't sure you'd ever know I was alive or that I'd ever see you again I missed you so much I can't tell you how many days I longed to be safe back in your arms" I say. "I wished you were back in my arms safe too it was the worst feeling thinking you we're dead digging that hole burring you in the ground but I'm so glad your alive I don't wish you were dead for one second I never did. The fact that I've got you back now I feel almost like never letting go of you again I missed probably just as much as you missed me" she says to me. "For the first time in a long time I broke down the wall I had up and am letting the real me show" I tell her "Well I like the real you much better" she says squeezing me "I like the real you much better too mom, lets work together to try and be ourselves instead of putting up a wall" I say squeezing her back.
"Agreed" She says running her hand through my hair I look up at her trying not to get hysterical again "Are you okay, hows your head?" I ask concerned "My heads okay don't worry about it under the circumstances I'm okay" She responds. Feeling as if I need to pee as much as I'd like to stay in this position I'm going to have to get up "I need to get up mom I need to use the bathroom it's not you at all I just haven't gone in hours" I say getting up. "It's okay Alison I'll make sure shes right here when you get back, take Spencer with you" My aunt says to me giving me a faint smile kindness in her eyes. I notice Spencer has her phone back as we walk towards the bathroom at the end of the room "Is it okay with you if I go back downstairs for a little bit and let the others know whats going on?" She asks "Yeah go ahead I'll be alright" I say I lock the door hearing Spencer talk to her mom and leave the room.
*Switches back to Jessica's Pov: "I know my husband lied about having an affair with you and I'm sorry he did that even though we weren't on the best terms I knew you wouldn't do that" Veronica says that gives me some comfort she still trusts me I really didn't do it and I'm glad she knows the truth. "I Don't understand why he claimed that ether, I never slept with him hes not Jason's father I would never do that to you sis I care too much about you, I do know your husband and my ex used to go out drinking together though" I say. "I know, We both married abusive alcoholics sis, that could have something to do with our dad in a way" she says to me maybe shes right "He wasn't much of a father. He went to jail for assaulting our mom and she was in the hospital we we're only 11 when he got out of jail 2 year later she refused to leave him we ended up getting taken away and cps tried to split us up" I say remembering that we also refused to let them separate us.
"I remember that clearly I remember we ran away together we we're 13 and on the run because we weren't going to let them keep us apart, we only had each-other and 20$ we went to Coney Island that day and sat on the wonder wheel high up in the sky looking down at the city" my sister says."I also remember sunset on the teacups we were pushing that cup so fast holding onto each-other everything around us was a blur" I say "And the next day we started hitchhiking out to California we almost died a few times but we made it out there" She says squeezing my hand. "We had some pretty wild adventures 5 years we we're out wandering across the USA we did spend a lot of time in California though" I reminisce for a minute "Most importantly we stuck together and didn't let anyone split us up, when we turned 18 we got our Geds and managed to get financial aid to go to college" she says. "We went to the same college though, You got your law degree though and I studied my thing" I say at least we had made something out of our lives despite the mess of a childhood we had come out of.
Hearing the door open I see Alison stumble out of the bathroom in tears "Get off me! your hurting me please stop! let go of me please no I don't want to do this let go of me I want my mommy, that hurts I can't breath get off me your choking me!" she feels her neck I can tell shes having a flashback "Please snap out of it Ali I'm right here your safe now" I tell her. She starts to tremble hysterical "Please stop I'm bleeding" she starts to collapse falling Veronica gets up catching her pulling her into a hug "Ali tell me what do you see?" she asks her. "I'm his bed my ex step father hes on-top of me he-he's raping me choking me I'm B-Bleeding down there it hurts badly I'm in shock having a panic attack theres so much blood I yelled out for my mom but she wasn't there I was trapped alone with him I see myself getting different men forcing me to have sex with them it's not going away please make it stop" She says. I suppose at least shes responsive enough to tell us what shes flashing back to I feel horrible that happened to her Veronica walks her over to the bed lying her back down on it I wrap my arms tight around her "Deep breaths Ali" She says.
"I've got you sweetie I'm not about to leave you" I say slowly rocking her back and forth trying to comfort my poor daughter I can see the fear in her eyes suddenly her breathing slows down a bit her eyes dart around the room "It was just a flashback honey your safe now it's in the past" Veronica says rubbing her shoulders for a minute. "I'm sorry it came on so fast I don't even know what triggered it, at first it was just one flashback but then I was having multiple ones at the same time" Ali says crying clinging to me. "I'm not about to let anything like that happen to you again not if I can help it" I say looking into her eyes she away.
"Aunt Veronica now I understand why you were being so protective of me that night I came back to your house at 3am it was because I'm your niece, My ex step dad had txted me and told me to come home he was drunk I went home because I knew if I didn't he was going to hurt my mom. I asked you not to say anything because he would of just hurt me worse if you had trust me your lucky you only saw the bloody mouth I was covered in bruises and had been cut open from his belt" She says. I see my sister flinch she puts her hand on Ali's shoulder "You can come to me with anything Alison I'd never to anything to purposely hurt you I love you" Veronica say "Right back at you Aunt Veronica" Ali says she turns back to me I see sadness, love and concern in her eyes. "He got arrested Ali he admitted to trying to kill both of us an sexually abusing you in-front of two security guards I doubt hes going to get out of jail anytime soon" I try to reassure her.