Disclaimer: I take no credit for anything but the stupid plot.
Summery: My contribution to New Years. Have fun.
A/N: I'm actually in quite a bad mood at the moment, and this fic came to me. Actually this is another version of the first one, which had implied death involved... Anyone wants to read it they can e-mail or something. Its only different from 11:30 and down.
Happy New Years...
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I always used to like New Years.
But- I'm not sure I like this one.
Sure, I'm at Yale. And I'm getting good grades. And I have new friends. Good friends. And I talk with Lane. And my mom.
I always told myself I would be a girl who didnt rely on a guy, guess I lied.
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10:00
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I'm at a New Years party right now. Its at Yale. And you get to invite guests. I, of course, invited mom and Lane. Dave was visiting from California, and Lane convinced me to invite him as well.
I've seen just about everyone already, and said 'Hello' so I cant be counted as being anti-social. Its not my fault no one happens to be outside. Nope.
I like being alone, especially lately. I've been doing alot of thinking. Mostly about, well, Jess.
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10:30
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Lane finally noticed my being missing. And she and Dave came out to try to cheer cheer me up.
Not that I need it. Really I dont. I was crying because... I was happy.
Fine, so I was crying because of Jess. Or more because I was thinking of him.
I just wish that- that he could have talked to me. Trusted me.
Sometimes I think about what would have happened if Kyles party went differently. If Dean hadnt seen me crying. If I hadnt found Jess.
If I hadn't kissed back.
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11:00
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Lane dragged me inside, insisting that getting something to drink would help.
I know she means well but... all the same, I wish she would have let me be.
I dont want to be inside at midnight. I dont want to be inside and seeing everyone so together.
Happy.
So I left. Again. I got in my car and drove.
I dont know where I'm going. I dont know why I did it, its not something I would usually do. Just drive off without telling anyone. But, for a while I've been doing things I dont usually do. Just the other day I skipped my last classes for that day and drove the 22.8 miles to Stars-Hollow...
22.8 miles.
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11:30
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I'm not sure where I am now. Some small town.
I wonder if this town has a town princess.
I wonder if it has a town rebel.
I wonder if they are in love.
My cell phones ringing, I guess my mom noticed my absence.
I answer it, and my mom immediatly begins a flow of words.
I interrupt her.
12:00
"Mommy, my heart hurts." I say with a sob.
Summery: My contribution to New Years. Have fun.
A/N: I'm actually in quite a bad mood at the moment, and this fic came to me. Actually this is another version of the first one, which had implied death involved... Anyone wants to read it they can e-mail or something. Its only different from 11:30 and down.
Happy New Years...
--------
I always used to like New Years.
But- I'm not sure I like this one.
Sure, I'm at Yale. And I'm getting good grades. And I have new friends. Good friends. And I talk with Lane. And my mom.
I always told myself I would be a girl who didnt rely on a guy, guess I lied.
---
10:00
---
I'm at a New Years party right now. Its at Yale. And you get to invite guests. I, of course, invited mom and Lane. Dave was visiting from California, and Lane convinced me to invite him as well.
I've seen just about everyone already, and said 'Hello' so I cant be counted as being anti-social. Its not my fault no one happens to be outside. Nope.
I like being alone, especially lately. I've been doing alot of thinking. Mostly about, well, Jess.
---
10:30
---
Lane finally noticed my being missing. And she and Dave came out to try to cheer cheer me up.
Not that I need it. Really I dont. I was crying because... I was happy.
Fine, so I was crying because of Jess. Or more because I was thinking of him.
I just wish that- that he could have talked to me. Trusted me.
Sometimes I think about what would have happened if Kyles party went differently. If Dean hadnt seen me crying. If I hadnt found Jess.
If I hadn't kissed back.
---
11:00
---
Lane dragged me inside, insisting that getting something to drink would help.
I know she means well but... all the same, I wish she would have let me be.
I dont want to be inside at midnight. I dont want to be inside and seeing everyone so together.
Happy.
So I left. Again. I got in my car and drove.
I dont know where I'm going. I dont know why I did it, its not something I would usually do. Just drive off without telling anyone. But, for a while I've been doing things I dont usually do. Just the other day I skipped my last classes for that day and drove the 22.8 miles to Stars-Hollow...
22.8 miles.
---
11:30
---
I'm not sure where I am now. Some small town.
I wonder if this town has a town princess.
I wonder if it has a town rebel.
I wonder if they are in love.
My cell phones ringing, I guess my mom noticed my absence.
I answer it, and my mom immediatly begins a flow of words.
I interrupt her.
12:00
"Mommy, my heart hurts." I say with a sob.