He left… I'll understand?! No I won't! I won't ever understand! How could he…?! Sure, maybe you owe a duty to your family… I owed it to Sofia.

Sofia…he tried so hard. He looked for her everywhere. He tried. For me, for the group, and for Sofia, he tried. Oh god…things are so different now. I feel alone in the world and I can't even show it to anyone.

Lori…she's gone. The agonizing screams of her in pain still ring in my ears. I held her hand as she died…but I saved a life even though we lost one. WELL DON'T YOU THINK THERES BEEN ENOUGH LOSS?! DO YOU THINK THAT THERE NEEDED TO BE A SPACE OPEN FOR A NEW LIFE?! No? yeah neither did I.

You'd think I'd be used to dead, people leaving, and things going wrong…well…I'm not. I'm not fine, I'm not sad, and I'm sure as hell not sane. I'm just…in the middle. I'm really nowhere. I'm on a bullet train going nowhere but down.

Lori was my friend. The closest one I had in this world. I lost everyone. My daughter, my no good bastard of a husband, and finally, I lost my best friend. She died right in front of me. And to make matters worse, her own son had to shoot her. Yeah. A shame isn't it?

But that's life here. There is no up? Guess who we have chasing our tails now? The god damn Governor. That's who. You think he's gonna leave us in peace after we shot up his town and killed people? No. you're smarter than I thought.

I'm tired of being Carol the sweet heart. I lost the last person I care for. Sure I love the group…but Daryl. He was something else.

So sweet, so kind, and so good with the baby. Lil' Ass kicker. Ha.

But…now he's gone. He did so much just to keep us going and he just leaves. That's not who he is. He's never been the one to walk away. Lord knows he could at any time.

But…he didn't. He stayed. He saved us in so many ways. He saved me…

When T-dog gave me some time I ran… but I came to a head with a bunch of walkers. Ran till I found a closet and waited. I waited for someone…anyone. No. I waited for him because I knew he'd find me. Call me crazy but I just knew.

I've been bonding with Axel. He's okay. And a little sweet…but he's not Daryl. Not even close.

So I've decided I don't want to live in a world without Daryl. Sounds crazy doesn't it? Well who else do I have? Sure Rick is here, Maggie, Glenn, Carl… but they can't; don't love me like I love him. I miss him so much.

I look down at the sleek barrel of the gun and hold it to my forehead. I miss him so much…

"Carol?" his voice rings out. I'm imagining it. He's not here. He won't come back.

"Carol drop the gun." His voice shakes. Daryl's voice never shakes. Ever.

I spin around. He's there. Standing, his brown eyes dark with an expression I've never scene. Sadness.

Merrill stands a few feet behind him, he doesn't say anything.

I reach out and Daryl grabs my hand. He's real…so real. He tugs me into a hug and I know that I'm not imagining it. He came back. He's back. His warmth elopes me and I drop the gun.

"Damnit Carol." His voice rumbles through his broad chest.

"Daryl." I cry slightly. I wasn't one for tears, in fact I thought I had none left.

"What were you thinking? I couldn't live in a world without you." He sighs and I feel something wet hit my short hair. A tear.

"I couldn't live in a world without you." I hug him tighter.

"what…?" he asks as if he's hard of hearing.

"I said I couldn't live in a world without you. Daryl…I love you." My voice trembles and I let out a sob.

"Carol. I love you… and you're the only reason I came back. Not because of the group. You. Wherever you are is where I belong." He leans down and kisses my head.

He's my best friend. He's the only guy I care for. He's the only one I love and he's the only one I'd die for.

Daryl I love you so much.

So this is my first walking dead fic! tell me what you think DAROL FOREVER