Authors note:
Authors note:
I do not own anything Twilight.
Oh and by the way, this is my first try at a Twilight fan fiction, I'm usually all Harry Potter.
So read and enjoy and please please please review. Thanks.
Much love.
I JUST RE-EDITED, SO PLEASE RE-READ AND RE-REVIEW.
I struggled against his indissoluble grasp knowing that within a few hours there would be purple marks encircling my tiny wrists. I looked at him straight into his dark eyes hoping to pierce through to the Jacob Black that used to be there for me. The Jacob Black that use to be my best friend. A slight groan escaped the back of my throat and I prayed that Edward wouldn't be here anytime soon. For if he was it would literally be world war three right here in the middle of my bedroom. His breath was hot and heavy in my left ear and so unlike the sweetness that penetrated off of Edward. I turned my head to look at the rain that splattered up against my bedroom window and shuddered knowing that both these boys, no men, that meant so much to me have both made their way through it. I blinked my eyes open and shut a couple of times hoping that this very guilt that was cascading its way throughout my body was a prop in a dream and that I was really tucked beneath the sheets of my bed, Edwards awaken body laying beside me and watching me rest.
"Why can't you understand that I am better than that filthy bloodsucker, I will give you more to live for. WHY CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND!?"
Jacob tightened his grasp on me and I felt like screaming right then and there although I didn't. Fear gripped me as I saw a ripple go through his left shoulder and hoped that he had gained control of his non-human form. I knew that Charlie wasn't home and he wouldn't be for the next 5 hours but something withheld me from screaming into the dark face of Jacob, and it was then that I understood that it was the guilt that was stopping me.
"Jake…" I managed to push out of my drying lips, looking him once more into his black eyes.
He wanted me to breakdown and tell him that he was the one that I really loved and that Edward was nothing to me, and his sick way of yelling at me to try to get it out of me was not the way. Really, there wasn't any point cause he knew perfectly clear that I loved Edward as a Lover and Jacob as a brother. The exciting adrenaline that used to pump through my veins when I used to hang out with Jacob in his garage, building our motorcycles and doing all the fun stuff we used to do was now replaced by a defensive type of adrenaline. The type that came to you when you were in need of hitting something, or someone in particular. I knew what I had to do and had confidence that it would work.
"Go home." I told him plain and simple. His angry distorted face changed back into the young russet colored boy I knew.
"He's on his way." Jacob answered back, his hard lips forming into a smirk.
"I can smell that fool from a mile away." He loosened his grip on me and made his way out my window and back to wherever it was he was going. I made my way over to the brown wood bordered mirror that was placed behind my door and looked at myself. I was a complete disgusting mess. I hadn't showered in 3 days; I was in the same nightie from 2 nights ago and my head stung a little. I didn't know whether the throb that was forming in my head was from seeing Jacobs out of control tactics or if it was lack of seeing Edward.
It was as if my prayers were answered too soon because about 4 minutes later there was a tapping at my window. I walked over cautiously after wrapping a robe around me and smiled a smile so big as I opened up the window. Edward made his way through and shut the window with such grace before turning and looking at me. He was wet from the downpour outside and he pressed his wintry lips to my neck.
"Sorry I'm late" he whispered so softly that I could barely hear him. He kissed his way behind my ear and I could feel my eyes closing and my heart stop beating. His passionate, sweet smell was so overwhelming and the rain only made his smell intensify, causing me to almost faint from such pleasure. He took my hand into his and brought me over to my bed. Edward stretched himself out, putting his arms behind his head, while I made my way on top of him.
"Jacob was here." I said cool and calmly hoping that I would get the reaction I was hoping for. Which I did. The great thing was that Edward didn't really have much objection to me being around Jacob, as long as "the beast kept his hands to himself."
"Ya I know, I could smell that swine from a miles distance. What was he doing here? I sensed him near but couldn't see evidently into his mind, almost certainly some dog thing." there really wasn't any point in lying. I brought my limp wrists to his face and showed him the tiny purple marks that were starting to form.
"HE'S DEAD!" Edward roared and I tried to coax him into calming down. He was at the window in a heart beat prying it open with his big hands. I rushed over to him and placed my small arms on the black v-neck that fit remarkably over his back. I turned him around with much effort and slid my hands up to his torso. I felt another growl forming in his chest so I placed my hands under his shirt and on his stone cold body, instantly seduced by the marble like texture that got to me every time.
"Please, just not now." I said while I rested my head onto his chest. I looked up at the face that I would do anything for, that I loved so much it might just be insane. He took my wrists in both his hands and brought them up to his face. He once again placed his cold lips on them making the hurting feeling leave almost at once. I pushed my way closer to him and frowned in his face.
"Now what did I do?" a sly grin forming on top his beautiful face. He picked me up faster than I could even notice I was off the ground, and carried me to my bed. He came to a rest on top of me and I was almost too-seduced as his muscular form fit nicely on top of mine.
"You haven't kissed me at all in the 5 minutes that you've been here." I giggled playfully, watching his almost concerned expression.
"Yes indeed I have!" he cried out, kissing my neck and ears some more. I raked my hands through his copper hair, feeling the softness of it.
"I mean on the lips"
"Well we all are acquainted with the fact that you just about faint every time I carry out to kiss you, and must I say that I do enjoy your company a great deal more when your heart is thumping and your eyes are open." I nudged him playfully on the shoulder and he lowered his minty lips to mine. I deepened the kiss by pushing his torso deeper onto me and I shivered as his arctic, yet soothing, fingers made their way into the elastic of my underwear. I didn't let him get any further and I pushed him off and made my way to the washroom. My head was full of a pleasant type of nothingness whenever I was near him. A vast nothingness full of love.
"May I ask what in fact you are doing" he asked seductively, his soft voice filling the air around us. Edward got up and made his way to the washroom where he saw me merely look at him straight in the eyes. I kicked off my pink fluffy slippers, suddenly embarrassed by them as Edward was standing near me, his right arms folded and his perfect body perched up against the wall.
"I need to shower" I said coolly, letting him figure out what I was implying. He let the look in my eyes imply what I wanted and gracefully strode over to where I was. He lifted me up on the sink and started kissing me ferociously. Edward pushed up my nightie and slid it over my heard revealing me in only my panties. I tucked my hands under his sweater and undressed him almost too fast. His muscular arms carried me into the shower were we undressed ourselves to the core and I moaned as he pressed himself fully against me, allowing me to feel the hardness forming in between his legs.