Recently, I've been extremely content with my life, it all began when I decided to move out of my parent's house. The decision to move out wasn't an easy decision, I didn't want to abandon my brothers, but the idea of depending on my parents for everything irritated me. I decided to speak with Choromatsu, the youngest brother, about this idea to move out. I expected yells and sobs, but I was instead greeted with a huge amount of support. Choromatsu also revealed to me that he too was planning to move, but he couldn't come up with a way to tell Osomatsu and me. I was overjoyed to learn that I wasn't the only one planning to move out, together we went to tell Osomatsu about the news. Now, when we went to tell him the news, he didn't respond so well. Osomatsu is a very family-oriented person, he couldn't picture his life without our parents or without his two younger brothers.
He yelled at us calling us traitors for leaving him behind. We tried to talk to him calmly in order to calm him down to discuss this decision like adults, but it ended up in a big brawl like how most things usually end up whenever we have an argument. He accepted the decision of his two baby brothers moving out and ever since then I became independent. The first few days were difficult, I moved out of my parent's home to become a bother to my good friend Chibita. I was practically begging outside his door to let me in with him, promising him that I'm not running away I just want to become independent.
Days turn into weeks and eventually I was able to land an office job. Most people would find it tedious to just come in and sit in a cubicle all day, but I still find my job exciting. I was proud when I called my parents to tell them that their painful son was able to get a decent job. In result my parents are proud of me for not giving up and my brothers are proud of me for sticking through this decision.
"Hey Karamatsu!" I snap out of my thoughts when I hear the sweet and airy voice of my co-worker, Kiko. She holds a pink bento box and points to the door that leads to the cafe. I quickly get the idea and grab my own blue bento. We walk in the cafe of the office, it's a very simple place with only a couple of tables and chairs organized neatly around the room. Vending machines stand neatly against the wall and separating each vending machine is a different recycling bin.
Kiko quickly takes a table meant for two people next to the window. I follow and sit in front of her placing my bento on the table.
"Don't think I've forgotten!" Kiko speaks with childish glee in her voice. I look away from her knowing exactly what she means.
"Tell me all about your date!" She squeals with joy, a little too much joy for my liking, but it makes me smile because Kiko does mean well.
"Ummm... Well, he did ask me to go out for dinner next we-" Before I could even finish Kiko squeals with joy in her chair causing people to look at our direction. I look away from them trying to avoid the awkward eye contact and the embarrassment from being stared at.
"Really! Oh my god Karamatsu that's amazing! You know I told you from the first minute that he was an amazing person! Because you know I've got like a six..." I block out Kiko's small speech about her sixth sense when it comes to love. I heard this many times before and I will probably hear it till the day we retire. She'll probably remind me of her sixth sense while we sit on our rocking chair in our old age. I giggle slightly at the image of us as elderly people, Kiko still the same while I try to keep up with her energy.
I enter my small apartment immediately throwing my brief case on the couch and slowly stripping as I walk towards my bathroom. I step out of the shower and enter my room in search for something to wear for the night, until my house phone distracted me.
"Hello Osomatsu!" I yell happily as I sit on my bed drying my hair with my towel. It isn't unusual for Osomatsu to call me after work, but he usually calls when he knows I'm already settled in for the night.
"I need to talk to you, it has to do with something huge..." I blink in confusion not understanding what the hell he's trying to tell me, but the tone he's using is not really calming me down. I lay down on my bed as I made a small to continue talking.
"I tried talking to Choromatsu about this, but he just fucking blacked out on me like he always does when it comes to money." I had to agree with this Choromatsu has always been the responsible one when it came to money. Osomatsu tends to spend it playing games or just throwing it away in gambling which results in a lot of debt.
"Ahuh..."
"Karamatsu I fucking owe 50,000,000 dollars to some guys..." At this point my hand just began to sweat and my eyes are wide like saucers. For that moment I forgot how to breathe correctly
"You have to be joking... Hahahaha that's really funny brother now reall-" This has to be some type of joke right? There's no way in hell Osomatsu would owe that much money to some random guys... right...
"This isn't a joke! I owe 50,000,000 dollars to these people!"
"Why!?" I shout at my phone holding it as if it's to blame for Osomatsu's poor choices.
"The business I was trying to run didn't do so well so I fucking went bankrupt okay... and I took out a shit ton of loans trying to save it..." I can feel the sense of defeat Osomatsu must feel having to resort to his younger brother. I know how hard it is for him to ask help, but I don't even know I could help him at this point. I have some savings in the bank, but it won't even make a dent in the amount of money he owes the loan sharks.
"I'll help you... I'll figure out something... I'll call you tomorrow..." I don't know why I agreed to help him. I don't even know where in the name of Kami I'm going to get that money. I hear Osomatsu take in a shaky breath probably from crying.
"Thanks Karamatsu... This means a lot... Goodnight." I bid him a goodnight as well. I mange to find some night clothes, but as soon as I hit the bed with them on sleep is hard to find. Thoughts on how to pay this debt off came to my mind making me restless to the point that I couldn't take it no more. I got out of bed and went to my living room to put on my sneakers. I left my apartment with only my keys in hand.
I find myself walking alone on a bridge with no destination in mind. The night air is cold and unforgiving for anyone not wearing a jacket, but I'm the only exception. The thought of paying 50,000,000 kept circling in my head causing me to ignore the world around me. How long will it take to pay off this debt? Would I even be alive? How many jobs would I need?
Earlier today the only thought in my head was my fourth date with my boyfriend, but the date was cancelled along with our relationship when I called him earlier to tell him about my situation. The idea of dating someone with this type of problem just made him run off. He even went as far as to block my cell phone number.
A powerful cold wind blew towards me almost knocking me down on the floor. I stop moving towards the end of the bridge and just stood looking out of the water wondering where everything went wrong. Should I've even accepted to help Osomatsu? He is my brother... But it isn't fair to me... I didn't have anything to do with his business or with his loans... Yet... I'm the one suffering... I lost my peaceful life... My boyfriend broke up with me... I'm so useless... I didn't notice the tears rolling down my face till the icy wind made me notice. I clean the tears off of my face with a sigh, I watched the as the river flowed under the bridge, the waves relaxing me. Somehow, the river calm me down long enough to stop crying I smile a bit as I look up, but I'm not alone on this bridge. I notice someone standing far away from me, watching the river just like how I was a few seconds ago.
I guess he's also having a crappy night and decided on a walk. I look back at the river glancing at the small waves I look back to see if the guy is still there, but he disappeared... What in the hell...
SPLASH
….. No... No... He... H-he di... Before I could finish the thought I immediately ran towards the stairs. My steps are fast and clumsy causing me to almost fall down the stairs, I ran to the river bank and started looking for the man. Fear began to bloom in my heart as the river is high with strong current from the heavy rain we endured yesterday. No... He couldn't have been...Crap crap crap! I frantically search for any sign that told me he's indeed still in the river and possibly still alive. The splashing of water alerted my eyes to a different direction, I see something poking in and out of the water attempting to swim in the river.
"Hang in there! I'll help you!" I shout at his direction trying to make my voice louder than the river. I jumped in the river with my clothes still on. I thought I would be able to handle the water, but the water proved me wrong since it's flowing much faster than I first thought and it turned out to be much deeper as well.
I tried to swim close to the man, but my body wouldn't allow me to do such a thing, the heaviness of my clothes combined with the water only resulted in it dragging me to the bottom of the river. I wave my arms around trying to gather at least an ounce of strength to save the man, but yet again I'm denied of such movement. I kept waving my arms around hoping that the river would at least give me a chance as I begin to yell out to him. I wanted to say are you okay? But when I opened my mouth the water came rushing in. I began to cough out water as my arms became tired from waving around the water.
…. I can't help him... I can't even...help...myself...
Before I blacked out I saw something purple come towards me.
I feel something cold and soft pressed on my lips... The two odd sensation kept on repeating themselves over and over again until I felt myself come into consciousness. My body feels as if I've undergone some military training, it feels heavy and sore. I start to open my eyes, but all I see is a blurry dark purple thing in front of me.
"Hey! Hey! Are you okay? Are you alive?" I hear a rich voice fill my ears. I began to cough the cold water out of my lungs, I heard the same rich voice only it was a chuckle this time.
"You're okay since you manged to cough up that much water. By the way, what kind of idiot are you to jump into the river like that? Are you some kind of idiot or something?" Purple eyes were staring at me already judging me. The only response he received from me is my confused stare... He was the one that jumped into the river!
"You jumped into the river!" I yell at him, but he only look back at me with some confusion.
"Yea I jumped in I didn't know some idiot would follow me in. Especially someone that didn't know how to swim, didn't your mom ever teach you not to follow other people?" My face turn red from anger and embarrassment.
"I tried to save you! You dumbass!" This time instead of confusion he gave me a shock expression as I glared him down.
"You were trying to save me?" I clenched on to my jaw so tight that my teeth began to hurt. Who the hell does this guy think he is!?
"Yes I tried to save you! I saw you jum-"
"How the hell you tried to save me? I had to save your sorry ass! I even had to give you CPR!" His loud voice caused an echo around the bank and ringing in my ears. I'm trying to calm down, but this guy is making it so hard!
"You know how stupid it is that I had to save you while I tried to commit suicide!"
"You really were trying to do that..." I look away the anger leaving me slowly, but it's still very present. What kind of problems does this person even have? Right now I have all the worse problems lined up!
"Yea smart ass why else would I try to jump off a bridge? To show off my diving skills?" Scratch that my anger came back full force.
"You know something you shouldn't even be thinking of committing suicide at all! You should just man up and face your problems!" I start to yell at him giving him one of Choromatsu's lectures, but this only angered him.
"What the fuck do you know about me and my issues!?"
"I'm 50,000,000 dollars in debt! Yet I'm not going to commit suicide! When you die it's all over!" I shout at him tossing my arms around for affect something I tend to do out of anger, but he's still angry.
"It's your fault that my attempt failed! You should take responsibility for that! In fact..." I couldn't let him finish. I feel like I'm ready to explode with the amount of anger I'm holding in.
"Excuse me!?" He smirk at my direction... the smirk sort of reassembled a fox it's a disturbing look on the man.
"Listen you little shit in order for you to take responsibility for my failed suicide attempt I want you to marry me." His fox smirk mock me as I try to make sense out of what he just said... I have to marry this dumbass?... What...
This day just went from bad to horrible.