Beautiful
Summary: 17-year-old Piper Halliwell is struggling to fit in at school. Could her struggle lead to something more serious that goes far beyond the walls of Baker High? Rated R for language.
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Reflections don't lie.... Maybe it's your eyes that do.
Day by day I sit in the silence in my room while life passes me by. I don't really see any use for life, because if there was a use for it, I wouldn't be sitting here on my bed staring at the ceiling wondering what my life could be like if I just fucking fit in at my school. God. School. I hate it. I hate every single thing about it. The people, the teachers, the pressure. Everything. Lately I haven't been turning things in, and of course, the teachers seem thing think that's a problem, the people think I'm not turning things in because I don't want to be named "the smart one" and last but not least, there's the pressure. Threats of failure. Why not fail at school? I've failed at life already, what's one more thing added on to the growing list? I'm used to this by now.
There's a person I idolize. Someone I wish I was like so bad that it literally hurt. My older sister, Prue. She was the one who always fit in at school. Always had a boyfriend, always had friends. Confident, beautiful, and thin. Went to parties and enjoyed life. Then, on the other hand, there's me. I'm the one who never fits in at school. The one who's never had a boyfriend and had never been to a party. Very low confidence, ugly, and average sized. The one who hates life. Hates herself.
Then, this summer, my life was saved by something I never expected. Depression led to absolutely no eating, which led to weight loss, which ultimately led to being thin, beautiful, and confident. I kept up this cycle of no eating, because, well, nobody really seemed to notice, let alone care. It went on through my Junior year in High School. I was loving this. Loving the attention I was finally getting. Everyone came up to me and commented on my weight loss.
"Piper, you look great!" They would say. "How'd you lose so much weight? You look awesome!"
And so in my head I was doing something right. My Grams didn't seem to notice, and neither did my younger sister Phoebe, who was in a world of her own. This went on all through Junior year and all through the summer. After the first time I passed out, I finally realized what it was that was changing me.
Anorexia.
My only question now is, do I wan't to get rid of it or not?
To Be Continued
Summary: 17-year-old Piper Halliwell is struggling to fit in at school. Could her struggle lead to something more serious that goes far beyond the walls of Baker High? Rated R for language.
~&~
Reflections don't lie.... Maybe it's your eyes that do.
Day by day I sit in the silence in my room while life passes me by. I don't really see any use for life, because if there was a use for it, I wouldn't be sitting here on my bed staring at the ceiling wondering what my life could be like if I just fucking fit in at my school. God. School. I hate it. I hate every single thing about it. The people, the teachers, the pressure. Everything. Lately I haven't been turning things in, and of course, the teachers seem thing think that's a problem, the people think I'm not turning things in because I don't want to be named "the smart one" and last but not least, there's the pressure. Threats of failure. Why not fail at school? I've failed at life already, what's one more thing added on to the growing list? I'm used to this by now.
There's a person I idolize. Someone I wish I was like so bad that it literally hurt. My older sister, Prue. She was the one who always fit in at school. Always had a boyfriend, always had friends. Confident, beautiful, and thin. Went to parties and enjoyed life. Then, on the other hand, there's me. I'm the one who never fits in at school. The one who's never had a boyfriend and had never been to a party. Very low confidence, ugly, and average sized. The one who hates life. Hates herself.
Then, this summer, my life was saved by something I never expected. Depression led to absolutely no eating, which led to weight loss, which ultimately led to being thin, beautiful, and confident. I kept up this cycle of no eating, because, well, nobody really seemed to notice, let alone care. It went on through my Junior year in High School. I was loving this. Loving the attention I was finally getting. Everyone came up to me and commented on my weight loss.
"Piper, you look great!" They would say. "How'd you lose so much weight? You look awesome!"
And so in my head I was doing something right. My Grams didn't seem to notice, and neither did my younger sister Phoebe, who was in a world of her own. This went on all through Junior year and all through the summer. After the first time I passed out, I finally realized what it was that was changing me.
Anorexia.
My only question now is, do I wan't to get rid of it or not?
To Be Continued