'I was trying to fly, but I couldn't find wings.
You came along and you changed everything.'
Crazier - Taylor Swift
In Love with a Girl
I wasn't so sure about the strange feeling that had formed in the pit of my stomach at this very moment. My life seemed empty.
Until she came and changed my whole world.
The feeling was strange, like a bouncing of sorts in my stomach. It was ever constant, and my heart felt like it could completely melt at any moment. It was a crazy feeling, but I think I would be even crazier without it.
There, right in front of me, Sonny Monroe rested on the 'So Random!' stage. It was only a mere eight-thirty at night, but it appeared to me that she had spent her entire day here. She wore an older-looking pink dress and knee-high white socks. 'Costume,' I assumed. Her brown hair was in soft ringlet curls, and a script was loosely clenched in her right hand. I walked over to her cautiously, not wanting to startle her, or cause her to wake. I wasn't sure of what to do, but I knew I couldn't just leave her there all night by herself.
'Shouldn't her mother be expecting her home soon?' I thought to myself, mentally smacking myself when I realized how out of character I would've sounded saying that aloud.
I slowly took Sonny up into my arms, and leaned her lightly against my chest. She was far from heavy, but it was hard to carry her, for I was afraid that I might drop her. I started to pad out of the stage room and walk silently to her dressing room.
As I walked, I couldn't help but focus my eyes down on her peaceful face. I could feel my heart starting to beat faster and faster, it seemed as if it would skip right out of chest. I became so caught up in her presence that I had lost all of my train of thought.
I had seen this happen countless times to people in movies…this much needed distraction, I mean. A guy meets a pretty girl, they become good friends under several circumstances, and then with a few complications on the way, they'd fall in love…
…
I finally reached her dressing room, and set Sonny down on the large loveseat centered in the middle of the room. I sought out her face again; I just couldn't get enough. She was so many good things, but yet, if I did...have such strong feelings towards Sonny, I knew I would never be good enough for her. She was too kind, so gentle, so fragile. I would break her.
I am this conceited jerk who demands everything, even when I know I can have it all. I argue with everyone because it's just the façade I put on to keep up my reputation. I'm a liar, an inconsiderate brat, and a heartbreaker.
But that was just who I am.
Chad Dylan Cooper.
I sat down silently next to my sunshine and took time to think.
…
I quietly awoke when someone next to me, so very gently, shifted slightly. I wondered why the lights were on, seeing as though it was still dark outside, until I realized where I was and who I was with. My head started to spin again, almost as much as it had last night, and I let my head fall against the back of the chair. I realized then that my arm had been wrapped around Sonny's slim waist, and she was tucked closely into my chest.
It was my own kind of heaven.
It was the kind of heaven where I was no longer the thoughtless jerk who only cared for himself. The only thing that mattered was in my arms at this very moment.
I was in love with a girl.
Not just any girl, though. No, Sonny Monroe was different. The complete opposite, really. I was crazy about her, and I had been holding it inside of me for so long.
The reason I had felt as if I couldn't leave her alone last night was because I loved her. I really, truly did.
AN: Hope you enjoyed this little one-shot I quickly put together. Please don't forget to let me know what you think of it!