"Why couldn't I stop him."-Alex whispered to herself as she sat of her bed with her knees to her chest. Her chin sat on the top of her knees as she stared into the darkness of her room.
" Why didn't I die along with them? Why didn't I get the pleasure of going with them and being happy? Why do I have to carry this burden with me as I walk through this life?"
Alex ponder these questions she had ask herself over and over again. But no matter how hard she tried to answer them she never could. As she sat and thought to herself she thought she saw something move in a dark corner of the room. Alex then saw the figure move slowly and unsteady closer to the bed and her.
Finally it stop what Alex saw was herself but all black no other color at all. This figure of her came everynight to torment her with the same line over and over again. Haunting her till she couldn't keep her eyes anymore.
Alex remembered the first night she came, she was nothing but a blur barley resembling a human shape. But now it was unmistakably herself. Over the years that have passed this dark Alex had become sharper in detail in everything, every shape and edge about her was in the dark her.
Dark Alex took pleasure in her human resemblance being like this sad, depressed being. And she wanted it to say that way, cause if it changed she would poof from existence, not to be remember ever again by her. But she could tell that her resemblance was deep into a depressed state and that it would be hard for her to break out of it.
Not wanting to look at the dark figure in front of her,Alex buried jer head between her legs and chest. She keep hearing the figure say repeatedly "look" or "hey" in a voice that sounded like her own but wispy and breathy. But no matter how, Alex refused to look up at what she had created. Suddenly there was a sharp pain at the top of her head from the figure pulling a good handful of hair. Alex hiss at the pain as her head was force to look at her dark resemblance.
The dark Alex let go of her hair and moved her hand to grip her chin. She smiled triumphantly and wickedly showing her dark fangs. Her eyes turn red with wicked glee she repeated her line she said every night when she returned
"You're alone now, and it all your fault. They would still be alive if you would of stayed put and never found them in the first place. For heaven sake your brother would still be breathing here on this place we call earth. You would be able to live with yourself!"
Tears were rolling down Alex cheeks as she tried to speak but all she was able to mutter was " Why do you do this to me?"
Dark Alex smiled widen ear to ear as she laughed wickedly " My dear you make me laugh you should well know by now why I come every night here to you." As she started to walk backwards, she stop and did a bow win her arms outstretched to the sides.
She straightened and started to walk back to the corner she came from. " Bye Dearie see you tomorrow." She said harshly as she disappeared into the shadows of Alex room.
Alex turned herself to sit on her hands and knees to crawl to the head of the bed. Since it was a short trip she soon she reach were her pillow sat on her bed she laid on her side and pulled the covers up to drape over her shoulders.
Maybe a minute pass but soon she was crying uncontrollably and was taking in gasp of air between her sobs. As she laid and cried she thought of her friends-
There was Josey and her horse Blue Jeans;when she rode him they could go the speed of lightning. Then Killian, he was able to control water around him. He could turn it boiling hot or frozen solid in minutes. Last Joe he possess the strength, he could break bone in seconds .
They all had help and cared for her after the explosion that turned her into a martian. They had all help her tame and wield her powers properly and to turn swiftly.
After she had took full control over her powers they let her compete for the tryouts of the Doom patrol. She had successfully got in to the patrol along with another, which turned out to be her brother.
That memory of the patrol then remind her of the last night she ever saw her friends and brother. The night were that cruel man had separated them through life and death. If only she could've stop that blast from hitting them, if only she could've stop them from insisting on fighting. The man only wanted her; she should've tried harder to stop from getting involved.
_Rise Up_
Friday 10, 2009 at 11:00 he died, the war was won- the monster was banished to a place he could never get out. But he, her brother died and her friends died.
Alex tears ran down faster as he thought the last conversation she had with her brother-
_Rise Up_
Just a FYI in this flashback Alex is beast girl
Beast Girl ran searching left and right trying to see if she could see Beast boy's body anywhere in battlefield. She had to find him to see if he was still alive. All the others were already dead. Suddenly far in the distance she saw a body that look green. She quickly turn into an eagle and flew as fast as she could. As she neared closer she saw that in fact it was Beast boy body. She gasps and whispered to herself " Garfield no"
She shot down to an inch of the ground she turn back to her human shape. She book it to the place he laid. She reach the place were he was and kneeled down and she scanned his body and there was a open gash in his stomach where he was stabbed. She took off her gloves and place them were the wound was. Beast Boy wince as she started to apply pressure to. "Sorry" She said to the unconscious body of her brothers.
Beast Boy cough as his eyes started to open slowly. He woke to see his sister crying softly, while she tried to stop the heavy bleeding from his stomach with only her gloves. Even though he was in pain he wanted to comfort her so he started to speak to her.
"Hey Alex please stop crying. It'll be okay." He said with his voice cracking
" How can you expect me to stop when you are dying." She said looking at him still apply pressure to his open wound
He sigh and frowned " Your right. What about the others are they okay?" He questioned
She shook her head said " No they're dead"-she stared off in the distance for several minutes;looking back at her brother-" I should've never let you guys convince me on letting you come."
Beast boy grab her arm and protested " Alex don't say that, we all knew that it would be dangerous fighting that dude. I know for a fact that none of us regret fighting by your side. And hey we won."
" Yes we won but if you guys didn't come the others wouldn't be dead and you would still be okay." She said in response of his protest.
Beast Boy started coughing and blood start trickily from the corners of his mouth and the gash started bleeding more heavy.
"No, No" Beast Girl said as she tried to apply more pressure and tried to get her blood soak gloves to soak up more. She felt a hand grab her forearm and pull her blood stained hands away from the gloves and wound.
"what are you doing!" Beast Girl said loudly as she jerk her arm out of his grip. She tried to go back to the wound but she was grab again. This happen several more times till she finally gave up.
" I just want you to live Garfield." She said as she look down. As tears rolled down her cheeks she heard 'come closer'.
She look up and crawled to the side of his chest area and she positioned herself to kneeling. Beast boy cupped his hand on her cheek and warmly smiled despite pain he was in.
" I know you what me to live Alex-but I'm not going to. I can feel myself getting weaker, I wouldn't make it back to the tower.- I going to be reunited with Mamma and Papa, maybe I'll be human again. For you I'll tell them how much you miss them and that you love them."
He wanted for a minute or 2 for her to answer be she didn't. He sighed with his eyebrows knitting together.
" please say something Alex" he said only loud enough for her to hear
" Do you really think it's a good time to use the nickname you gave me, why not my real name" she questioned since she had always wonder
" I think it suits you better than Annabella" he answer before he started to cough more blood started to escape mouth and cut
" It time for me." He said with a small grin but it slip off when he saw his sisters distress face.
" No- I can't do it Garfield! I can't lose you again. I lost you when I was 8, only to be with you again when I was 13 and now I'm 15. That's only 2 years we've been reunited! I can't do it again Gar-not again"
Beast boy gave a passionate expression with his fading eyes and said " It's true, all of it. We found each other last time, I know we can do it again."
"But it this time it going to be through death." Beast Girl replied sadly
Beast boy raised his hand and cup her cheek and with the little strength he had left he said " I'll be okay Alex I promise… we'll see each other again." As he finish his eyes began faded and close.
Beast Girl with her tears still rolling her cheeks she quickly said " I love you Garfield remember that."
Beast boy smiled slightly and promised with his last breath " I will, I love you to Alex."
His eyes finally closed and his hand fell from her cheek. Beast Girl breathe hitched as he past. New hot tears started to roll down her light green cheeks as she sat in shock.
_Rise up_
After minutes or hours of sitting in shock Beast Girl finally snap out of it. She look down at her brother and thought aloud " I hope your right Gar….. I hope your right"
As she spoke she tried to hold the tears back, she sorta did. She look around and thought " you and the other deserve to be buried properly, you died hero's."
With her mind made up she too them one by one burying them on a small island behind Titans Tower.
When she finish she turn to look before heading back. As she look at the graves of her friends and brother she couldn't hold the tears back. She fell to her knees and hug herself tightly around her torso.
As she cried uncontrollably thoughts come to her mind. Thoughts that weren't good. Thought Beast Boy told her not to believe- but she did.
About an hour later with the sun starting to peek up over the lake; Beast Girl was able to kind of stop her tears. As she stood her legs were shaky barely supporting her. Her still blood stained hands were quivering and her eyes droopy.
Finally she turn into a bird and started to fly an unsteady flight back to the tower. She entered the T-shaped building and went to the kitchen. When she entered the kitchen/ living room, all the members look up at her and Robin ask the first question.
" what happened? " Robin ask with worried look hence to the blood and dirt stain hands, tear streaks and red-ish eyes from not sleeping at all.
Before Beast Girl could answer her knees gave out and her body force her to finally fall into a slumber
_Rise up_
When Beast Girl woke up she found herself in her room it was dark and the moon was up. She turned her head to look over to her clock, it was 11:00 p.m at night.
" your awake." a non-emotion voice said, which cause Beast Girl to jump then wince in pain from her injuries from the night before.
She look over to the source of the voice and realized it was Raven.
" What are you still doing up?" Beast Girl wondered
" The whole team is on night shifts, so one us will be here when you wake up." Raven explained
"oh- um why?" Beast Girl questioned
" We have questions and Robin what's answers as soon as possible." Raven answered simply
" I get it….." Beast Girl replied
" Can I ask you something?" Raven asked with a nod for an answer " Where's Beast Boy?"
Beast Girl shot up with this answer. How was She going to put it? How was She going to not choke up?
She took a deep breathe " He's…...He's"- as she tried to answer she look over to the corner of the room and saw a blurred human shadow thing. It scared her so she quickly look away; she look back at Raven and finished " Dead"
Raven gasped and look down to the side then look back and said " I'm sorry."
Hey guys! Sorry I haven't been on FanFic for a bit (been busy and working on this, now i'll get back on track) So here's my sorta new story, it just basically a re-write of my old story Will she rise again. I hope you like this new version of it. if you have any suggesting fill free to share. So yeah, if you want to knew why I rewrote Will she rise again just ask and it will be in my next chapter. That's it for now Review, Suggest and share! BYE!
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