I'm No Good

by Rainbow Haired Girl

With John Winchester gone and Dean knowing a secret that John had told him. Tensions are bound to run high between Andi, Dean, and Sam especially when secrets are being held between them. It's bound to cause problems in the end. Part 2 of A Woman of Letters.

1. Dean's Dying

I'm No Good

Rainbow Haired Girl

Summary: With John Winchester gone and Dean knowing a secret that John had told him. Tensions are bound to run high between Andi, Dean, and Sam especially when secrets are being held between them. It's bound to cause problems in the end. Part 2 of A Woman of Letters.

Disclaimer: I don't own Supernatural, but I do own Andi and her family.

Authoress Note: Welcome to Season 2 which I named I'm No Good. This is a sequel to See You Again. So I'm hoping that you guys like this story as much as you guys liked the last one. I'm hoping that you guys will be ready for the twists and turns in this story because I have a feeling that the ride is going to get bumpy. Recap from the last story John, Andi, Sam, and Dean had been involved in a car accident and things are about to change. When one of the boys is in trouble from the accident, John makes the choice to do something that he knows he won't regret. But what will it mean to the two younger hunters? Without further ado Chapter 1 of I'm No Good.

Chapter 1

Dean's Dying

"Sam will you slow down…" Andi said as she rushed after the younger Winchester brother. She was cursing her short legs wishing that she could keep up with the long strides of the taller Winchester brother. She knew that he was worried about Dean since both him and his father had been admitted into the hospital. She had gotten a few scratches on her face from the flying glass and had her arm in a sling from a dislocated shoulder, the same arm had a white cast over it.

Sam stopped outside of Dean's room in the doorway. He breathed heavily as he looked at his brother's broken body lying there on the hospital bed with tubes attached to him to keep him alive.

Andi stood behind Sam with a sad look on her face.

"Sammy! Andi! You both look good. Considering." Dean said standing in front of them even though they couldn't see him.

"Oh, no." Sam said softly as he swallowed the lump in his throat.

Andi wrapped her left arm around Sam giving him a hug the best she could. She couldn't believe that the older Winchester brother was in a hospital bed hanging on for dear life.

"Man, tell me you can hear me." Dean said looking at Sam. "One of you please. How's dad? Is he okay?" Dean looked at his younger brother again. "Come on you're psychic. Give me some ghost whispering or something!"

The doctor entered the room and looked at the two young hunters that stood in the room with Dean's body. "You're father's awake. You and your girlfriend can go and see him if you like."

Andi didn't bother correcting the doctor with the mistake of being called Sam's girlfriend. After all she still had her arm around him trying to offer him some comfort.

"Thank god." Dean said in relief. At least their father was awake and alive.

"Doc, what about my brother?" Sam asked as he turned to look over at the doctor. He was hoping to hear some good news about his brother.

"Well, he sustained serious injury: blood loss, contusions to his liver and kidney. But it's the head trauma I'm worried about. There's early signs of cerebral edema." The doctor explained to the two young hunters.

"Well, what can we do?"

Andi swallowed the lump in her throat as she looked back at Dean's body with her lips pursed together.

"Well, we won't know his full condition until he wakes up. If he wakes up."

"If?" Sam asked his eyes going wide. Was there really that chance of his brother not waking up?

"I have to be honest…"

"Oh screw you, Doc, I'm waking up." Dean grumbled from where he stood.

"Most people with this degree of injury wouldn't have survived this long. He's fighting very hard. But you need to have realistic expectations."

Andi looked up at Sam with a worried look knowing that he was fairly torn from what the doctor had told him. She didn't even know what she could do to help him out.

"Come on, Sam. Go find some hoodoo priest and lay some mojo on me. Sam?"

SPNSPN

Andi stood next to Sam as John awkwardly pulled something from his wallet. Her lips pursed into a thin line.

"Here. Give them my insurance." John said handing the card over to Sam.

Sam took the card and looked at it. A small smile came to his lips. "Elroy McGillicutty?"

"And his two loving sons. So, what else did the doctor say about Dean?" John asked his youngest son. He wanted to know how his eldest was doing.

"Nothing. Look. The doctors won't do anything, then we'll have to, that's all. I don't know, I'll find some hoodoo priest and lay some mojo on him."

"We'll look for someone."

"Yeah."

Andi pursed her lips together into a thin line unsure of what to say.

"But Sam, I don't know if we're gonna find anyone." John said giving his youngest a dose of hardcore reality.

"Why not?" Sam asked in confusion. "I found that faith healer before."

"Alright, that was, that was one in a million."

"So what? Do we just sit here with our thumbs up our ass?" Sam questioned narrowing his hazel eyes at his father.

Andi swallowed the lump in her throat as Sam began to argue with his father.

"No, I said we'd look. Alright? I'll check under every stone." John looked into Sam's eyes. "Where's the Colt?"

Andi pursed her lips together. John was worried about the Colt than his eldest who was laying in a hospital bed and was dying.

"Your son is dying, and you're worried about the Colt?" Sam questioned looking at his father like he had done and lost his damn mind.

"We're hunting this demon, and maybe it's hunting us too. That gun may be our only card."

"It's in the trunk. They dragged the car to a yard off of I-83."

"Alright. You've gotta clean out that trunk before some junk man sees what's inside."

"Andi already called Bobby. He's like an hour out, he's gonna tow the Impala back to his place."

Andi nodded her head to what Sam had said.

"Alright. You two go and meet up with Bobby. You get that Colt, and bring it back to me. And you two watch out for hospital security."

"I think we've got it covered." Sam said as he stood up and turned to leave.

"Hey. Here." John said stopping Sam from going out of the room with Andi. "I made a list of things I need, have Bobby pick them up for me."

Sam took the list from his father and looked at it. "Acacia? Oil of Abramelin? What's this stuff for?"

"Protection." John said lying to his youngest.

Andi pursed her lips together into a thin line. She knew that something wasn't right.

"Hey, Dad? You know, the demon, he said he had plans for me, and children like me. Do you have any idea what he meant by that?"

"No, I don't." John said lying to his youngest son, knowing the truth. He didn't want Sam to know though due to the dangers.

Andi let out a soft sigh. "Come on Sam… we have to go and meet up with Bobby before it is too late and he decides what to do with the car."

The two young hunters left the room leaving John to think.

Andi put her hands in her pockets as she walked. She had the strangest feeling that something was going to happen and what ever it was, it left a bad taste in her mouth. But she couldn't tell Sam that because it would make him wonder why she had such a feeling.

SPNSPN

Andi and Sam arrived at the junkyard looking at the poor mangled car that use to be Dean's pride and joy.

Andi bit her lower lip as she looked at it.

Sam let out a soft groan. "Oh man. Dean is gonna be pissed."

Bobby looked at Sam and Andi. "Look, Sam." He said talking to the younger Winchester. "This… this just ain't worth a tow. I say we empty the trunk, sell the rest for scrap."

"No." Sam said shaking his head. He wasn't about to allow Bobby to do that. "Dean would kill me if we did that. When he gets better he's gonna want to fix this."

"There's nothing to fix. The frame's a pretzel, and the engine's ruined. There's barely any parts worth salvaging."

"Bobby." Andi said looking at the older man with a hurt look in her eyes. "Listen to Sam."

Sam looked at Andi and saw the look in her eyes. He hadn't seen that look in her eyes in a long time. "If there's only one working part, that's enough. We're not just going to give up on…"

Bobby looked at Sam and Andi seeing the looks on their faces. "Okay." He said quietly. "You got it."

"Here, uh, Dad asked for you to get this stuff for him." Sam said handing the list over to Bobby.

Bobby looked at it and a frown came to his lips. "What's John want with this?"

"Protection from the demon?"

Bobby gave him a look.

"What?" Sam asked in confusion.

"Oh, nothing, it's just, uh…"

"Bobby? What's going on?"

Andi looked at Bobby knowing that the older man would tell Sam exactly what the ingredients were for, and she knew that there was going to be a quick fall out between the two of them again. That was something that she didn't wish to see, not when Dean was pretty much on his deathbed.

SPNSPN

Sam stalked into John's room carrying the duffel bag over his shoulder.

Andi had a hard time to keep up with him. "Jesus Sam will you slow down."

Dean met them at the door. He still wasn't that use to being outside of his own body. He just hoped that one of them could hear them. What ever was in the hospital was causing problems and they needed to hurry and hunt it down. "Sammy! Tell me you can friggin' hear men, man, there's something in the hospital. Now, you've got to bring me back and we've got to hunt this thing. Sam!"

Andi pursed her lips together as Sam remained silent. She knew that it was bad and Sam's anger was on the rise and she knew that the younger Winchester was going to end up exploding at John about the whole thing.

"You're quiet." John said looking at them.

Andi looked over at John with wide eyes knowing fully well enough that was exactly what would set Sam right on edge.

Sam turned towards his father throwing the bagr onto the bed with a harsh crash. His lips curled back in a snarl. "Did you think I would not find out?" He hissed at his father.

"What are you talking about?" John asked calmly looking at his youngest.

"This stuff from Bobby, you don't use it to ward off a demon, you use it to summon one. You're planning on bringing the demon here, aren't you? Having some stupid macho showdown?!"

"I have a plan, Sam."

Eva looked down at her feet pursing her lips together.

"That's exactly my point! Dean is dying, and you have a plan! You know what, you care more about killing this demon than you do saving your own son!"

"No, no, no, guys don't do this!" Dean said in shock watching his family fall apart. He looked at Andi and saw that she was doing nothing to try and stop them from fighting. He didn't want her to get involved in the family drama any ways. He knew Andi wouldn't be able to sait the two of them fighting by putting her two-cents in.

"Don't tell me how I feel! I am doing this for Dean."

Andi looked nervously between the two of the fighting Winchesters. She absolutely was scared of the whole ordeal between the two of them. In ways it reminded her of why she had left England.

"How? How is revenge going to help him? You're not thinking about anybody but yourself, it's the same selfish obsession!"

Andi quickly slipped out of the room closing her eyes.

"You know, it's funny, I thought it was your obsession too! This demon killed your mother, killed your girlfriend. You begged me to be part of this hunt. Now if you'd killed that damn thing when you had the chance, none of this would have happened."

"It was possessing you, Dad, I would have killed you too."

"Yeah, and your brother would be awake right now."

"Go to hell."

"I should have never taken you along in the first place. I knew it was a mistake, I knew I was wrong…."

Andi blinked a few times as nurses and doctors ran past her.

"Something's going on out there."

Sam came out of the room and looked at Andi.

Andi nodded her head. "I'll come with you." She said to him.

Sam took off down the hall with Andi hot on his heels. Sam stopped in his tracks when he stopped outside of Dean's room. He gripped the doorway as he watched them trying to resuscitating his brother. "No…" He whispered softly.

Andi looked on behind Sam with wide cognac eyes. She couldn't believe that this was happening to Dean. The doctor had said that there was a good chance that he wouldn't awaken… but this? This was pure hell. Andi reached her uncasted hand out to Sam and touched his arm lightly.

Sam turned around facing her.

Andi wrapped her arm around him trying her best to give him some comfort in what was happening inside of the room. "Dean's a strong fighter Sam. He'll fight this." She said hoping that she was right about this. The last thing that Sam needed was losing his brother so close together of his girlfriend, Jessica. "I promise Sam."

Sam held onto her crying trying his best to hold himself together. This was just too much for him. He just wasn't quite ready to lose Dean this way. Not after what they had already been through. Sam turned his head blinking a few times in confusion.

Andi looked at Sam worried. "Sam?" She asked confusion laced in her voice.

"I swore…"

"What Sam?" Andi asked tilting her head to the side in even more confusion.

The monitors slowed down and quieted to a steady beep.

"We have a pulse. We're back into sinus rhythm." The nurse told the doctor.

Sam shook his head. "Never mind."

Andi looked at Sam with worry. "Sam… I know that there is something wrong… what is it?" She said lightly touching his face making him look at her.

Sam's hazel eyes bored into her cognac eyes.

"What happened?" She asked smoothing her hand carefully over his cheek that was starting to get a five o'clock stubble across it.

"You wouldn't believe me if I told you." Sam said letting out a soft puff of breath. He wasn't even sure if he believed it.

"Try me." Andi said softly, her tone pleading with him to tell her.

"I swore I felt something."

"Like something touching you besides me?"

Sam swallowed the lump in his throat. "Meaning I think I might have felt Dean."

"Dean? No, Sam that's not possible." Andi said shaking her head.

"I'm just telling you what I felt."

"I haven't heard of this in years Sam…" Andi said pursing her lips together into a thin line. She hadn't heard of something like this happening in years. Usually the person was deemed crazy when they talked like that. "Maybe we should talk to John… tell him what happened."

Sam swallowed the lump in his throat and then slowly nodded his head. "Right."

SPNSPN

John eyed his youngest son with a look of confusion as Andi stood next to Sam after he explained what had happened near Dean's room. "What do you mean, you felt something?"

"I mean it felt like, like Dean. Like he was there, just out of eyeshot or something. I don't know if it's my psychic thing or what, it… But do you think it's even possible? I mean, do you think his spirit could be around?"

"Anything's possible."

"Well, there's one way to find out." Sam said slowly walking towards the door.

Andi's eyes went wide as Sam went towards the door.

"Where are you going?"

"I gotta pick something up. I'll be back with Andi." Sam said grabbing onto Andi's good hand and leading her towards the door.

"Wait, Sam. I promise I won't hunt this demon. Not until we know Dean's okay."

Sam nodded his head leaving the room with Andi.

Andi looked at Sam with wide eyes. "What the hell are you thinking Sam?"

"A spirit board."

Andi's eyes went wide. "A Ouija board? Don't tell me your serious of using one of those."

"It's the only way to talk to Dean."

Andi let out a groan. "You do know that there is more than one spirit that can come through those boards Sam… and not all of them good."

"It's the only shot we have Andi."

Andi let out a soft groan. "Alright. But if a bad spirit comes through that board, I'm going to be bloody pissed off at you."

Sam let out a soft chuckle. "Live a little Andi. Aren't you that girl anymore that liked getting into trouble."

Andi smacked Sam's arm lightly. "So nice of you to remember that I liked to cause trouble Samuel."

SPNSPN

Sam slowly came into Dean's room clutching a brown paper bag close to his torso as he came in. His lips pursed together into a thin line.

Andi slowly came in with him, her hand in her pocket, and nervously looking around the room in worry.

"Hey. I think maybe you're around. And if you are, don't make fun of me for this, but um, well, there's one way we can talk." He said pulling out a box that was labeled 'Mystical Talking Board'. "I already heard a lot out of Andi telling me I was insane for getting this."

Andi let out a soft scoff looking at the younger Winchester as he took a seat on the floor setting up the 'Mystical Talking Board'.

"Oh, you gotta be kidding me." Dean complained as he watched his brother set it up. "She had every right to yell at you for this Sammy."

"Dean? Dean, are you here?" Sam asked hopeful that the board would work.

"God, I feel like I'm at a slumber party." Dean said taking a seat across from Sam. "I don't see why you don't stop him on this Andi. Alright, Sam. This isn't going to work."

Sam's hands were already on the pointer as Dean placed his fingers on it and it slowly slid to 'Yes'. Sam let out a gasp his eyes going wide.

Andi let out a soft breath of relief seeing that Dean was the one that was answering Sam and not some other spirit.

"I'll be damned." Dean said in shock.

Sam laughed in relief. "It's good to hear from you, man. It hasn't been the same without you, Dean."

"Damn straight." Dean said with a scoff. He knew that they wouldn't be able to handle anything without him no matter how trained up both Andi and Sam were. He put his fingers on the pointer again trying to relay the message to Sam.

Sam's eyes went wide. "Dean, what? H? U? Hunt? Hunting? What, are you hunting?"

The pointer slid to 'Yes'.

"What the hell could he be hunting?" Andi said voicing her concern. "This is a bloody hospital."

"Do, do you know what it is?" Sam questioned.

"One question at a time, guys." Dean complained hearing both of their questions.

"What is it?" Sam questioned again hoping that Dean would be able to tell them what he was hunting.

The pointer slid around the board spelling R-E-A-P-E-R.

"A reaper. Dean. Is it after you?"

The pointer slid to 'Yes'.

Andi let out a soft gasp.

"If it's here naturally, there's no way to stop it." Sam said pursing his lips together. He knew that this was dangerous for Dean to be hunting after the thing that could very well kill him if he wasn't careful.

"Yeah, you can't kill death." Dean said shaking his head knowing that his brother couldn't see him or hear him or even Andi hearing or seeing him. He knew that he was in trouble.

"Man, you're, um…"

"I'm screwed, Sam."

"No. No, no, no, um, there's gotta be a way." Sam stood up and began to pace back and forth. "There's gotta be a way. Dad'll know what to do." Sam said leaving the room.

Andi let out a groan. "A reaper... Sam!" Andi ran out of the room after him cursing him as she went to catch up with the taller Winchester.

Sam entered the room of his father and saw that the bed was empty.

Andi stopped behind him. "Sam?"

"He's gone."

Andi let out a frustrated groan. "That bloody bastard."

Sam swallowed the lump in his throat knowing that this was a bad thing. Sam picked up his father's journal.

Andi looked at Sam. "Now what?" She questioned softly her voice laced over with concern.

He held his father's journal close to his chest. "We go back to Dean's room." He said heading out the door.

Andi let out a soft breath and turned on her heels following Sam down the hall. She couldn't help, but wonder where John had gone. It made her truly nervous of what he was planning on doing.

The two of them returned to Dean's room in pure silence.

Sam sat on the edge of his brother's bed. "Hey. So Dad wasn't in his room. But I got Dad's journal, so who knows? Maybe there's something in here." Sam said opening the journal up and began to leaf through it. He glanced up at his brother's unconscious form. He was hoping that he would be able to help Dean where he could.

Andi pursed her lips together. "Sam." She called out softly.

Sam stopped leafing through the journal for a few seconds looking at Andi. "Yeah, Andi?"

"I'm going to see if I can find John. See if you can find anything on Reapers." She said softly hoping that Sam didn't mind her hunting for John. "I can't stand around and do nothing Sam."

"Yeah. Call me if you find him."

Andi nodded her head. "Of course Sam." Andi said as she walked out of the room. She closed her eyes as she tried to calm herself. Reapers were dangerous creatures and if they were anything like the last one that they had faced, then well they certainly were in trouble.

SPNSPN

Andi pursed her lips together as she walked down another hallway looking for the Winchester Matriarch. "Oh bloody hell where could you have wandered off John." She said with a groan as she looked around. She almost jumped out of her skin when her cell phone began to ring. She pulled it out of her pocket and saw it said 'M'. She let out a soft sigh and answered it. "What do you want?" She snapped answering her cell phone.

"Sounds like you are having a bad day there love." M said in a concerned tone.

"Oh don't call me love." Andi hissed into her phone as she walked in the halls trying to find John. "What the bloody hell do you want? I'm kind of doing something important. So make it quick."

"I forgot you had claws when you wanted, Andera. That's why you were so good at being one of us."

"Shut up. I was never one of you. Not ever since someone on the team almost got me killed." She said as she turned down another hallway.

"I need you to return home, Andrea."

"I'm not coming home. You don't need me there. How many times do you have to please with me?"

"The higher ups are beginning to get upset with you, Andrea."

"Let the higher ups get bloody pissed off. I don't care." She heard a beep on her phone and she pulled her phone away seeing that it was Sam trying to call her. "I have to go."

"Andrea…"

Andi switched to Sam's call. "Sam what is it?" She asked in concern, hoping that something bad didn't happen to Dean.

"Dean's awake." Sam said softly into the phone.

"He's awake… how?"

"I don't know… did you find dad?"

"I haven't Sam. I'm sorry." Andi said apologizing to Sam. She felt terrible that she hadn't found John yet.

"Can you come back to Dean's room?"

"Of course Sam. I'll be right there." She said softly hanging up her phone. She slipped it into her pocket and turned quickly on her heels rushing back towards where she had come from. Part of her was thankful that Dean was awake, but there was that sinking feeling inside of her chest that something wasn't right.

SPNSPN

Andi stood in the room with Sam, her lips pursed together into a thin line.

"I can't explain it. The edemas vanished. The internal contusions are healed. Your vitals are good." The doctor looked at Dean. "You have some kind of angel watching over you."

"Thanks, doc." Dean said offering the doctor a smile.

The doctor left the room leaving the three of them to talk.

"So you said a Reaper was after me?" Dean question worry evident in his voice as he looked at Sam.

"Yeah." Sam said nodding his head.

"How'd I ditch it?"

"You got me. Dean, you really don't remember anything?" Sam asked looking at Dean in concern.

Dean shook his head. "No. Except this pit in my stomach. Sam, something's wrong."

There was a knock on the door causing the three young hunters to turn their heads to see John hovering in the doorway.

"How are you feeling, dude?" John asked as he came into the room.

"Fine, I guess. I'm alive."

"That's what matters." John said offering his eldest son a small smile.

"Where were you last night?" Sam said his tone harsh. "Andi spent most of the night looking for you since you had disappeared."

"I had some things to take care of."

"That's real specific John." Andi said in a huff looking at him agitated that he had done this.

"Come on, guys." Dean said looking at them. He couldn't understand why Andi and Sam were having such issues with John wandering off. It was normal for John to wander off.

"Did you go after the demon?" Sam questioned wanting to make sure that his father didn't go after the demon.

"No." John said shaking his head.

Andi swallowed the lump in her throat looking at John. She really didn't believe what John was saying.

"You know, why I don't believe you right now?" Sam said looking at his father having the worst feeling that his father had done something.

"Can we not fight? You know half the time we're fighting. I don't know what we're fighting about. We're just butting heads, Sammy. I, I've made some mistakes. But I've always done the best I could. I just don't want to fight anymore, okay?"

Sam looked at his father with wide eyes. "Dad, are you alright?"

"Yeah. Yeah, I'm just a little , son, would you, uh, would you mind getting me a cup of caffeine with Andi?"

Sam let out a soft breath. "Yeah. Yeah, sure." He looked at Andi. "Come on." He said softly.

Andi nodded her head. "Alright." She said following Sam out of the room.

"There's something going on that he doesn't want me to know." Sam said softly as he walked with Andi.

Andi let out a soft breath following him. "You think that he's done something?"

"I don't know." He said softly.

SPNSPN

Sam stood in the doorway of the room that he and Andi had found John in and now they were trying to save him.

Andi stood behind Dean and Sam with her lips pursed together knowing that this was bad.

The nurse tried to push them out of the room. "No, no, no, it's our dad. It's our dad!" Dean said pleading with the nurse. "Come on."

"Okay stop compressions."

"Come on, come on." Dean said brokenly pleading for his father to come back.

"Still no pulse."

"Okay that's it everybody. I'll call it. Time of death. 10:41 AM."

Andi looked at Sam and Dean with a sad look. She knew that they were going to be taking this hard. She had lost her father and she could understand how the brothers felt since she had no father. She had no idea what to say to them. She didn't think anything that she would say would calm them down any after losing the man that had been in their lives for as long as they had been.

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This is the end of Chapter 1 of I'm No Good. Please leave a review to let me know what you think. I hope that I'll have the next chapter up soon. If there is anything that you would like to see in future chapters please let me know. Any ideas will help spark new ideas. I know that this chapter was a bit generic I know some of you are still wondering who M is. I promise that it will be revealed at some point of who he is besides Andi's ex-boyfriend. Until next time.