Author's Note

Hey! This is my first Divergent fanfiction, so please bear with me. I wrote most of this when I was in creative writing class at PCC (the coolest place ever). I figured that I might as well post it and see what you guys think. Well… here I go!

*NOTE: I don't own Divergent or any of the characters in it, Veronica Roth does*

TRIS POV

"Tris? Are you alright?" Tobias's deep voice resonated in my head as I sat up. I was shaking from my dream and all I could see was Will's dead body. It was slumped on the road, completely dead. I had shot him. I had shot my best friend's boyfriend. I shot my own friend. I stifled a sob and looked up at Tobias, once known as Four. He had four fears in his landscape, so it made sense.

"I'm fine," I muttered as I rubbed the sleep from my eyes. This is why I couldn't be in Candor, I lie too easily. It had been three months since the war against Erudite. Christina had forgiven me for shooting Will, yet I was still a wreck. All I saw in my dreams was Will's slumped body. I squeezed my eyes shut, trying to erase the image.

"Clearly you're not," Tobias spoke and grabbed my hand. The touch sent an electric charge up and down my spine even though we had been dating for more than four months. The Abnegation part of me always had me nervous about physical contact; I was brought up being against it.

"No, really," I tightened my grip on his hand; "I'm fine," I then looked into his eyes and immediately saw it as a mistake. The blue in his eyes enveloped me. I could stare at those eyes for years and still not get over them. I sighed, how would I be able to lie to him now, after the war.

"Fine. You don't seem-" Tobias was cut off by me, sobbing hysterically. This seemed to have startled him, but immediately he composed himself and pulled me into him, my head resting against his chest. I could not lie to him.

"Will," I gasped between sobs. I buried my face further into Tobias's chest and continued to sob. He methodically stroked my hair. We sat like this for a few minutes before he pulled away.

"Tris," Tobias tried to look me in the eyes, but I looked away. "Tris. It's not your fault what happened to Will. He was under a simulation. Christina forgives you, everything is all right. We should go to breakfast, are you ready to go?" he looked at me and I slowly nodded. I wiped my eyes, sniffled, and then walked into the bathroom to get ready for the day. I jumped in the shower and got into black jeans, a black tank top, and black combat boots. I applied as little make-up as I could without Christina scolding me and threw my hair up into a ponytail. I walked out of the bathroom and saw Tobias standing with his back to me, shirtless. I almost gasped out of awe as I saw every muscle in his back move as he threw a shirt on. When he turned around, I hoped that I wasn't blushing, like I usually did.

"Ready?" Tobias was half-smirking at me. I must have been blushing pretty bad to get him to look like that. I stared up at his hair. It was sticking out at odd ends. I couldn't help but laugh.

"Yes, but you're not," I threw my hairbrush at him. He gave me a fake scowl and brushed his hair. When he finished, he took my hand and we walked down to the cafeteria together. When we got there, Tobias grabbed each of us a muffin and we sat down at our usual table. Everyone was there. Except Will. He would never be there again. I held back tears and sat down in between Tobias and Christina.

"Trissy!" Chris squealed as she hugged me. Why was she so chirpy?

"Hey, Chris," I mumbled. I shoved some muffin into my mouth and began to chew slowly.

"How was your night?" Chris waggled her eyebrows. Was she drunk?

"I was at a meeting to fix our city, how do you think it went?" I spoke a little too sharply, "Sorry, didn't mean to sound so mean when I said that. You drunk, Chris? Is it because of Will?" Slowly Christina calmed down and a sad look was replaced in her wild eyes.

"I miss him," Chris whimpered. She began to cry that broke into a sob. She embraced me once more and I held onto her tightly, afraid to let go. She wiped her eyes and looked at me. She held my gaze for only a half second before she began eating again. She was much more serious, and I didn't think that was a good thing. I sighed and shoved more of the muffin into my mouth.

"Chris, will you be okay?" I asked tentatively as she slowly began to finish eating.

"Yes," she said as she rose and walked out of the dining area. She was rubbing her eyes.

"I'll watch her," Uriah said from across the table. I nodded my head and he stood up and walked out of the room. A couple minutes later, I got up and left the cafeteria as well. I knew very well that I had left Tobias there, but he would know where to find me so I didn't need to worry myself.

I walked quickly to the usual spot for Tobias and me. It was a little right next to the Chasm. When I sat down, waves of water leaped up and soaked my ankles with a chilling ferocity. I slumped forward and let the water hit my face. I should have been scared, but I wasn't.

I sat there relaxed for a minute before Christiana entered my mind. I saw her sobbing over Will's death, screaming out of anger, and her being stone cold silent. It's because of me. I squeezed my eyes shut for the hundredth time and began to cry. I pulled myself up a little as a sob wracked my body. I looked down at the pointed rocks below. It would be easy, Al did it. I moved up a little so I was just barely sitting on the ledge. I let one arm go of the edge and I fell forward. The only thing keeping me from certain death was one hand, knuckles white, clinging to the edge.

"I'm done," I spoke so softly I could barely hear myself. Just as I was about to let go, a hand grasped my wrist with such strength that even I was surprised.

"What are you doing, Tris?" It was Tobias. I ducked my head and avoided eye contact. I was partially angry and partially relieved that he saved me. I had turned into a wreck.

"Nothing," I spoke. My head was still down. He pulled me up and had me standing on the ledge. His hands were gripping my forearms tightly.

"Nothing? Nothing! How is this nothing? Tris, you almost died. You almost committed suicide, Tris!" he had released his grip on my arms and I rubbed my wrists and hands. His own hands were shaking. His voice had risen to a yell when he talked to me. Abruptly, he grabbed me by the waist and pulled me up and over his shoulder. He turned and began walking to his apartment. He threw open the door and walked in. He walked into his bedroom and put me on the bed and then left the room. A minute later he returned. In his hands were two pairs of handcuffs. He attached one part to my wrist and the other to the bed post. He repeated the same process to my other wrist. When he finished, he sighed deeply and began to leave the room.

"Where are you going, Four?" I spat out his nickname like it was full of venom. I knew he didn't like me using it when we weren't in public.

"To get help because clearly, Tris, you need it," Tobias turned on his heel and strode out of the room. I stared at the door he exited from and began to scream. I pulled on the handcuffs until my wrists were cut and up and red hot blood began to stream down my arm. I relaxed when I felt the intense pain. My whole body slouched down and I sat in silence until Tobias would be back. After ten minutes, I fell asleep.

Well, there's the first chapter! Sorry if it was really short. Let me know what you think and ill put up another chapter. I have more written, but I want to see what you guys think about it before I put more up.

Thanks!

~LegendofZelda64