He Never Died
Flames all around me, touching my skin, burning my skin, my tears never ending, my screams useless, No help is to come to me. Death, suppose to be peaceful and easy, this isn't. This is hell as I die. Is everything I know a lie? Did I ever actually live a day in my life? Is there such a thing as 'life' and 'death'? God is suppose to be kind and love all, then why do some of the innocent die in such a way that you can't sleep at night? I know I'm not innocent but being burn alive? I thought that she would die this way, not me.
I shot up from my sleep, my crimson hair a mess and in my face. Another nightmare of my death. I know for sure that I'm going to die this way. How was I sure? Because all of us, the Black Knights, been having dreams of our deaths. There's no way that can be normal. I look over to my clock; 7:10am. Shit! I'm going to be late for college.
After my shower, I changed into my uniform; it's a gray shirt with a black sweater over top, a red tie, a crimson skirt, crimson thigh high socks and shoe of your choice; black converses. I wore the gray shirt untuck in and the sleeves of the shirt and the sweater rolled up above my elbow.
"Kallen," My mother called, "Hurry up or you're going to be late!"
I ran out of my room with my hair spiky as usual. "I think I need a new alarm." I said then grabbed some toast and kissed my mom on the cheek. "Bye Mom! See ya later" I said then left the house.
As I ran to school, I remember my dream. It all started the night of when the 99th Emperor died, Lelouch Vi Britannia died, Zero died, Lelouch Lamperouge died.
But the odd thing is, no one remember Lelouch Lamperouge or what the 99th Emperor looked like. I've asked all of the Black Knights, none of them remember. It makes me feel alone, I wonder if it all was a dream about Lelouch. I wonder if Suzaku remembers. He and Lelouch were best friends, I'm sure that he will. I'll just ask him the next time he's in class.
He had returned to Japan after he and Nunnally came back from the Home Land. We are still known as Area 11 but we have more freedom now.
"Yo, Stadtfeld!" One of my classmates called out to me. I looked over to them and watched them run up to me. I have no clue who is this guy.
That's another thing. Ever since the death of Lelouch, or should I say the 99th Emperor that no one knows the face of, died; I had to go by Kallen Stadtfeld for me not to be arrested. I have been watched ever since that day, as like all of the other members of the Black Knights. Two years of having someone watch me, finally no more of that.
Even though I'm not being watched anymore, I'm not allowed to use my Japanese name. If I do, I get throw into jail for an act of terrorism.
"Thanks for waitin' up." He said and let out a few pants. Really? That got him worked up? Wussy.
"No problem, is there something you want? If not, I'll be going to class." I said and turn away from him. I really didn't want to be late for my class.
"Yeah well …. Um … I was wondering …. Uh you …. Would …. Uh …" That's all he said but I knew it was a way to ask me out. Really I don't believe it. Yeah he has guts for trying to ask me out but at least could he put it in an actual sentence?
I sighed and broke it to the guy that I don't want to have a boyfriend and left for class.
I had just barely made it. The bell rang right when I got to my seat. Seem kinda pointless though, the teacher was late.
I heard someone laugh. "Just barely made it today, eh Kallen?" Said a familiar voice.
I turned around and saw it was Suzaku! I jump up out of my seat and gave him a hug. We have become really close over the past two years. "Suzaku! You're back!!" I said.
He hugged me back. "Yeah I'm back but where is the rest of the class? Today is Wednesday, isn't it?" He asked me.
I looked around the class and saw that nobody was here. I then hit my hand to my forehead. "I can't believe I forgot Sensei cancel class starting today due to his wife being pregnant and is going to have her baby soon! Man! I could have slept in!!" I yelled.
Suzaku just laughed and looked towards the door. "Well then let's go get some breakfast then? Knowing you, you probably didn't have a sit down meal." He said and started to leave the classroom.
I followed him. "Yeah! Neither did you, you're too busy. Which reminds me, why do you go to College when you already have a job with the Military?" I asked him.
He didn't answer me till we got outside. "I promised him I'll watch over everyone until he returns." He said in a whisper, I just barely heard.
I'm still not sure if I heard him correctly. "Until who returns?" I asked him, no answer. I looked into Suzaku's green eyes. "You … don't mean … Lelouch ….?" I said slowly. My voice filled with sorrow and sadness.
I then felt him grab my wrist and drag me to a nearby café. Nobody went to here, at least anyone from school.
Once we were seated, Suzaku talked. "How much do you remember?" Suzaku asked me. I looked up to him.
So Suzaku remembers too! This is great! "I remember everything. I wonder why no one else in the Black Knights remember." I said in a low voice. I looked around this café. I don't think I've ever been here before.
"I think I know why." Suzaku started, "I believe only people that had strong feeling for Lelouch remember everything. I mean other then Nunnally, you're the only person I know that remembers everything." His voice was normal, not trying to hide it at all.
I looked around again, nobody cared what two students were talking about. "Nunnally remembers because Lelouch is her older brother. And you remember because …..?" I said so he could finish.
Suzaku sighed. "He is my best friend. So the question is, how could you remember?" He asked.
How come I remember? He and Nunnally remember because of their strong feelings for Lelouch. "I …. I …." I couldn't say it. There's too many people around.
Suzaku stood up and started walking, I followed. Everyone was staring. I mean, we did just come in and didn't order anything. But that's not what's really on my mind.
After a few minutes, we were at the park, no one else was here. Suzaku turn around to face me. "What do you feel for Lelouch?" He asked.
Didn't he get it! I mean why else would I remember! I'm not related to him and I'm not his best friend! It only leaves one thing! W-why does he want me to say it out loud! Can't I just go on with my life pretending that I don't remember?!
Wait a second! It's not like that! I've never admitted that I have strong feeling for Lelouch! Never so don't go getting any ideas!
"I ... I was his personal guard. Once he 'died' I didn't have a job anymore. Most of the time, I was protecting him. So I guess that's why I remember otherwise a huge part of my life would be missing from my memories." I half lied. I mean. What I said is true but … I do have feeling for Lelouch. I have very strong feelings for him.
Suzaku believed me but he knew there was something more. Damn him.
"Kallen, there's something more. You're feelings, how strong are they for him?" Suzaku asked.
Man I really feel like punching him in the face right now.
"Suzaku, she spoke the truth and honestly, I don't feel like hiding anymore." A deep voice said. The voice was deeper then Suzaku's. A voice I knew for sure. I turned around and saw him. The man everyone thought to be dead, well not really. More like the man that everyone has forgotten.
"L-Lelouch?" I questioned. Damn it! Why did my voice come out so weak like that?!
As I looked at Lelouch, I noticed some things. Like his hair has gotten a little longer and a little messier. He had gotten a little taller since last time too.
"Who else did you want to see, Kallen?" He said. Damn him and his deep voice, making me melt. Wait! I can't be feeling this way!
"Hn, you could be nicer y'know?" I said and turned away. There's no way I could be falling for him. I heard Suzaku laugh at my childish action. I don't care, I'm going to win!
"Y'know, Kallen if we don't start heading back soon, we're going to be late." Suzaku said thru his laugh.
I quickly turned around and started running. "THANKS A LOT YOU JERK! GEEZ SUZAKU, I THOUGHT YOU WERE NICER THEN THAT! HURRY YOUR ASS UP!" I yelled back to him.
Suzaku laughed and easily caught up to me. "I couldn't help it, Kallen. I thought you would like to see Lelouch again." Suzaku said then stepped in front of me. I ran into his chest and fell back, I think?
I'm sure I fell back but I didn't land on the ground. What are these? Arms! I look up and see Lelouch's face.
Blood rushed to my face. "Think you could skip today to catch up with an old friend?" Lelouch asked me as he brought me up to a standing position.
I saw that Suzaku had left already. He must have planned this. "Sure." I said shyly. How can he do that to me?!
Lelouch smiled and walked away with me following. I don't know why, but I have a feeling that I'm going to be thanking Suzaku after this.
A/N: Yeah! It's finally done! My first ever KaLulu fanfic! The funny thing is, I got inspired by a nightmare I had to write this. (Queue the beginning ^^") I hoped you enjoyed it! Please review! It helps me make more!
Kallen: Review or I'll kick your ass!*gets in Guren*
Lelouch: *Uses Geass* I command you to Review.
Me: Awe! You two are so nice! Now!
Lelouch & Kallen: Kage-chan does not own Code Geass or any of its characters, they belong to CLAMP