I was working on a Kingdom Heart story when this suddenly came to me and I have to write it for kames! I don't care what the readers want! I want Kames! Anyways I probably won't be able to write anything else except for my cargan story which I have a crave to type up now… so I'm going to get on with this story so I can get to work on that story….

Disclaimer- sadly I don't own Big time rush. But these words are my own, from my heart flow~ (okay I don't own that song either…)

James P.O.V

'Does Kendall actually want to be friends with me?' This is one of those thoughts that never could leave my head. To me all it seems like is that he puts up with me for the sake to hang out with Logan, who was my best friend since before birth meaning if you want one you get the other.

Once I told Carlos how I didn't think Kendall quite liked having me around and he laughed at me and asked why I would think anything so crazy. He even added a comment that he wouldn't think of something that crazy. I would've told him my suspicions, but they're my thoughts and I didn't want to get laughed at again so I shrugged him off at the time. Honestly though, I had some pretty good evidence to support my theory! (Ha, theory and support- Logan's been rubbing off on me)

Okay case numbuh one! This one is actually just something since the beginning of time- or at least our 'friendship'. Ever since we met Kendall took every chance he could to friendly (fake friendly) tease me. This would actually included things an everyday bully would do from the insulting words to doing things that would definitely piss me off!

Honestly though I just took it as him being jealous or things some friends did, but those were just lies I was telling myself. I knew that I liked and wanted Kendall to be my friends so it would make sense that I'd create excuses to try and have us be friends.

Case number two, was during the small seasons of Hockey before L.A. Kendall was undoubtedly the team captain and he got along with everyone when needed. During games he did what was needed to win and to be named top player of the season.

I guess he'd actually risk his title of top player just to show how much he disliked me. It was the second game of the season; we were going against a really good team, the score at an all time low of 7-7. There wasn't much time to win the game- the puck was on our side and was being passed like crazy to make it to the opposing side's goal. Kendall had the puck- there were three options: try to make it solo and look like an attention whore (no), pass it to James who had a clear shot (no), or make it look like you were thinking while the other team slammed you and stole the puck (we have a winning option!). Yep, we lost the game and the coach had let it slide as Kendall didn't see me (despite that he had looked straight in my direction!)

Case three! And might I add one of the most hurtful moments in our history as frienemies. This was a very recent event of about two months; Carlos, Logan, Katie, and Ms. Knight were all out getting groceries. Kendall had been on a date with his (ex) girlfriend, Jo, but apparently something went wrong having Kendizzle come home early.

Of course he wasn't expected to be home for another two hours so I couldn't help it when I asked what happened. Even if he was mad I was expecting a response but nope! He blew me off as if I didn't say anything! Instead he 'retreated' to his and Logan's shared room. I followed like a concerned little James and ended up getting told in a very mean and harsh voice "James if something was wrong I wouldn't tell you."

Yep tell me that spells friendship! Trust me I could go on for hours about more moments, but apparently I had successfully wasted an hour already making it dinner time. "Jamez," It was Logan who said this. After I told the group about the name I was almost forced to use when I was with Hawk they used it often teasingly. Not Kendall teasing but lovingly teasing. "It's dinner time- we're having Pizza tonight. You might want to hurry before Carlos eats it all." He joked, with good intentions.

I nodded and added a classic James Diamond smile that could make the girls swoon by the thousands. Of course it didn't make anyone it 2J swoon, but it was still a signature smile that could easily hide any previous emotions I felt.

I didn't waste much time getting food, because it's true, if you leave Carlos alone with the food it'll be gone. I can't say that the same hasn't been told about me before though… but that's beside the point. Pizza also meant movie night, and actually eating on the couch. Usually it was a rule of mama Knight's that we weren't usually allowed to eat while on the couch (popcorn and certain candies being a exception) eventually though we had a movie night which was just us boys, movies, and a bunch of junk food!

"What movie are we watching?" I asked after getting my food and soda put in a spill proof container.

"We got down to When in Rome," I prevented from laughing at the mention of the movie for some odd reason Carlos and Logan have really been wanting to see that movie, I was indifferent, and Kendall made it clear didn't want to see it. "Crazy eight," a scary movie- casting my vote of a 'no' "and Rio"

"I'm up for the animated birds." I said. Logan and Kendall shared a knowing look, that I could get nothing from other than a feel that they made an assumption and it was right.

"We figured you would say that. It's actually the only reason it made it into the top three." Kendall confessed. So they knew I was going to pick the family friendly movie that wasn't a complete chick flick nor would scare me to death? Yah I would be able to guess that too.

"Fine when in Rome," I said. It was a pretty know secret (making it not really a secret) that I was scared shitless from horror movies. Usually we never picked scary movies to watch but I guess the guys were craving a horror movie.

"So now it's a two v.s. two vote." Carlos said, what did he mean two on two? "Me and Kendall want to watch crazy eights and then Logan and you wanna watch When in Rome."

"Oh c'mon Carlos! It's no secret that you want to see When in Rome also!" I ranted. Carlos then shot back a reply of "but I want to watch something scary for once!"

After about a minute of bickering between me and Carlos we were interrupted by a very smart Loganator. "How about we watch both? The scary movie first and then When in Rome after to give things a happier feel, and just in case someone is still scared from the movie-"

Logan was cut off by Kendall not so casually coughing my name "James" Carlos only laughing in encouragement. Logan gave a short glare at the two before continuing.

"We can all sleep and Kendall's and mine room tonight." We all agreed it was a good plan, even though I did have my doubts, and with that the two movie marathon began!

So this is now like a two chapter (maybe more… IDK) chapter story. I really want to get things moving but I'm having some troubles. Hay by the way this doesn't seem very kames-ish does it? Ha, we might get there. : ) Then again I won't know until I'm done with the story.

BTW Crazy Eights is a pretty good horror movie I saw it on Netflix and watched it… only recently have I been able to lay in bed not thinking about it. Then again I'm a wimp when it comes to horror movies (at the same time I love to watch them!)

Review please! And there are some grammar mistakes on purpose because I was putting it as if someone was actually talking or thinking it. And yah random nicknames for the guys too… honestly though if you think about it if James was thinking he wouldn't say 'the raven haired boy then' so that explains the lack of description in it….