Sitting down at the edge of his bed, he was hunched over, a bottle of wine in his hands. Pain was rippling through his chest as he thought about the one he loved the most.
He was alone, again.
Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away
He watched as his lover walked from him, tears of pain falling from his eyes and down his soft cheeks.
"Arren, I'm so sorry..." He whispered in a drunken haze.
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry
Kanda looked at the bottle of wine in his hands and took a swig, tears flowing him his face as he tilted his head. He was so wrapped up in his own problems, that he did not notice that Allen was in pain and crying out for his was so fucking stupid, he...he should have been there...like he promised... He was a liar. He promised Allen that no matter what he would be there for him. But he failed as a lover, a friend. He let Allen suffer, because he would not...he would give him the time of day to explain. It was all just a mistake.
Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way
Gasping out a sob, he felt the tears flow down, he tried to stop them, but they just continued to fall.
"Stop...no...stop..." He pleaded out as he clenched his teeth, his eyes tightly closed. He opened his mouth and let out pitiful cries.
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry
Curling up he screamed painfully, his heart ached, unlike all those other time. He was breaking, he screamed for all it was worth, his heart had shattered and he had no one to blame but himself. Slowly his screams dimmed to nothing all that was left was a broken mess on the bed, eyes open and broken. Not a light left in them.
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with this pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry
Tears fell from those broken eyes, and onto the bed. He was no longer the man who prided himself on not showing his emotions, he was nothing more more than a shell of who he use to be.
All because he would not listen to him, he was to prideful, he thought he knew, but he knew nothing, not a damn thing.
Tonight he wanted to cry.