Authors note: this is a gwox /gwthan/ therox/therthan story. It is my first attempt at anything other than a Kay fic, so be gentle. I hope you enjoy it and the formatting of it. I will start with each characters point of view.

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Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters of Passions. They belong to NBC. But if I had my choice I would own Fox and Luis and Miguel. LOL. Sorry couldn't resist.

That's the way it is

Author: Cry me a river

Chapter 1

Gwen

Up until a few days ago, I was the happiest woman on earth. I had finally proved to Theresa once and for all that Ethan loved me more. Or at least I hoped he did. We have been married one week and he still seems to love her. But I am the one with the ring, his last name, and his child.

Of course, deep down inside I think Theresa may be right. Maybe Ethan did marry me because I was pregnant. But I wasn't worried at first. Even if it was true, I was his wife and in time I would make him love me more.

But, sometimes things change. I can almost hear Theresa sputtering about fate. And maybe the little twit is right. It was or is fate. I know you think you know me.

Everyone thinks I am Gwen, Ethan's high school sweet heart. The woman who was ever faithful to him. And I was his high school sweetheart. But I haven't always been faithful to him.

I am sure that shocks you but its true. I cheated on Ethan with his brother. Now to my defense I didn't know in the beginning Fox was Ethan's brother. By the time Ethan and I became an item, Fox was already in boarding school.

So in college, when I met this incredible guy, I had no clue he would in any way be related to Ethan. I knew they had the same last name, but I never connected them to each other.

Four years of bliss is what I had. I never intended to get with Fox but after many study sessions I fell for him. He was so handsome at 6'2 with his spiky blond hair and cobalt blue eyes. And, he was definitely a charmer.

We loved each other very much and wanted to get married. But, of course my mother put an end to that. She knew who Fox was. But she never admitted it. She convinced me I just needed to prove I wanted to be with Ethan. It was like she brainwashed me, because soon I believed it too.

I broke up with Fox, graduated and returned to Ethan. I tried to fill the void with Ethan and for a while it worked. But he became involved with that...that...Theresa. At first I fought for him because I thought I loved him. But then it became a revenge issue.

After a while fox became a special memory. One that only came up when Ethan and I fought. And when we planned our wedding I figured that memory would disappear forever. And maybe it would have.

But fate or whatever it was interfered. Theresa's screams awoke me and nearly everyone else in the Crane mansion. And finally I found out what the fuss was. Fox was in her bedroom, and so was Ethan and they had been fighting.

I could only stare at him as he complimented Theresa on her beauty and greeted his parents and Ethan. All those feelings came rushing back to me and I had to try very hard to conceal them. Fox was Ethan's brother. I was beyond shocked. More than that I was hurt that he never seemed to notice me.

Damn that Theresa, did she have to get Fox's attention too? I lay her in bed at three in the morning, beside my husband, thinking of my love for his brother. Man, I think, My life could be a soap opera!

A/N: Well what do you think so far? Should I continue?