Another Life
Chapter 1 ~ Left Behind & Pregnant
Bella's POV
He left me. He didn't want me. He didn't love. I was just a distraction for him. He never loved me. He just left. How can he do that to me? I love him. I want him. I need him. He is my life. He is everything to me. I couldn't even say HIS name. But I will never get him again.
Life is just not the same as it use to be. Everything changed. I changed. Not only did I change mentally but I changed physically as well. I got a lot thinner. I never smiled. I never did anything. I just went to school and back home. That's it. Nothing else was left in my life until I found out I was pregnant.
After a week or so I started vomiting. I just thought that the vomiting was because I was sick but I was pregnant. I started to sleep more. I started eating more. I also had weird dreams about a child. Then there was a bump on my stomach. First I thought that I was gaining weight, not until, I got to know I was pregnant. My menstrual cycle wasn't on time; actually it never came after HE left. I got a little worried so I went to the doctor and that was when I found out that I was 2 months pregnant.
That could not be POSSIBLE. I mean I only had sex with HIM. HE wasn't supposed to have kids. HE was frozen. HOW THE HELL AM I PREGNANT? 2 MONTHS? I had sex with HIM before he left me – on my birthday – which is only 2 weeks ago. WHAT THE HELL?
That was when I realized that the child inside me has to be half human and half vampire because of the speed it was growing at. I didn't know what to do. I couldn't abort the child because I couldn't go to the doctor – they will find out about vampires. I didn't even want to abort because this child was the only thing that would remind me of HIM. I want this child – HIS child. I was going to give birth to HIS child no matter what.
I couldn't stay here in Forks. I didn't even tell my parents. I left Forks and went to Toronto. There I bought a small house that was away from populated area. I had to be away from population because this was a half vampire child that I had no clue how he/she would turn out.
About a month after I gave birth to a girl. Well I didn't really give birth to her; actually she made her way out of me. After she was out, I knew that I couldn't survive – not at least being a human – but my baby girl bit me.
After three day from my transformation of being a vampire, I saw my beautiful daughter. She was amazing. She had my eyes. HIS hair colour with my dad's curls. Her skin was a little hotter than humans. Her skin was a little harder than humans but softer than a vampire. I could tell that she was growing a little faster than humans – she looked about 2 weeks old when she is only 4 days old. She was smart – very smart. She has to eat human food and drink blood. She could also sleep but only for 5 to 6 hours. She was just amazing. I named her Renesmee Mary-Rose Mason also known as Ren. Renesmee is made with Renee and Esme. Mary is Alice's middle name when she was a human. Rose is well Rosalie's nickname. Mason is Edward's last name when he was a human.
She and I both have powers. Ren could cause you physical and mental pain. Something like what Jane does in the Volturi but more powerful. She could also change herself and things into anything she wants. Something like a shape shifter. She can also tell you what she is thinking by touching you. I am a mental shield, physical shield, and I could read minds but I can turn it off. My mental shield helps me when anyone tries to get something from my head, they can't, like read my mind. My physical shield helps me when I need to protect myself and anyone else, I can spread the shield very far.
We stay in Canada for three years. Everything changed about my life again. I found happiness with my daughter but there was a part of my heart that was missing. This part only belongs to the Cullens and HIM. My life was better but it was incomplete. I missed them – HIM – so much. I needed them – HIM – so much. I want to be with them – HIM – so much. But I couldn't. My life was just incomplete.