-1WHAT HURTS THE MOST………

Chapter 1: Saying goodbye.

She was leaving. Why? What's wrong with New York? Danny let these thoughts go through his head for the passed two weeks after Lindsay had told Mac and the gang that she needed to go back to Montana for awhile, a vacation, she called it. She said she would only be gone for a couple of weeks. Mac gave it to her because she had a lot of vacation time building up. Danny sat puzzled in his apartment. It started raining. What could he have done to make Lindsay leave New York? She said she was going to come back, but was she telling them the truth. Or was she just saying that to reassure them. Danny sat on the couch with his guitar. He would make up lyrics when he was thinking or bored. Sometimes he would just sing songs that he loved and would describe him at that point in time. His voice was calming and he sang very well.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don't bother me

I can take a few tear now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry everyone once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok

But that's not what gets me

Danny stopped playing. He let his head fall, as tears came from his eyes. He put his hand to his forehead and let his fingers hid his eyes, while capturing the tears. The sobbing continued until he heard someone knocking at the door. He took a few deep breathes and walked to the door. Before he opened the door, he wiped away the tears on his face. He knew his eyes were probably bloodshot red, so he kept his head pointing a little down as he check who was at the door.

He cleared his throat before he spoke.

"Hey, Montana. Come on in."

Danny step aside to let her walked pass him, which she did many times before.

(he's not singing)

What hurts the most was being so close

And having so much to say and watching you walk away

And never knowing what could have been

And not seeing that loving you is what I was trying to do

He showed her to the couch and let her sit down. She didn't look him in the eye. Danny sat down next to her. He reached out and held her hands in his. That's when she started crying. Danny pulled Lindsay close to him, while she cried into his chest.

"Linds, you know whatever is wrong, you can talk to me about it."

Lindsay pulled away from Danny. This time she looked into his eyes. Hers were red.

"I need to go back to Montana. There are some things I need to work out. I know you already know that, but I wanted to tell you that I'll miss you. I know I've asked you to wait for a long time. I know this is asking a lot, but can you wait until I come back."

Danny took her hand in his, again. She lifted her head after she had let if fall again. He looked her in the eye and gave her a warm smile.

"I will."

Danny leaned forward and allowed his lips to brush against hers. Lindsay sat still and allowed him to kiss her. They pulled apart quickly. Lindsay gave him a smile. Lindsay got up and walked to the front door as Danny opened it for her.

"I'll be here when you get back," Danny said as Lindsay left. Danny could see tears falling. After she was gone, Danny walked over to the couch and pulled out his guitar. He remembered where he left off. As he sang, tears, too, fell from his eyes.

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I'm doin' it.

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone. Still harder.

Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart. That I left unspoken.

TBC………………………………...

Please review. I will love whatever you have to say. Just nothing rude. I will take constructive criticism. Plus, I don't own CSI:NY or what hurts the most. CBS and Rascal Flatts do. I don't. Hope you enjoyed it. Next chap. Will be up soon.