Betrayal
(Lacus' Point of View)
Lacus is caught between two people who love her, Athrun and Kira. Time passes as the girl slowly makes up her mind. However, she does not know what to do with the other person she has to say no to. Should she tell him right away, or act as if nothing has happened? Lacus is lost in a world of confusion. Nothing will turn out as she would have planned.
Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company
(sigh) Everything is changing around me. There are so many emotions that surround me. How is it possible? I feel like my heart is stretched to two different people, Athrun (my current boyfriend) and Kira (Cagalli's kind, polite, and caring brother).
Now I cannot make up my mind. One part says I should stay with Athrun because I have already committed to him. However, a larger part of me wants to move and be with Kira. Now under a lot of thought and pressure, I cannot seem to place a smile on my face.
When Athrun embraces me, it only makes me want to cry. He asked why a several times, but that only led to my lies saying how happy I was. I don't think that he believed me.
He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true
Then there is Kira. Kira is always around when I was sad or hurt or even alone. Whenever I felt like I couldn't make it anymore, he was always there, giving me his hand to pull me up. I felt safe and protected with him. Can it be? Do I really love Kira over Athrun?
And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
After a few days, I started hanging out with Kira more and giving excuses of leaving Athrun. I know that this is wrong of me. I love him, right? But I know he must be in more pain than I. I can see it in his deep emerald eyes, which have becoming to dull and fade away.
Does he already know that my love is for another person? Does he notice my eyes gleam with betrayal? Is that why he is pained to see me go away?
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
All I have been is selfish. My love reaches out to two men, both whom equally love me. When I told Athrun that I loved him, I would have never predicted I would fall in love with Kira. Now I am selfish enough to just let go of Athrun without proper reason and leave with Kira.
I know that Athrun now must be breaking inside. His strong heart had crumbled knowing that I am slowly drifting apart from him. He is just dying, dying of a broken heart.
I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well
Yes, I am on another date with Kira. Athrun is more suspicious now, but even more sad. The dullness of his eyes is replaced by feelings of sorrow, pain, and betrayal. As I leave, he gives me a small peck on the cheek and asks when I would return
There's always a pause. I never say anything, because he understands where I am going.
Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
Athrun has found out my interactions with Kira. There's no doubt about it. But I still wonder. Why hasn't he left me yet, knowing that I only cause him pain now? He can't still love me for what I have done.
I don't wanna do this anymore Our love, his trust
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Athrun knows what I have been up to. At times he would hold me in his arms and whisper 'I love you,' into my ears. Tears were my only response. Then, he would let go.
I should do it right now, to tell him we must move on. Wouldn't that ease the pain?
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
I finally told Athrun my feelings for him and to Kira. Athrun then let out a few tears. I have never seen him cry before. Giving him one last hug and a peck on his cheek, I left knowing that my life would be different.
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whew….There might be another chapter about Athrun's point of view. I'll be lookin for a good song.
Well, I hope you like this one about Lacus. She might be a little out of character.
Anyways, bye. I hope to update soon.