He was tired
He tried so hard to keep going
So deep in his soul
But then he had a thought
He wanted it to stop
Because
So he had an idea
In the end
Soon, he would rest
It doesn't even matter
He was scared
He started scaring others
They never went away
His fears, or theirs
He didn't want to be a hero
That dream left long ago
He just wanted to stop being the villain
If people could change, why couldn't he?
He couldn't edit the narrative
What was done, was done
But he could write himself out of it
Villains always fell in the end
He missed her
She feared him
He loved her
She despised him
He wanted to save her
He was her worst enemy
So he would
Goodbye Zoe
He didn't mean to hurt them
That's all he seemed to do
But he didn't want to hurt
That's all they ever did
He didn't know what he felt
Love, fear, hate, pain
Would they even miss him?
Would they finally understand?
He didn't mean to lash out
It's not your fault
He knew the kid was innocent
I need help
But then he found the letter
But don't worry
And he made a choice
I'll be going soon
So he walked away
It'll be okay
He wouldn't hurt innocents anymore
Forgive me, Evan Hansen
They found him in the park
He never thought they'd come looking
They found the empty bottle
He knew no one would notice it missing
They found the blood and vomit
He expected the pain, that was okay
They found the tears and scars
He no longer had to hide them
They found a note in his pocket
He knew it wasn't fair, but it was too late for that
They found his final words
His scrawled handwriting printed a single "Sorry" on the page
They found the end
He found peace
A/N: WELP. Guess who fucked up their post. Whoops. Thankfully someone pointed it out, so hopefully it works this time.
Cross-posted on AO3