What Rose Saw
Ok, so yes, this is somewhat shamelessly ripped from Adele's "Someone Like You", while not exactly a songfic, the song did give me the idea. Let's imagine that when Rose was taken into 'Pete's World' she was still linked mentally to the TARDIS, to The Doctor. What would she think about what she saw happening over time, without any context?
Rose woke up with a start. It was the day after she said goodbye to The Doctor at Bad Wolf Bay, and she had the strangest dream. She saw him standing in the TARDIS, with tears in his eyes. That part wasn't entirely strange, because that's the last sight she had of him that awful day.
What was strange was what happened next in the dream. All of a sudden, this woman appeared. A woman who was ginger (Rose knew how he felt about gingers). A woman in a wedding dress.
A bride….. Why would she see that? Why would her brain and broken heart torture her like that? Was it a sign that he already found someone new? That he had settled down somehow? Rose had always thought that maybe one day, maybe he would see her that way. That maybe they would have some sort of ceremony binding them. She didn't care if it was a traditional Gallifrey ceremony or just a quick "I do" in front of a judge (although she knew her mum would have a fit about that). She had hoped that maybe, after one of those near misses, when they hugged after a narrow escape, that he might just pull her in for a kiss, starting slow, but then deepening, reflecting the love and passion she felt. And then…
Rose couldn't stop the tears by this point. How was she supposed to live in this world, without him? Her life with him was amazing, and now she was stuck here, never to get back, never to see him again. Her wonderful, mad Doctor.
She looked at her clock and realized it was way too early to get up, but she wasn't sure if she wanted to go back to sleep. Rose was almost afraid that she may have another dream like the last one. She didn't know if her heart could take seeing that again. But she knew if her mum heard her moving, she'd come in and try to comfort her, and she just couldn't deal with Jackie bustling around right now. "Probably try to fix all my problems with a cup of tea." Rose thought with a smile, until it crumpled, remembering that day on the Sycorax ship, and The Doctor, newly regenerated, talking about how 'all he needed was a cup of tea'.
God, was she ever going to be able to function like a normal person again? Or was this her life now, any small thing reminding her of him and their strange but wonderful time together? And what scared her most was the fact that she didn't want to forget. Rose felt that she'd rather be miserable remembering every second of her time with The Doctor than having a semi-normal, semi-happy life while forgetting him.
With the tears drying on her face, Rose turned over, deciding to attempt sleep for a few more hours. And as she drifted, she thought of The Doctor one more time, and smiled.
Ok so it's going to be a few chapters of Rose seeing flashes of what the Doctor is doing and seeing, but with no background, it will all be very confusing to her. At least, till she finds her Doctor again…. *cue suspenseful music*
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