Warnings: This fic contains a slash theme. To those who don't know that doesn't mean slasher like a horror movie it means two men engaging in a sexual act. Hmm a couple swears here and there nothing major. Bad name calling so yeah we'll just say language. Sex. Aaaand nope that's it. I hope you will all like it. Drop me a review sometime. Lighter.

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August 21, 2005.

The sky is bright blue, the fall sun shining without heat over head. Crowded streets, packed shopping malls, and fast food restuarants serving well into their stock. But as his silver Nisan pulled into the Wendy's parking lot; the driver's attention is focused specifically on one car, and one person. He thought he was crazy when his car neared the eatery and he spotted a blue Taurus but when he glanced into the back window and spotted a pair of handcuffs choking a stuffed Heath Cliff attached to the rear view mirror, he knew the car belonged to only that one person. Robbie Ballerini. Exiting his car Rocky walks into Wendy's looking around with his glance for the male. He spots him finally at a back table, his back to the entrance, head down as he eats a box of fries. Smiling, Rocky walks over to the table reaching over the downtrotten males head to snag a french frie, cringing when he chewed it.

"Yuck. How long have you been sitting here, these things are stale." Taking a seat across from Robbie, he smiles at him when the frost eyed male lifts his head.

The brunet's expression was priceless as his look of dispair exploded into a wide grin of happiness, right before it deflated once again. "I'm having that fantasy again." Robbie says to himself. Pulling his cup over to him he lowers his mouth over the straw, sucking boredly at his drink. Glancing at the illusion he cocks a brow then removes the straw from his mouth and ponders out loud. "Although my imagination is getting creative with the clothes."

Cocking a brow, Rocky looks down at his clothes; the school uniform from the school of the mentally gifted covers his body with a royal blue high neck jacket and matching slacks, with Rocky's choice of a white t-shirt underneath since the jacket it worn closed. Its a resemblance of a Japanese school uniform. Speaking of which, the slightly risen neck on the jacket was making him hot. Sliding his arm from the jacket, he snickers seeing Robbie's suprised reaction.

"Oh so you're that fantasy." He adjusts his sitting posture like he's really going to get a show.

"Robbie snap out of it," Says the blond while draping his jacket over the seat. Tugging the front of his shirt to allow himself some air against his chest, he then scoots his chair up a bit to lean in and speak as privately to the male as he can. "I'm real."

"Rocky! You're home!" Shouts the ever mood changing male. "When did you get in? How did things go at the psychic school? Did you make any friends? Why'd you cut your hair? But I like that you changed the style." He took a pause for a breath but Rocky cut in.

"What?" The blond asks having only heard half of the rush of words. "And what was wrong with my hair?"

"Nothing," he could hardly keep the joy from his voice. "I just like that you let your bangs brush over your forehead instead of sweeping them to the side. You look great."

"Thanks."

Slapping Rocky on the hand with the back of his he presses. "So how are you? How did things go at the school?"

"It went great." The ninja shrugs. "I met a lot of nice people. There was only one other guy with the same gift as me, we shared a room and had to train with each other." Again he shrugs.

Tapping his foot on the floor, Robbie's silence is loaded as he waits for more details of what his boyfriend did while away for two and a half months. "Well?"

"Well, what?"

Gesturing elaborately with his hands and shaking head he asks. "Well, what else? Did you get along with the guy? Was he your summer love?"

Rocky blinked as he listened to that. Robbie sounded like an idiot. "Robbie... I'm not gay."

Lowering his gaze the male says. "I know, but... I just kind of was wondering." He balls up his napkin the grabs his tray and stands. "I've been here in L.A., alone, and wondering what you were doing passed the time. And let me tell you, I was not seeing happy things." He walks his food to the trash dumping it into the covered bin, then returning to the table he grabs his jacket then starts for the door.

Rocky watched him do these things then followed after his lead for the exit. Now that they're away from prying ears, he replies to the males accusations once in the car. "I'm not Sin. I don't jump every warm thing I see and I'm not gay. Why would you worry?" He cocks his head to the side to look at the males face.

Feeling heat rising to his cheeks, he replies with a knot in his stomach. "We... You know how you and me left things. You shoved me off when I wanted you to," he clears his throat as the uncomfortable feeling of what he's saying began to set in. "Be intimate with me instead of me being intimate with you."

Rocky continued to stare with an expression that asked him to continue.

"I kind of thought that... maybe you realized that what happened between you and me was too much on the fly and you've changed your mind." Robbie looks a lot like a kid thats just been mocked by his parents for drawing an ugly picture that he's really proud of.

Rocky straightened himself in his seat when Robbie started the car. He had a thoughtful look on his face but said nothing as he climbed out of the brunet's car and into his own. The silver car followed the blue one back to the college campus and the two walk in silence to their dorm room. The newbies will be coming in a week which meant Colt would soon be Rocky's roommate and Robbie will be out. Rocky's been thinking a lot about what he's left at home when going away to the special school. Three months of hard thinking and he could barely come up with a good enough answer to his many questions, hardly a thing he could do about the nagging words telling him the wrong choice would screw up his life forever, and the other choice pretty much the same nagging only it was on a more personal scale because that voice spoke about his happiness being taken away. And from the way they had left things it really was no wonder why Robbie is confused with their situation.

When in the safety of their dorm room; Robbie chose that moment to give his boyfriend a welcome home kiss. To his dismay Rocky backed away from it.

"What are you doing?" He asked carefully while taking a seat on his bed then removing his sneakers.

Seeing this it clicked into Robbie's head what was going on. "Right. You have to change first, that's really inconsiderate of me." He takes a seat on his bed. "Do you want me to turn on the shower? I didn't use all the water or anything."

Rocky cast the male a curious glance. Was he gonna brush his teeth and floss for him too? He's only been gone nearly three months, although; Rocky could understand how Robbie must feel. He'd been missing about that amount of time and it must have been driving him crazy not being able to see him or talk to him while he was in Japan. Getting up from his bed, he sits down on Robbie. Wrapping his arms around the male he hugs him close, unable to resist rubbing his cheek against the ear. Robbie gave him a tighter squeeze.

"I'm sorry you were worried but, I'm home now and I'm fine." He mumbled.

Robbie leans back from the hug and before Rocky can move he presses his lips to the ninjas. Parting his mouth for a breath before his lips made contact again between Rocky's to seperate his mouth as well. Fingers in the brunet's dark mass of waves that try to curl, Rocky rakes them through enjoying the scent of Robbie's shampoo coming out with each part. Robbie lowered his hands to Rocky's lower back the moment he heard a satisfied little moan from the ninja; he missed him more than words could describe. Turning his body, lifting his leg to bent so that he's now side ways Robbie gains further advantage in the kiss as his tongue taps on the opening and closing door of the blond's mouth. A game of tag then took place as the two boys ate kisses from one another all while watching out for the other persons tongue. Things were going smoothly until Robbie attempted to lay them down on his bed.

"Wait." He mumbled out before receiving another languid kiss. No this is wrong. "Robbie stop." He pushes the male away. "We can't do this."

Hearing the tone Rocky has taken the Canadian could tell Rocky meant more than just the kiss. "But why? I thought that we-..." He stopped speaking seeing the ninja shake his head. "What's changed? What happened?" Robbie didn't want to press the matter but he had somewhat of a right to know why his used-to-be boyfriend is giving him the brush off all of a sudden.

Sighing, he stands to put some distance between them. "From the moment I left all I could think about was getting back and starting a relationship with you and actually being really happy, but then I get there and things came in clear for me." He stops by the closet going inside to grab some clothes, when back out he continues. "This guy name Rakuta had the same gift as me and Kirimoto-sensei assigned the two of us to room together and practice with each other and from the moment I saw him I wanted him. No not just wanted, I needed him. My skin crawled at the thought of him touching me and wanting me back." Pulling his t-shirt from over his head Rocky walks into the bathroom leaving Robbie to his own conclusions.

The dark haired male was shocked for sure, but he didn't understand why Rocky was so 180 about the two of them. If this Rakuta was just a summer love than why not forget him and go back to how they intended to be? He wouldn't be hurt by it, even if the two slept together. But when Rocky returned, fishing through his suitcase he locates a shampoo and soap, toothbrush and tooth paste. Setting them on the dresser he sits down again on his bed.

"I'm sorry I'm rushing this, I'll have to better explain myself when I get back from my parents. But nothing happened between us, me and Rakuta I mean but Robbie when I talked to him he said that he was instantly attracted to me too. We were freaked out because neither of us is gay but we wanted to..." He let Robbie finish his sentence.

"But what does this have to do with us?"

Sighing, Rocky runs a frustrated hand through his hair then shrugs. "The point is I slept with you and I really, really wanted to and I thought it was a genuine feeling but to get over there and have that wash over me again I was just concerned." Seeing Robbie's uncertainty, he explains. "We spoke to Kirimoto-sensei and he said it was natural for psychic's to gravitate towards each other because our minds want to communicate. Since we as people can't understand why we think its more than that and want that person physically to dispel it."

"And you think that that's what happened between us?"

"I don't think, I know."

"But do you know? Do you really know for sure?" He sits on Rocky's bed. "Because I looked into your eyes and you didn't look past me when we were together. We were on the same page, we both wanted each other and it. How can you write it off as abilities wanting to connect."

"Because if it could happen with him it could happen with anyone and if we were together how can you relax wondering if I'm gonna cheat on you when another psychic." Lowering his gaze he adds. "Besides, Robbie you and I both know that I'm not into men. Sin may have been but I just don't feel that way."

"...Oh." Hopes dashed, Robbie swallows hard then gives a shrug. "Hey its alright. I said I wouldn't fight you and I won't. You wanna just be friends we'll be friends."

Nodding, Rocky stands with his toiletries gathered. "Thank you. And I'm sorry, I know you really wanted to be with me but I can't give you that."

Robbie held up his hands as if to say 'say no more'. And he lay back on his bed as Rocky vanished into the bathrooms safety. Life stinks.

Rocky rest his back on the bathroom door; tears fall from his dual colored eyes. He hated to lie like that, though everything he said about going to the school was true the part about him not wanting to be with Robbie was a lie. Truth was, he'd thought about them together and he was happy, but he then thought about the their after and he knew it wouldn't be good for his family if they knew and his friends would be cruel. He didn't so much care about the friends part, but he cared that some angry people would hurt Robbie thinking he corrupted him somehow, or his aunt and he's reaping the rewards. Not to mention his family will disown him or worse. And Arc is coming, he now has a kid to think about. No. Lying is better then being happy. He's been doing it for years what's the rest of his life? Shoving from the door, he drops his boxers then steps into the warm spray of water.

...

Jessica hugged her son so hard he thought his head would fly off. She then landed kisses on his face like a rain storm before backing away to get a good look at him. "You look so handsome, Rocky." It sounded as if the woman were on the verge of tears. "And you cut your hair! I love the way it looks."

"Thanks." He says then walks around her further into the living room. Taking a seat on the couch, he's greeted by his little brother slamming into him for a hug. "Hey Tum."

"Was it awesome?" Asks the younger boy.

Colt, who just came in from the kitchen throws his two cents in. "Were there girls?" He sits on the arm chair but gives his brother a welcome home slap on the knee.

"It was awesome and no there were no girls," he says to Colt. "It was an all boys school."

"Must have sucked."

Rocky shakes his head. "But I learned a lot from the school and made a couple friends. A twelve year old cut my hair. He said he's done it for his brother lots of times so he could do mine if I really wanted it gone. Ironically the kid was bald."

The three of them chuckle.

Just noticing the absence he asks. "Where's Dad?"

"Big case. He said he'll be home later though." Jessica takes a seat at Rocky's other side. "You're staying for dinner," she said without leaving her oldest boy much of a choice. "We're having your favorite."

"Thanks."

"So come on Rock'," Says Tum, his older brother still not used to his deeper tone. He'll always hear that little squeaker their brother used to be. "Show us something cool you learned." Looking about the room he points. "Make that vase float over here."

Shaking his head he stands up. "I'm not gonna do that. Tum tum the reason for going was so that I could keep it down not use it willy nilly, for any dumb reason." Heading into the kitchen he gets himself a glass of water, then comes back. "I wanna be normal, like I've always been. It'd be better if you just forgot about it."

Crossing his arms, he says smartly. "Yeah that'll be easy."

"Hey Rocky," Colt says retreaving everyone's attention. "I'm already packed I just need to move my stuff in over the weekend. So give what's-his-name a heads up."

"He already knows, he's gonna get your single."

Mouth agape, he waves his hand. "W- wait a minute, I get a single?"

"Yeah, the doubles are filled. I checked."

Thinking that over. "Well, tell him to room with another set of guys. I may wanna keep that room any way incase I meet a cute girl or two."

"Jeffrey." His mother says in a stern voice.

"Colt it doesn't work that way. You either have one or the other." Informs Rocky. "Personally, I'd take the room alone." He downs his glass of water.

"Guy's not home eight minutes and he's already back to giving orders." He stands. "Yeah, that room alone is sounding better by the second."

The three watch the male exit for the kitchen. Tum tum gave his brother another hug before dashing out of the house saying that he had a date with Paige. Colt went upstairs to study for a test leaving Rocky and his mother alone. The older boy has never felt so nervous in his mothers presence before. It was almost like she knew his secret and was just waiting to spring it on him that she does, at which point she'll call him a horrible person and cast him out of her life. Bad enough he's a freak but now he has to go and add being attracted to a boy on top of it. Sure he made sure that he and Robbie weren't going to date but that doesn't erase how he feels. Maybe Dr. Maxim can give him some suggestions or insight, anything that will keep him from supressing some emotion that will bring Sin back or worse, a new alter all together. Its been three months and Rocky's noticed little differences about himself that could only have come from he and Sin merging. Like his new taste for meat again. He's been a solid vegetarian for years and the moment they were joined he craved a double bacon cheese burger. In Japan when the others went out for a late night party, he went with them to the club when normally that wasn't his thing. and the brief kiss he shared with Rakuta so the two of them could be sure that what they felt was nothing, proved that deep down being happy in love with a man wasn't completely out of the running. But it is because it will upset his family too much and he doesn't wanna do that. Having his video's possibly on the web is bad enough to damage their reputation, but he wasn't about to be gay to showcase just how badly Maria /Marissa had affected him.

"You're thinking hard," Says his mother at his side. He'd forgotten he wasn't alone. "wanna spill the beans what its about?"

Rocky looks at the woman with a small smile. Then looking down at his lap he bites his thumb in thought. Another one of Sin's habits. "Naah, its nothing serious I was just thinking about Arc." He says completely out of the blue.

"Yeah, weren't we all. He's coming here for a visit isn't he?"

Rocky nods. "Robbie says in two weeks, maybe three. I hope he likes me." He trails off at the end.

"I'm sure he'll love you." She gives his arm a squeeze.

"I got him a present." Says Rocky. "Mini-chucks. I thought we could bond together easily enough if I taught him some moves. We started learning as soon as four so I thought he could do it alright."

"That sounds like a good idea."

"Yeah."

The two sit in a comfortable silence. Jessica snapped her fingers, the stands up. From the side drawer she pulls free some letters.

"These are for you." She hands them over to her son. "They came here while you were away."

"Thank you." He looks them over. About five of them. Two from Noelie and one from Emily. He wondered what that one had to say and another from Corin Balsam. He didn't look at the name on the last one to struck by the one from Robbie's cousin. She had been trying to get in touch with him but couldn't because Sin deleted his phone messages. He had to know what it said. "Mom can you excuse me please?"

"Sure. I'll get dinner started. I don't wanna eat to late anyhow."

"Thanks." When she was safely from eye shot in the kitchen Rocky tore open the letter and read.

Dear Samuel Douglas,

You don't know me but I feel like I know you. You've been avoiding my calls, though, I can understand why. I really want to speak with you in person because I have something to give you. I will bring my brother to L.A. to see you so that you and I can speak. Please don't avoid me, I'm not a bad person.

Sincerly,

Corin.