Author's Note: I'm not much of a songfic writer, but I will occasionally. (obviously.) As for this fic, I just absolutely love this song, and I was in the car today listening to it and it just jumped into my mind.

Disclaimer: I do not own Pearl Jam, or any rights to their song Better Man.


Millions of words are running through JJ's head. She's frantically trying to find something appropriate to say to Will.

"I just don't think we're working."

"I don't want you the way you want me."

"I think we should see other people."

"I've found someone else" A lie, but still somewhat appropriate.

Waitin', watchin' the clock, it's four o'clock, it's got to stop
Tell him, take no more, she practices her speech
As he opens the door, she rolls over...
Pretends to sleep as he looks her over

Tomorrow, she assures herself. Just not this early in the morning when he's just gotten in. That wouldn't be fair to him. He'd just traveled all this way just to see her.

She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man
Can't find a better man
Ohh...

Its not like its such a terrible lie. At least he's good to her, she argues with herself. Maybe she'll fall in love with him one day.

Talkin' to herself, there's no one else who needs to know...
She tells herself, oh...
Memories back when she was bold and strong
And waiting for the world to come along...
Swears she knew it, now she swears he's gone

Its been almost seven months, and JJ still hadn't told her team about her relationship. She knew why, but she would deny it with her dying breath. She just wasn't planning on being with him much longer.

She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
She lies and says she still loves him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man
Can't find a better man
Yeah...

Except she has. And Her name is Emily. And they would be perfect together. She just knows it.

She loved him, yeah... she don't want to leave this way
She feeds him, yeah... that's why she'll be back again

She tries just ignoring him. Trying to shut him down enough times that he leaves her instead. But then he sows up during their case. And Emily, EMILY of all people tells her she should be with him. So she runs to him.

Can't find a better man
Can't find a better man
Can't find a better man
Can't find a better... man...

And maybe it wasn't such a bad thing. Because she's just found out she's pregnant.


A/N: I mean, there just has to be a reason they're together, right?