This one had to be shorter, because that's how the lyrics are. Short. It is based on Hyouri by Koji Yusa, Gin Ichimaru's voice actor. It's the third song of Bleach Beat Collection - First Session Vol.05, which is entirely dedicated to Gin.

This happens during Gin, Aizen and Tosen's escape of Soul Society.


Inside and Outside

by Gin Ichimaru


"This is a lil' unfortunate..." I sadly admitted, soon after the bright yellow light of one Gillian's Negación enveloped me and forced her to release me. "If only you had held to me for a lil' bit longer..." I added, before I looked over my shoulder to stare at her. Her eyes were pleading to me. Not for me to stay, but for me to tell her something. To tell her what she wanted to hear. "Goodbye, Rangiku..." I said, causing her eyes to widen desperately. Forcing myself to keep on smiling, I uttered the last two words she would hear from me during a long, long time. "I'm sorry."

I can't say things that I don't feel. That's how it is...And I'm bad at explaining myself. That's how it is.

Soon, the energy that surrounded me slowly lifted me into the air. I stood there on that chunk of rock, looking down to that sad girl, with a mix of invisible emotions boiling inside of me. After a while though, it became impossible for me to differentiate her facial features, such was the distance. But even so, I wouldn't forget them. I looked to my left and locked my slitted eyes into Aizen-taichō. His expression, the same as always, was hard for anyone to forget. My expression, the same as always, was hard for anyone to forget. And...that last expression on Rangiku's face, as unusual as it was, would be really hard to forget.

I'm not sure if he noticed, but for a really short moment, I opened my bright sky blue eyes to take a better look at him...I don't draw my sword easily, so other than show my careless smile, I can't become anything else. I can't become anything...That is something that has been decided for a long, long time.

The sky closed below us and the Negación lights soon disappeared. We had left Soul Society. I had left Rangiku...In that place, at that time, I was sincere. I was as sincere as I could and I think I've always been like that. However, alongside the truth that lies deep inside my heart is the opposite as well, carved in my outside. The opposite...I had to live with that for a long, long time...