First of all, English is NOT my first language! & I do not own Glee, or any of the charecters... (Though I wish I did! ~)
- Niff, and I'm going for sobbu, yes... It's my first Fanfic ever... so eh, enjoy! c':
"Seriously Nick, put on your seatbelt…", Jeff chuckled, but you could see in his eyes, that he was serious. "Jeffie, relax; It's just around the corner… And we're almost there", Nick said, and you could almost hear the smile in his voice. "And, if I had the damh seatbelt on, I couldn't do this, could I?", he chuckled, and out of the corner of his eye, Jeff could see Nick leaning over to kiss Jeff's cheek, planting soft kisses different places on Jeff's cheek. Jeff couldn't hold a light laugh back, as a red color started to spred over his cheeks. "Idiot", he said, looking at Nick for a moment. "But I'm your idiot", Nick said cheesy and their eyes met… They held the eye contact a second too long, because both of them first turned their head, when a high sound of a car horn broke the air.
For a second everything froze, before it felt like the world speeded up.
A lot of things suddenly happened, Jeff cried out, desperately trying to force the car to turn, as he hit the brake in panic – Not knowing what to do, because his mind was completely blank, and Nick screamed, a high and painful scream, as the two cars crashed together, and everything went blank for both of the boys eyes.
The last thing Jeff remembered was the blood, blood everywhere, smashed together with the ruined car, and Nick's painful scream - Screaming Jeff's name… And Jeff knew that the horrible scene would haunt him forever.
It'd been a month and a half, since the car accident, and Jeff had been released from the hospital a long time ago. He had escaped with a broken arm, a twisted knee and some bruising –But the damage on his body wasn't the worst; actually he couldn't really feel it, because of the damage inside his heart.
Jeff was sitting on his usual grey hospital chair, in front of a well-known room, with the sign saying "Room 3.6". Though he wasn't strong enough to step inside the room, again, because he already knew who was inside it.
Nick hadn't escaped the car accident as luckily as Jeff had, instead off waking up from the accident a couple of days after, he'd stay asleep. And a day were Jeff visited Nick, as he had done every single day since the accident, Nick's heart suddenly stopped beating, and in fear and frustration Jeff had started screaming and crying - Innumerable doctors started running into the room, pushing Jeff aside, as they tried to get Nick's heart to go back into its normal rhythm, but they couldn't.
After awhile some of the doctors had to drag Jeff out of the room, and it hadn't gone quietly. Jeff had kicked the doctors chest, not with his fully strength, and screamed at them, crying, saying that was his freaking boyfriend in the bed. They acted understanding, but Jeff didn't believe them, and it took several minutes for the doctors to drag him out.
It'd been a month since then, and the doctors had made it possible for Nick's heart to beat again… Not as strong and fast as it should, but at least… there was a heartbeat.
Nick had been put in a coma, and was under constant supervision, not only by the doctors, but also by Jeff. Jeff had skipped school for over a month now – All of his friends at Dalton had covered for him in some way, actually Jeff didn't knew how and such… He just knew he hadn't been at his classes, because the only thing he could bring himself to do, was to sit in front of room 3.6 and cry until his eyes were blown and red.
Then he would sit there, ignoring the worried nurses walking past him, ignoring the new patients who'd probably end up dying anyway, and ignoring the world… Just repeating the scene in his head, until someone usually came and picked him up.
It continued like that for about a week, until a day, were Jeff wasn't at the hospital. He was laying in his bed, half awaken after a nap… Normally he wouldn't allow himself to take a nap, when Nick was laying on the edge of dead, but Jeff knew Blaine and Kurt was with him.
The nap hadn't quite worked, because nightmares had haunted him since the day he woke up, to find Nick on the other side of him, unconscious. Jeff knew it was his fault, everything was his damh fault, if he just hadn't taken his eyes of the road – Then none of this would've happened! Jeff squeezed his eyes in pain, as it felt like everything inside him turned, and his head started to pound warningly, as the tears fell down his flushed cheeks, again.
Suddenly a tinnitus sound broke into Jeff's head, making him grab his head, squeezing it, cursing the pain to go away… until he realized it wasn't his head, It was his phone ringing. Oh... It took him a couple of second's to realize it, but then he grabbed his phone, and the cover said Blaine… Blaine? Why would Blaine call him, wasn't he suppose to be with Nic…-Nick! Jeff desperately fumbled with his phone, accepting the call, almost screaming into the phone; "Bla-Blaine, is Nick okay, please tell me he's okay?"
In the other end of the phone, Jeff could hear Kurt talking, and the fact that Blaine hesitated to answer, made Jeff sob like his life depended on it… And in some way, it did.
"Blaine!", Jeff screamed, and his desperation scared himself. It sounded like Blaine woke up from a doze, and he cleared his throat before talking. Jeff wasn't sure he wanted to hear this, not sure at all. "Jeff… Something happened", Blaine started, but before he could continue Jeff started crying and sobbing uncontrollable, expecting the worst. Blaine defiantly tried to say something, but Jeff wasn't listening, nothing could possibly matter anymore – Not until Blaine almost yelled; "Nick's alive goddamhit!"
Jeff kept crying and crying, but this time, it was tears of relief, happiness and pure love. "Blaine, Blaine I'm coming over, plea-please give me Nick, I just want to hear his voice, just…", but Jeff's voice faded as he heard a well-known voice, a missed voice, Nick's voice. "Who are you talking to Blaine? You look worried man, sit down", a tiny voice chuckled, and Jeff kept crying, with a smile spreading over his face, but the smile wasn't there to stay.
You could hear in the other end, that Blaine removed his phone from his mouth… Why? "Oh, just one of the warblers… " Blaine started; "They've all been so worried, you know". And in less than a second Jeff's heart broke into a million pieces. That was lie, it was a lie, a lie!; this had to be a dream. He didn't even care for an explanation, in this second, he hated Blaine, indescribably. "Blaine! BLAINE!", Jeff screamed into the phone, not even realizing - Crying in frustration again. Blaine and Nick were still talking, but Jeff wasn't listing anymore. It took awhile before Blaine talked again, and there was no sound of Nick, so Blaine had probably left the room. "Jeff… Something happened", he repeated.
Jeff couldn't care less about anything, anything but Nick. "I'm coming over!", he yelled into the phone, with all his anger. Silence… None of them said anything, both of them just tried to catch their breath. "No Jeff, you can't", Blaine said, in an awful calm tone. Jeff was about to scream again - and as he thought his heart already just broke, it suddenly got swollen into a black hole. "Nick… Nick doesn't remember you Jeff, he doesn't... I'm so sorry".
Blaine kept talking, bur Jeff wasn't listening anymore, he stepped back until he was leaning up at the cold wall, slowly slipping down until he was on the ground – He'd already cried out all the tears he possibly could, and just laid there, feeling empty, cold and forgotten. Nick had forgotten him, the one Jeff loved, had forgotten him.
The next week had been the worst in Jeff's life, softly said. As the story about Nick's lost memories started to spread to the rest of the Warblers, and to the rest of Dalton for that matter, people started to look at Jeff in another light. Feeling pity for him. And Jeff hated it. He just wanted to forget it, even though that he knew HE could never manage to forget Nick. He also hoped for a normal conversation, with his friends, maybe… But no, everybody suddenly became overly protective against him – And it ended with Blaine and Kurt was more in Jeff's room, trying to cheer him up, than at the hospital, with Nick.
Though when the night came, and Kurt and Blaine would finally leave Jeff alone in his room, his inner darkness took fully over. Like any other at Dalton, there'd been a reason for Jeff to move to there, and Nick had been the reason Jeff had forgotten about his past.
With no Nick, the memories would return as a knife, stabbing him in his already broken heart. So awake, he couldn't escape the upcoming, though earlier forgotten, memories.
Jeff had tried to sleep all worries off, which of course would seem to be the easiest way to forget it all… If it wasn't because of Nick, who was haunting his dreams, terrorizing him, until he woke screaming or crying up.
Just as Jeff thought he'd gone though the worst week in his life, he was wrong, terribly wrong.
Some news had been received to Dalton about Nick, and Jeff, who in his own head should've been one of the first persons to know- No, should have been THE FIRST, to know! But he ended up being the last.
Jeff was sitting in the small bathroom, which actually felt like a good change from the suddenly big bedroom, against the cold floor, leaning up at the just as cold wall. But he wasn't freezing, not at all… Sliding the cold razorblade against his cold skin, biting his lowerlip, which probebly was white from anemia, warmed his body. The rush right before the sudden pain, pumped his blod around twice as fast - and a sigh escaped his lips.
"Nick Duval will be returning to Dalton, and starting up in school where he left off, next week..." A strong voice kept repeating.
His friends knew, they knew, and still, they hadn't told him anything… In the end, a nurse had, the last time he went to the hospital – Jeff hadn't gone to see Nick, just… Observe him, like looking though the faded glass in the door, to room 3.6. Nick looked peaceful, he always did. Oh, expect one time, the last time Jeff had been there.
Jeff had been angry, angry and frustrated, frustrated over the world, hating… hating everything, and every living soul, on this rotten planet. Actually Jeff had been on his way out of the hospital, and he made sure to push to everything and everyone possible on his way… Until their eyes met, and it felt like Jeff lost it, lost everything, and he knew it wasn't only a feeling... Just the single sights crashed every single hope inside his body.
Nick had apparently been out for a walk, and now stood there, in front of his room, staring at Jeff – Maybe just because Jeff had made such a hubbub, but there was something more in Nick's gaze. Both of them were frozen, and Nick had grabbed his head, as a pain started to shine though the normally glittering eyes, which were now faded and red. Nick opened his mouth, whispering something, but Jeff couldn't hear it… After that Nick stormed into his room, and Jeff stormed out of the hospital.
The reason Jeff had been angry and frustrated, was that he'd been forbidden to come see Nick, or at least, banned from talking to him… As long as Nick was under the hospitals care – But actually that was only the half part of it.
- Nick would return to Dalton, within the week, still sharing his room with Jeff… Though Jeff wasn't allowed tell him anything... about anything, yet.
A/N: So yeah, I actually made this for NiffWeek (which btw. was a w e s o m e !)~
Please review and stuff! c':
