Summary: One-shot I promised you I'd always be by your side until the end of time, but it's hard to keep that promise.
Song-fic, Attempted Suicide
Forsaken
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"Don't cry, I'll stay by you forever."
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Chrno fell on his knees in front of the statue of Mary Magdalene holding one of the exorcists guns in his tiny hands, his small fingers curling around the handle. He pointed it up to his head, his hands shaking more violently with every move he made.
He wanted to end his life, he felt as if he was just a burden to Rosette. Like he was nothing more then a shadow following her around. He couldn't help her like he said. And this time…he believed it.
We
lived our lives in our paradise,
As gods we shaped the world
around.
No borderlines we'd stay behind,
Though balance is
something fragile.
In his other hand he tightly held a small bottle of holy water. If he couldn't jump the gun, he'd drink to his death. He knew it was wrong, to do such things, but he couldn't help his own feelings. He felt somewhat alone and hated.
He wasn't good for anything, all he ever did was shorten Rosette's time here on earth. He knew that, and he didn't want to hurt her anymore. He believed that if he was just dead then maybe, maybe everything would be okay.
The sad thing…he believed it.
While
we thought we were gaining,
We'd turn back the tide, it still
slips away.
Our time has run out, our future has died,
There's
no more escape .
His hand fell to his side, the gun dropping with it. His puffy red eyes stared up at the statue of Mary. He was crying.
"I killed you once…I don't want to kill…anymore…" he said between coughs as his voice echoed throughout the empty church. He opened the vile of holy water and ran a little of it up his arm, he could feel the rushing pain as the water burned his skin.
R-rosette…I'm...s-sorry…
Now
the day has come,
We are forsaken,
There's no time
anymore.
Life will pass us by,
We are forsaken,
We're the
last of our kind.
He winced as the holy water fell into his lap, breaking in the process. Holy water fell over his legs and splashed onto his clothes burning his chest as well as the rest of his body.
He could feel himself becoming unconscious as the seconds ticked by.
Ros…ette…
He blinked, feeling the tears fall from his eyes. A small smile crept onto his face. He was finally going to be useful to her, and that thought haunted his mind till the end.
"Guess what…Rosette…you won't have to suffer anymore…" He violently coughed, spitting blood onto the ground.
The
sacrifice was much too high,
Our greed just made us all go
blind.
We tried to hide what we feared inside.
Today is the end
of tomorrow.
Chrno sat up warily, the scenery around him was spinning and he could barely make out the exorcist gun as he reached out for it. He put it up to his heart and closed his eyes, speaking these last few words.
"Please, God, save her from all the pain I put her through…"
As
the sea started rising,
The land that we conquered just washed
away.
Although we all have tried to turn back the tide,
It was
all in vain.
A loud thump echoed as Chrno fell onto the wooden floor, blood gushing out from the wound in his heart. A single tear fell from his eye and fell to the floor, signaling the end.
Ro...set…te…
Next to him lay the gun Rosette used to slaughter so many devils with. The one that protected him through all the hard times…was now the one that killed him.
Now
the day has come,
We are forsaken,
There's no time
anymore.
Life will pass us by,
We are forsaken,
We're the
last of our kind.
"Within Temptation: Forsaken"
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I'm in a dark mood, and my friend challenged me to write a suicide fic where Chrno kills himself. So yea…there it is.
