Hi guys! Long time no see! My apologies for the serious lack of updates on my other stories, but life has indeed gotten in the way. Writers block has also took its toll on me. This, however, has managed to be written down, so I thought I'd post it and see what yall think. This is my first attempt aat writing a JJ/Emily story, so bare with me if its not too great.

Read and Enjoy! Oh, and review please!

Disclaimer: I do not own criminal minds, if i did, Reid would be mine! muahahahaha! *clears throat* right, well, carry on...


Emily Prentiss felt dirty. She felt guilty and shameful and there was no one to blame but herself. Well, a certain blonde media liaison played a very large part in it as well. Every week JJ would tell Will she and Emily were having a girls night, then she would go over to Emily's and they would have sex. It was a routine that had been going on for about five months and it was killing Emily. She knew she had to put an end to it, but she didn't know how.

Her thoughts were interrupted by none other than the one person she did not want to talk to.

"Hey Emily, can you come up here for a minute?" JJ's voice sounded almost angelic, sending a shiver down Emily's spine. Without a word, Emily stood and walked into JJ's office, closing the door quietly behind her.

"What do you need?" She asked, attempting to keep things professional.

"I was wondering if I could come over tonight?" A smile formed on JJ's face, but quickly faded when she saw the pained look on Emily's.

"What is it Em?"

Emily sighed loudly before taking another deep breath. It's now or never.

"We can't do this anymore." Emily stated bluntly. A confused expression crossed across JJ's face before realization made itself known.

"What do you mean? Did I do something wrong?" There was a slight panicked tone in JJ's voice.

Emily let out a snort at this. "Did you do something wrong? JJ this whole thing is wrong!" Emily exclaimed, motioning her hand between them to emphasize thing. Emily continued on, not giving JJ time to reply.

"This thing between us, it can't keep going." she looked at JJ with sad eyes "It's tearing me apart." she added softly. "I swore to myself that I would never be that person who has affairs, but then you come along and use my feelings against me and make me go against all of my morals. You honestly have no idea how much it hurts knowing that it's him you go home to every night, and it's him you're raising a family with. And it hurts so badly knowing that it's me you're leaving behind, feeling shameful and worthless and...and...just disgusting!" Tears were now falling down both women's cheeks. When Emily spoke again, her voice was barely a whisper. "I can't do this anymore Jen, it's ripping me apart. You're taking all that's left of my heart, and you're throwing it away. And you're being selfish if you think that you're the only one having a hard time with this situation. I have feelings too, I may not show them as often or as well as you, but I have them, and damn it all if I let you take advantage of me anymore!" Her voice had risen and was almost a shout.

Clearing her throat, Emily straightened herself out, looked at JJ straight in the eye and cooly said "So no Jennifer, you can't comeover tonight. I think you need to step back and think about what and who you really want. Not what everyone else wants, but what you want." and with that she swiftly exited the office, leaving a stunned and crying Jennifer Jeraeu behind.