Everything i loved about her... gone. Even her eyes have changed. The love i used to see in them has gone, the happiness in them that i used to live for has gone. I used to love the way she used to be, so caring and so beautiful. But now all i can see in those same eyes is an emptiness. She turned it off. She turned her humanity off. Elena Gilbert is now a monstrous vampire. However the thing that scares me most isn't her endless killings or her feeding rampages or even her manipulating charm. The thing that scares me the most is that i might never get her back. All of this is Katherine's fault she made her turn it off. She knew that the one thing that would hurt me and Damon the most was losing Elena.

All of this started when Elena turned into a vampire. When a vampire first turns everything they would feel is heightened and their hunger is out of control. I guess that is what drove Elena to the guilt phase.

I watched it all happen. She couldn't resist the temptation of blood. I could see it eating away at her. The way she looked at people. The way she isolated herself from the world. I know she tried not to drink from humans. She wanted to be like me and drink from animals. She used call me the vegetarian vampire. I suppose that wasn't made for her. I was there the first night she attacked an innocent being. The worst part was that that innocent being was her brother. Jeremy Gilbert.

I pulled her away as fast as i could and as soon as i did she realized what she had done. Jeremy was on the floor by the island in the kitchen, Elena was by the sink (hunched over crying). Her face was soaked in tears, she was screaming as loud as she could to get away from the guilt. I fed my blood to Jeremy and then ran over to Elena. I wanted to comfort her i wanted to hold her in my arms forever.

That night I stayed at the Gilbert house, to make sure that Elena and Jeremy were okay. Although in the nigh the unexpected happened. I woke up to Elena getting out of bed from next to me. She said she was going to the bathroom, But of course she wasn't. I didn't until I heard the door slam. I rushed from the bed and that is when i smelt the blood. I rushed to Jeremy's room and I saw his limp dead body.

It was too late to run after Elena. She was a vampire she could be anywhere in ten minutes. Instead I called Damon and told him to go looking for her whilst I looked after Jeremy's body.

Elena had really planned this out she had taken off his vervain bracelet so she could compel him not to scream, but before that she had turned on the water. So I couldn't hear her compelling him. Then she drank him dry.

Elena leaving that night confused and worried me. The question in my head the most was 'Where would a guilt filled vampire go?'