It was early Saturday morning,after a whole Friday spent partying. Carlos woke up to him and James cuddling in there bed. He noticed a name and number of another man on the back of James's hand. A few years ago when James first asked Carlos out everything was great,but everything had just gone downhill from there. James often got drunk and cheated on,yelled at,and hit Carlos. Carlos got angry at the sight of the words on the back of his boyfriends hand, he sat up and punched James in the chest as he got up."What the hell!" James yelled rubbing his chest. He got up grabbing Carlos by the shoulders and throwing him back onto the bed,Pinning him to down. Carlos struggled to get free then spit in James's face."What do you think your doing!"James spat at Carlos. Carlos struggled again but James had a good grip on him. Finally Carlos got his arm free and slapped James acrossed the face,makeing James jump off Carlos who ran straight for the door. James ran after him to see him picking up his bags and headed for the door."Wait where you goin'." Carlos turned around to look James in the face "I'm leavin' you!" He said as he turned back around."No you ain't,come back!" James yelled as he grabbed Carlos arm and push him against the wall causing him to drop his bags.
Carlos kick as he again tried to free himself from James's grip. James leaned in harder basically crush Carlos's shoulders Carlos closed he's eyes in pain. When he opened them he could only see James face red with anger,his long hair laid over his eyes makeing him look even scarier. James took his one hand off Carlos left shoulder and started to choke him with it. Carlos took his free hand and put it on James's arm using all the strength in that arm to try to pry it off his neck."Let go you,fucking bastard!" Carlos choked out. Carlos kneed James in the stomach,James stumbled backwards holding his stomach in pain. Carlos ran into the next room quckily closeing and locking the door behind him. He put his back against the wall,and slowly sliding down until he was sitting on the floor. He throw his arms around his legs put his head down,Carlos could feel the tears welling up in his eyes. Memories from the past flew threw his head back before James was so mean.
FLASHBACK
They were sixteen years old and had just gotten to California to start their new band Big Time Rush. Kendall got out of the limo that had dropped them off in front of Roque Records,He just stood there take it all in until a voice interuped him."Could you move so the rest of us can get out."Logan Yelled from inside,Kendall jumped at the sound of his voice. Kendall rolled his eyes and started toward the entrance letting the others get out. James was the most excited about being here,this had been his dream for as long as he can remeber. James stood by the door waiting for Carlos to get out. Carlos jumped out of the limo looking around and a smile grew across his face. James smiled at his best friends reaction to the city. There was something about Carlos that could make James smile. He put his arm around him and they walked to the building. James looked down at Carlos,he wasn't watching were he was going and hit a pole. He fell backwards hitting his back on the pavement Carlos stood over his friend laughing his ass off at what he just saw, he went to pretend to kick his friend but tripped on his shoelace causing him to fall on top of him. Both of them were silent for a second then a smile grew across Carlos's face. Carlos blurted out laughing he looked down a James, who wasn't laughting. Carlos stopped laughing thinking James was mad about what just happened."You know,it wasn't that funny,I should get up."Carlos began to push himself off his friend when suddenly James grabbed his head pulling it down until their lips touched. James pulled away and smiled at Carlos who was shocked by what happened. Kendall walked outside to see what was takeing them so long ,"What the hell is takeing yo..." When he saw what was going on he just turned around and left. Carlos finally smiled after about 2 minutes of sitting there on the dirty ground. James couldn't help but pull him into another kiss,this time Carlos pulled away and stood helping James up and giving him a hug."soooooooo...does this mean we're...dating"Carlos asked with hope in his eyes."of coarse." James replied smiling grabbing Carlos's hand and walked into Roque Records.
END OF FLASH BACK
Carlos smiled at the memory,but was interupted by James yelling and pounding on the door. After a few seconds James just gave up,it was silent Carlos lifted his up letting the tears go down his face.
James went over and sat on the coach and buried his face in his hands,realizing what he did,he let his anger get the best of him again. He remeber all the times he let it happen and what he just did to Carlos. He got mad at himself this time,he started hitting himself in the head. He grabbed his hair and started to scream,Carlos heard him in the other room and started to cry even harder.
